A/N: Many thanks to green frog for keeping my spirits going it seems that your the only reader right now. If there's more of you I'd like to here from you but it's nice to know I have you Green frog so this update is for you!
When it all gets too much to take
"Marissa" Julie said. "Mom" She said. She stayed quiet. Julie noticed her bag beside her. "Where are you going? Aren't you staying here at grandmas?" She said. "No Joey should be by to pick me up" She said. "Marissa look I… Which enraged Marissa she got up and interrupted her" No you don't get to do this here. This is about Pop it's not about you or how you feel" Marissa said angry that she would do this here.
"Please listen to me" Julie said "Oh like you listened to me. I'm done listening to you. I'm just done" Marissa said tears falling freely. Pacey interrupted coming out hearing the yelling. "Julie" He said. "Pacey if you don't mind I'd like to talk to Marissa" She said.
"Well I'm through talking to you" Marissa said. He put an arm on her back to calm her down. "Look Julie everybody's upset and this isn't the time" He reminded her. With that Joey honked the horn. Marissa grabbed her bag. "Go on" He said looking at her.
She hugged him and kissed him on the cheek. "I love you" She said quietly into his shoulder. He smiled. "I love you too" He said. She pulled away and started to walk down the steps. "I'll see you tomorrow" She said leaving not saying anything to Julie. Joey pulled away. He looked at Julie. "Come on mom's been waiting to see you" He said. She went in after him.
Ryan, Seth and Summer had arrived at the airport and had boarded. A few hours later they were just landing at the local airport. They went to grab there bags. "Oh my god Summer we were only going to be away for a night so what's with the heavy bag?" He said.
"Shut up Cohen" She said. "Come on you guys we have to meet Mr. Witter at the entrance" Ryan said. They followed him. Ryan spotted him and waved Pacey walked up to them. "Hey you guys I'm glad you made it" Pacey said. "Thanks for picking us up" Ryan said. "Mr. Witter I'm so sorry" Summer said hugging him. "Yeah me too" Seth said. "Thanks you guys. So let's get out of here" He said. They followed. They arrived within no time.
He dropped them off at the Leery's where Marissa was. Ryan hung back. "You know Mr. Witter. I know what it's like to lose a parent. The only difference is mine chose to leave and they're both physically alive. It was difficult but you know when things get bad now there's always someone I can call. I'm sure you have someone like that too" Ryan said looking at him.
He thought about what he said. "Yeah I do. Thanks Ryan" Pacey said. "Well I guess I'll see you later" He said. "Yeah and Ryan?" Pacey said. He looked at Pacey. "It's Pacey Okay?" He said with a smile. He nodded. "Alright" Ryan said closing the door and heading inside. Joey had met them inside and had introduced them to everyone while Ryan excused himself quickly when he learned that Marissa was upstairs getting ready. So he went to check on her.
She looked in the mirror. This was certainly going to be hard. It was bad enough her mother was here but she had always loved her grandpa. They had a connection.
A memory flashed in her mind. She was like thirteen and she had spent Christmas with them. After dinner he had called her in to the den to talk to her.
"You know young lady I think your turning out to be a fine young lady. You know you have spunk and humor" He said with a smile. She smiled. "You know you're just like that Uncle of yours" He said. "Uncle Pacey?" She said.
"Yeah he was always laughing and cracking jokes, but he was respectful, kind, caring always looking out for everybody else. The boy has a heart like you and don't you lose site of that ya hear. Because people like you and your uncle are one of a kind you don't come around often" He said with a smile.
"You know what Pop I think you should tell him that" She said. "Nah he's grown up and it's to late now. I wouldn't even know how to say it" He said.
"It's never too late and you could always start by telling him everything you just told me" She said. "I don't think I could come out with the words" He said. "You could always write him a letter" She said. "You know you're a smart girl don't ya?" He said. She smiled. "I love you Pop" She said. "I love you too sweet heart" He said.
And then just like that her memory was broken and she stood looking at her reflection in sadness.
A few stray tears slipped down her face. A knock was heard from the other side of the door. She cleared her throat dried her tears and straightened herself out. "Come in" She said. The door knob turned and the door opened. Marissa wasn't really paying attention she was just grabbing her shoes from the bedside.
She assumed it was Joey coming to get her. "I'm almost ready I know we're supposed to be early" She said putting her shoes on. "I think you still got time" He said. She knew that voice. She turned towards him and looked up in disbelief.
"Ryan" she said getting up and practically strangling him with a hug to show her excitement. "I told you I was here for you" Ryan said. "But how did you?" She said smiling when she realized who did get him here. He knew she knew. "You know I'm not the only one Summer and Seth are downstairs" Ryan said.
She was swept up in emotion when she thought about how good her friends were. She smiled sadly. "You must be missing school for this" She said. "This is more important" He said looking at her. She smiled sadly. "Well I guess it's time to go" Marissa said. He held out his hand she grabbed it. He kissed her. "You ready?" he said. She nodded.
And they left to meet the others. They walked down the stairs and Marissa was immediately attacked by Summer's hug. "Oh my god Coop! Are you okay" She said looking at her. She looked at Ryan for a second and turned her glance back to Summer. "Yeah I'm gonna be fine now that you guys are here" She said. "Hi Marissa" Seth said. She hugged him. "Thanks for coming Seth. Really you guys are great" She said looking at them.
Ryan smiled. "Marissa the car's here?" Joey said coming into the foyer. "Okay" She said. "You guys can come with me" Joey said to Seth and Summer. "We'll see you there Coop" She said hugging her. "Yeah" She said. Her and Seth walked away. Ryan grabbed her hand. "Come on" He said. And they went towards the car.
When they got to the church she noticed her Uncle Pacey outside. She hugged him. "Hi" She said. "Hey" He said. He nodded at Ryan who stood off to the side. "So thanks" She said. "For what?" He said winking. She smiled and hugged him again.
"I gotta go see Gram" He said grabbing her hand and then walking away. The service was starting and they had to take their seats. Ryan sat with her. She looked towards her uncle during the service and he just looked lost.
When they reached the cemetery he looked even worse. Joey sensed it since she came over and stood right next to him and grabbed his hand. Marissa cried and Ryan comforted her.
When the service was over everyone went back to the cars but Marissa noticed that Pacey stood there. She was with Joey and Ryan. "I'll go you guys go. We'll see you back at the house" Joey said walking towards him. "Come on Marissa" Ryan said grabbing her hand and leading her back to the car.