Chapter 15

When I entered the radio there was a man behind a desk on the phone, he told me where was Luke, the guy I met and gave me the job, I opened the door and there were shelves full of CD's and a both behind them, and Luke was there.

"Ninety-five point seven, music for the independent mind. " Luke said before leaving the booth. "Hey" He said with his British accent "Hi" He looked at me from head to toes. " Have you been standing there long?" He asked going back to the booth."No. No, I just got here, I wasn't… just standing here." My sentence ended in a whisper, he wasn't even listening. He exited the booth with 2 boxes of CD's." -I'm Luke, station manager. You must be Becky the new?" I gave him my death stare, I hate when somebody says wrong my name. "Um, it's uh.." He cut me saying something that my partner has his shift in my break. "Do you mind having a partner?" I shook my head. "Okay, cool. You're stacking CD's. When you're done, there's more" He was about to go when he turned around to give me an advice. "Now you guys will be spending a lot of down time together, so please just no sex on the desk. I've been burned before. Your partner already knows the rule" And he left. Sex on the desk? Really? That's a stupid rule. I worked alone the next one and a half hour, until my "dear and mysterious" partner came. It was my shift, so I was going to see him later. This job sucks, its not as bad as working in the market but I stack CD's. That's all.

It was cold outside; it could snow in any moment. I love the cold, its better than being all sticky in summer and sweating. I wanted to spend my break outside with my music, but as always, the world was, and still is, against me. Wanna know why? This was what happened.

I was exiting the radio station when THE voice hit me. This couldn't be him. "I have a GPS for you." He said with his goofy grin coming out of the dark spot where he was standing. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU? A KIDNAPPER? What are you doing here? He just smiled and stood against the wall. "Hey Jesse, it's nice to see you again. Oh thanks Beca, how's life, by the way?" he said imitating me. I was still frozen, how the hell did he find me? Why is he here? "Again, I'm not gonna say it twice. Why are you here?" I said with noticeable confusion in my face. "I wanted to talk Becs, make the things clear besides I work here." WOW WHAT? He works here? I raised my eyebrows at him. "Are you serious?" He nodded. "Why did you thought I told you about this place? To stack CD's? Nope" I didn't wanted to talk, why we should talk? If we are nothing. "We have nothing to talk about. Things are clear for me." I said turning around to enter again and he took me by the forearm. "Please Becs, I'm begging you." I couldn't say no to his puppy eyes. I looked at his hand, then to his face and then to his hand again. I was so going to hate myself for this. "Okay, since you already ruined my break…" He raised his eyebrows like saying Are You Serious? "You have a minute to explain yourself." He let go my arm and started. "First I'm really sorry for making you being mad at me, I wanna know what you know." I crossed my arms in my chest and looked to another point. Somehow, trying to hold some tears. "You, Maddie, hug... You are a thing" He knew I saw the kiss, he didn't see me, but he can feel I saw it. "Becs, we are not a thing, let me explain you when we finish the job. In my place?" I nodded and went back to stack CD's. Luke was there, he was mad. "You are late…again, Jesse" He said in his British accent. "I know, I'm sorry."

We were silent the last 2 hours, the uncomfortable silence was there. Sometime we catch one looking each other, and when we realized we were making eye contact, we looked awkwardly to another point. We finished out shifts and he uncomfortably came to me. "So, wanna a ride to my house?" I tried to hold my laughter, but I fail so bad. "You don't even have a car." He narrowed his eyes to me. "I know, but maybe you wanted to take the bus." I shrugged my shoulders, walk and take the bus was the same for me. "Anyways, we're going to walk because my house is just 2 blocks away."

