Chapter 9
In my way home I called Sheila, but she didn't answer, so I gave her a beautiful voice mail. I arrived at home around 10. I could smell chicken, wow, my father cooked chicken for this woman, he can hardly cook raise when I'm with him. I heard laughs; it was a familiar laugh, besides the one of my father.
-I'm here, sorry for making you wait I was…- I didn't find words to explain what I was seeing, she was with her mouth open looking at me, my father didn't understand what was going on, he didn't knew that his "girlfriend" was her.
-What the hell is she doing here?
We stared at each other for some time, my glance full of hate; I hated her before I knew her, now I couldn't hate her more, it's impossible.
-You know each other? - My father asked confused.
-I should've known Beca it's from Rebecca.
-If you weren't such a dumbass.
-BECA!-My dad started to get mad- Don't call her like that.
-She was my fucking boss. How couldn't you tell me her second name? You slept with my fucking boss since I'm 8 –Clarice, or Sheila…Or the whore, how I prefer to call her, was standing awkwardly. She didn't say a word. My voice started to break, I couldn't believe this. I had to process this whole thing. I was going to excite the room when my dad started talking.
-Where're you going? We waited an hour for you.
-Oh YOU WAITED 10 FUCKING YEARS, IM SURE YOU CAN WAIT TWO DAYS.
-Beca, obey your father and sit here to eat.
-AND WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO, FAMILY BREAKER? YOU ARE SO IDIOT THAT YOU COULDN'T FIGURE OUT THAT HE WAS MY FATHER.
-I'm still your father.
-No, my father died ten years ago for me, when he left me watching the damn lion king movie. –He smacked me hard in the face, I glared at him. I could see repentance in his eyes.
-Beca, be more respectful to John. After all he's giving you a roof to live.
-BECAUSE MY MOTHER IS FUCKING DYING, YOU BITCH. YOU RUINED THE LIFE OF AN 8 YEAR OLD. YOU FUCKED OUR FAMILY.-Sheila was ashamed. I couldn't be there anymore, I turned to leave the house and then Sheila broke me.
-YOUR MOM ISNT DYING, SHE'S ALREADY DEAD-Sheila said
-CLARICE!-My dad yelled at her
-What?- I had my eyes starting to fill with tears.
-She died two weeks ago.
-We weren't supposed to tell you until…-My dad started
-UNTIL YOU PUSH ME TO COLLEGE AND THINK IM A GROWN UP TO HANDLE IT?-And with that, I left the room.
-Beca, come here-I ignored my dad and went to my room to pick my laptop and left the house from the window.
I walked for minutes without a destiny, when I realized I was in a park away from home, I went to Stacie's house, knowing they were there for the girls night. I called at the door and within a minutes Stacie was opening the door.
-Who's the…Beca? I thought you were with Jesse.
-Who is it, Stace?-Chloe yelled from another room.
-ITS BECA.
The redhead came running to the door and noticed I wasn't smiling.
-Something is wrong. What is it?
-Oh come in.
I told the girls the whole thing; I really couldn't process the information. I felt like shit. I wanted to disappear from the world, there's nothing worse than her and now I hate her more than ever. I really didn't wanted to think about that, but it was like it was in my head screaming and making me remember all the moments I lost with my father because of her.
-I'm sorry to ask this but, how's that you still don't cry? I would've break in the same moment she told me. - Chloe asked eating some ice cream.
-I don't know Chlo, I feel like if I start crying, I'm never gonna stop. If I cry, I show how weak I am.
My phone didn't stop buzzing, I knew it was my dad, I didn't want to talk to him, he slapped me because i told him how he made feel his daughter. And then I had a call, judging the ringtone, it wasn't my dad, it wasn't someone else.
-Becs, its Jesse-Stacie said looking at the caller ID.
-Hey Becs-I couldn't talk yet, I had this thing in the throat that didn't let me talk. –Becs? Are you okay?
My sobs answered his question, his voice calmed me every day, and it was the best way to start my day and to finish it. But now, anything or nobody could calm me.
-Becs, what's going on? Tell me where you are, I'll go with you.
-You really don't have to come-I was totally lying, I really needed a him to comfort me.
-Becs, please tell me where you are.
-I'm in Stacie's house.
-Mind if I go?-Stacie shook her head saying it was okay if he comes.
-She doesn't mind.
-I'm on my way.
The girls had a smile on their faces. They were looking at me while they were watching another Faking it chapter.
-What?
-You feel something for him, right?
-What? Why?
-You have a tear rolling down your cheek, when he calls you, your eyes gets bigger, he breaks the walls that were protecting you and.. .there you go again, you are playing with your hair.-Chloe said counting every single thing.
- I don't think I feel something, or that he feels something. - The girls looked at each other with a "She-has-to-be-kidding" face.
-It's SO obvious that he feels something-Stacie started while Chloe nodded
I was going to say something when the ring sounded, it was Jesse. Stacie opened the door and let him in. She told him where I was and the girls left us alone in Stacie's room, while they were in the living. We didn't say a word for a few minutes; he just made me sit on the bed and hugged me. I could take it anymore, years and years of not crying in front of people to the trash. I started sobbing and then the tears came. We stayed like that for a few minutes. I could feel his breath in my head and smell his cologne, which was delicious.