"Sporty boy we have here, huh." I said sarcastically. "That's the mysterious girl I know" He said with a huge smile that I couldn't ignore. I smiled back without knowing, but I make it disappear when I realize he was happy because of my smile. We stood in the porch, in front of his door. "Okay, wanna come in?" I shook my head in respond. "But you're frizzing." He said taking out his jacket and pacing it on my shoulders. I smiled thankfully at him. "Look Becs, Maddie and I aren't a thing, we have history, that's all. But that night she was drunk and I feel bad for her and she started to cry for no reason so I comforted her, to be honest, I was dying to talk to you for at least a minute." I knew he was hiding something. "That's the whole truth?" I said and he nodded putting his hands in the pockets of his jeans. "And you were with Sebastian the whole night, you almost kiss him. You seem to didn't notice me and…" I laughed because he was jealous. "Sebastian and I Have nothing, I mean it." I told myself to grew balls and tell him how I feel. "Jesse…" He raised his glance and met my eyes. "I…I don't have something with Sebastian because…" It was a good moment to tell him, just a few words, that was all. The moment was ruined for his front door getting open. Maddie came out with an infant coming from behind her legs. "BECA'S HERE" Jason shouted coming to my arms. "Jesse, you are back before I leave" She said hugging him and giving him a kiss on his lips. My vision was getting blurry, but I could see perfectly how she touched his hair in that small kiss that seemed to last forever. If you heard a crack, that was me, trying to hold it together but failing at every try. Jason had the same expression as me. We both looked fooled, his babysitter kissed his bigger brother and this Blondie kissed Jesse, my movie nerd. The guy who used to be MY and only weirdo. I tried to didn't show my feelings and my hurt face and looked at Jason. "When are you coming home again and stay like you did before?" Jason asked. "I don't know buddy, maybe never." I said looking at Jesse, who was looking at Maddie, who, I may add, was wrapping her arms around him. "Oh. She's Beca?" Maddie asked to the both boys who nodded at the same time. "Buddy, I gotta go. I promise I'll see you another day." I whispered with a wink to Jason and left him on the floor before leaving the house. "BECA, WAIT." I heard Jesse's yell, but I didn't turn around, I just wanted to be alone.

I walked fast until I was a few blocks away from him, I didn't think he was following me, but he was. "Beca, please. Stop." For some stupid reason my feet stopped and turned around to face him. "What do you want?" I couldn't care about the tears rolling down my face that he seemed to notice. "I can explain. You seemed to be so close to Sebastian yesterday (Damn it, he saw me) that I thought you were something, so…" I couldn't take more."Shut up, I don't wanna hear." I said in a submissive tone. "Are you mad?" He asked preoccupied. "Being mad for what? For lying me? Sure, you don't have a thing with Maddie but you kiss her." I said starting to get to my nerves. "Why are you like that? If you said we are nothing. You told me to back off" That nothing was repeting in my head, breaking part of my heart and hopefully, memories. While more walls were constructed. "But you didn't back off. I just…ugh, I can't, Jesse. I can't." I started to turn around and walk away, as I always did. "You can't what? You can't not run away? Or what?" I tried to found the right words, but they just slipped down my mouth, I turned around and let the words fall. "I can't even look at you, okay? Every time I see you or I hear your name…it kills me. I hate you, Jesse Swanson." He looked hurt but he still wanted answers. "Hate me for what?" He said, with hurt in his eyes. "For making me fall for you, for appear in my life, for being so persistent and for making me change. I liked the way I was. Nobody can hurt me, but you just had to enter in the "Mysterious life of the weird girl" and then hurt me, right?" I was already crying, talking between sobs and my voice totally cracked. He didn't know what to say, but I did. "Just, try to don't appear in my life never again." I went straight to my house without caring if my dad was there and watched me cry, but I know he wasn't going to be at home before ten. Once I closed the door of my room, more walls were constructed and with every second that passed, my desire of being alone was getting bigger. My phone buzzed, it was Stacie.

9.33PM

Stace

-I was at Chloe's when I saw this.

*Image*

-YOU WERE CUDDLING WITH JESSE?!

That was all. I had enough; she sent me the picture that Chloe showed me of me sleeping with Jesse. Tears started filling my eyes. I threw my phone against the wall without caring if it was broken. I just wanted to sleep, either music could help me. I wanted to sleep forever. I wanted my old life. My mum. Being free. I didn't have to fake smiles or change my personality like I do here. I laid in bed thinking; if Sebastian was such a good guy, why don't give him a try?

Ugh almost 4 am. SO, this is the chapter 15. Hope y'all like it and review if you're still alive and reading this. Thanks guys. Love you