-Can I know what happened?-Jesse asked while he was rubbing my back.
-Remember when you said there's no one worse than Sheila?-He nodded - Well, She's the woman who broke my family.
-No way.
-And she told me that my mom died, two weeks ago.
-Look, I know that everybody always says "Its gonna be okay" and you knows that's not true, but you'll work this out, and I know it. And you are not alone; I'll be always here, by your side you know?
-Thanks Jess-I said hugging him tighter resting my head in his chest.
-You know that cry is good right?
-Huh?
-When I came here, I saw you still didn't cry, your make up was still perfect, and look at you now, you're a baby panda- I glared at him trying not to laugh-I beautiful baby panda. How do you do that?
-I just, I don't want people to know how hurt I am. I never cry in front of people, or I didn't do it since I was 8, so you broke my record.
-Well, you admit something, so I'm gonna tell you this, I used to go to a psychologist…- I was going to ask why when he talked again- Don't ask why. And once she told me "If a person sleeps a lot, that person is sad. If a person speaks less but speaks fast, that person keeps secrets." She said a lot of those, but the one I remember the most is "If a person never cries. That person is weak" Maybe that's why I could understand you. I still don't know you, cause everybody has a part of themselves who hide from people.
-Thanks Weirdo.
-For what?
-Being here
-Where more?-I smiled at him, making him smile. This wasn't my fake normal smile, this smile grew on it own- At least I made you smile, I'm so close to die like a hero.
-What else do you need to die like a hero?
-Show you the best ending ever.- I raised an eyebrow at him- The breakfast club ending.
-Wanna have a moviecation now?
-Damn, Cry changed you.- That earned him a punch on his arm – But for your luck I don't have my laptop.
-I have mine, is there. In my bag.
-Which one?
-I take it
I unwrapped myself from Jesse and took my bag who was next to Stacie's bed. I felt a glance in my butt. And then I realized I had my ass in front of Jesse's face.
-Stop glancing at my butt.
He was starting to breath heavily and when I turned around, he had a pillow between his legs; I preferred to not annoy him, since I knew what was happening. -Here's it, search the movie and put the end.
-Yeah. Okay. The Breakfast Club. 1985. Greatest ending to any movie ever. This song launched Simple Minds in the US. Could have been a Billy Idol song, but he turned it down. Idiot. Perfectly sums up the movie. It's equally beautiful and sad.
-That is fascinating.
-Right.
-Tell me. What does Judd Nelson eat for breakfast?
-Well, like all misunderstood rebels, he feeds on hypocrisy.
-Sure.
-And black coffee to help him with his morning dumps.
-You're an idiot.
-It's true. I'm full of fun facts.
-You should let other people tell you they're fun.
-You just said it.
-And an athlete.
-And a basket case.
-A princess
-And a criminal.
-Does that answer your question? Sincerely yours, the Breakfast Club.
I stared at Jesse, who was mouthing the whole ending, i was staring at his lips saying every single Word.
-You are missing the ending.
-Sorry
Now he was staring at me, I was trying not to smile, but it was hard. I faced him when Judd Nelson's fist was raised in the air, our faces were inches away, and it were getting closer every second. I started to feel his breath in my mouth and then The door was opened by Stacie and we were back to reality.
-I'm interrupting something?
-No, I was showing her an ending of a movie.
-You should feel like a hero, I wanted to take her to the movies once, we ended up in her granny's house.
-It was pretty hard, but I convinced her.
-Okay I was just going to take a sheet to Chloe who's freezing, see ya later, lovebirds.-We looked at each other and the both were blushed.
-You know what? Your laptop is here, show me something basic of a mix.
-Hum sure- I started to search my latest mix- This is one which I'm working on. -So, I uh just find songs that have the same chord progressions and create a track that blends them together. So like, this is the new bass line, and this is matching up downbeats.-Jesse was nodding at everything like if he could understand something, I took the headphones of my head and realized I was talking pretty loud- I'm talking really loud. Um..that's me singing.-I said handing him the headphones.
-This is really good. Now I'm the one yelling, right? –I nodded with a smile-That is amazing, Becs.
-Thanks.
We talked for hours about his past, he told me how he become a movie nerd, and all her girlfriends and crushes.
-You have to be kidding.
-I'm not.
-A CRUSH ON OLIVI NEWTON?!
-She was hot in "Grease"
And about his family, he knew that at this moment I didn't want to talk about my family. It was 5.43 in the morning when we started watching "The burbs", Jesse really likes 80's movies. This time, I didn't make it through the end.
*Jesse's P.O.V*
We stayed up Until almost 6 in the morning, my mom thought I was with Sebastian in his house, but I was comforting Beca. We were watching "The burbs"and I was telling her some facts when I saw she was sleeping.
-This is the only Universal film to include the Universal logo at the end of the film. Why? Maybe because the opening of the movie included a Universal studio logo sequence that was an animated variation of the one used during the era the film was made and did you know that…- She looked so cute when she was asleep. I could take a picture and stare at it the whole night, but I fell asleep too without finishing the movie.
A/N and this was the longer chapter i made. Tell me what do you think, if there's any mistake tell me, i didnt have time to check it.
Classes starts in two days so i wont be able to update evety day. I hopo you liked this chapter. Please review and let's see how they wake up :)