Chapter 17
"Look Becs, I…" He was about to finish his sentence when there was a knock on the glass door and both turned to the door. It was Sebastian "Thanks god, he saved me." I said to myself.
Sebastian was on the other side of the door with a smile on his face. I decided ignoring to Jesse was the better option. I did want to hear what he had to say, but I wasn't showing any interest. "Sebastian." I greeted him opening the door. "Hi, I'm interrupting something?" He asked entering the Radio Station. "Yeah, actually"
"No." I said cutting Jesse. "Nothing important" I could see in the corner of my eye the look of disbelief of Jesse while he turned around to keep stacking CD's. "It's almost 8 so I decided to pick you up so you don't have to walk home alone. What do you think?" I looked at my watch, he was right; it was 7:59PM. "That's perfect, thanks." I said. "Let me finish with this CD and we can go." I gave him a kiss on his cheek and going back to the CD without case. "Here" Jesse said sharply with evident anger in his voice handing me the case. I nodded in thanks and left the Station with Sebastian.
We walked for a few minutes in silence with awkward eye contact. "So Beca, I thought all the day about…you know. Us." Sebastian finally broke the silence. "What did you think?" I asked without raising my gaze from the floor. Silence answered me and suddenly I realized he had stop walking, as I did. "That we could actually be a thing." Our eyes met for a second. There were so many answers. I could tell him that I was feeling something for Jesse, or I could say yes and started to move on, as always, my brain and my heart were in the middle of a fight. And then, I noticed he took my face and pressed his lips against mine's. My eyes flew open, I was surprised. I didn't kiss back and he seemed to notice it and broke the kiss. Our faces inches apart. "Sorry." He said almost whispering."You feel something for Jesse, right?"I shook my head knowing that words were going to fail, part of my answer was a lie, but other part of it wasn't. For once in days I felt something more than hurt and loneliness, I didn't know what it was, but it was something more than that. Like leaving temporary those feeling. And it felt right for a second. I raised my gaze trying to find his eyes, and when I did. I kissed him. It was like a hunger kiss, like if I need it. Now he was surprised, and kissed back. He placed his hands on my back pulling me closer to him. When the air was missing we broke the kiss and smiled to each other. "Is that a yes?" He asked shyly. "It's a 'Let's try '."
He was hugging my by the shoulder while we walk to my house. I felt a little bit uncomfortable hugging him. Now something inside me was asking why I was doing this, I'm not like this. I don't go out with guys that I met almost a week ago.
We stopped in my front porch. "Here is where I live." I said searching my keys in one of my pockets. "I'll see you tomorrow?" He asked with his hand on his pockets. "I guess. I'll text you." I opened the front door and gave him a "good-bye kiss" before he left. I went to my room and jumped face down to the bed and fell asleep for a glorious 2 minutes, when my phone started making sound saying it was running out of battery. "UGH." I searched for the charger in my backpack when I remembered I left it in the desk. And there it was, in front of the chair that had a hoodie that wasn't mine. I took the hoodie and it smelled delicious. It reminded me of… Jesse, fuck I forgot to give him his hoodie back when he gave it to me the other day. I remembered it.
We stood in the porch, in front of his door. "Okay, wanna come in?" I shook my head in respond. "But you're frizzing." He said taking out his jacket and pacing it on my shoulders. I smiled thankfully at him.
That beautiful little moment when the things were getting clear, when I thought we were going back to normal. But no, Maddie was there. And like the stupid girl I am I ran away with his hoodie. I had to give him back, but it was so warm. I had to fight the need to put that thing on me. I left it in my wardrobe and closed the wardrobe door so I couldn't see it. I sat back on my bed staring at the wall. "Beca?" My dad said behind my door. He's never at home before 9PM. "Come in if you want." The door opened slowly and my dad entered. "Everything okay?" I nodded. "It doesn't look like that." I shrugged my shoulders, "I'm just tired"
"I'm going out for dinner with Clarice since taking her here doesn't look like a possibility. Will you be alright on your own?" I nodded and I realized he wasn't looking at me. "Yeah, I'm gonna cook whatever is in the fridge." We were silent for minutes. Our relationship wasn't the best or even strong, I don't hug him since I was 7. For a few years I needed his hugs, especially when mom was drunk or being a mess of mother. I wanted to feel the secure of being in my dad's arms. The warm of a paternal hug that a little girl needed, but he wasn't there. I thought that he was going to give me a hug at that moment but he just ran his hand up and down on my back. "See you in the morning." He said leaving my room closing the door behind him. "By daddy." I whispered to myself. I wasn't hungry, I was just sleepy. Or I guessed I was.
*THE NEXT MORNING*
There was a new Mc. Café near my house and I had my breakfast there and guess who was there? Yup, Chloe. "BOO." She jumped from behind me making me lost my balance and my coffee almost dropped. "Chloe god damn it. Why?" She shrugged with a giggle. "It's fun to annoy a grumpy person that hates mornings." She knew I wasn't a morning person and I never talked to anybody before my coffee. We walked to school sipping our coffees. "Becs."
"Huh?" I said with coffee in my mouth."We are pretty close to the dance." She said. "It's in a week. And you already have a date, don't worry. You're gonna have time for the dresses too." I was kinda annoyed, I hate talking about the dance, I wasn't even going to go. "Right. You still remember you're going with Jesse right?" I shook my head while I was swallowing fast so I could talk." That's so not going to happened. We are mad to each other, besides he has a girlfriend and Sebastian and I are actually a thing…" I didn't realize what I was saying, but Chloe did. She heard every single word. Her mouth fell open. She was going t freak out. "Okay, Chloe. Calm. Down"
"YOU AND SEBASTIAN WHAT?!" She yelled making everybody to turn around. "Thanks, now everybody knows." I said sarcastically. "They don't even know him. Anyways, you two are a couple now?" I was trying to find the right words to explain her. "No, we are. Something. Not a couple but like…"
"Lovers?" Chloe said cutting my sentence. I narrowed my eyes to her. "Please don't say lovers, you know why."I said in a sad tone. She actually knew one of the reasons of the why. That word was part of my childhood. My mom used to say "Lover" in every sentence referring to my dad, I disliked that word, I hated it. And the other reason was…Jesse. The second time I met him. "I forgot, sorry."
We met Stacie after school, she was "sick" so she didn't come at the morning, but she waited outside until school finished. "Hello world-shaker." She said hugging me. "One of the two did you chose?" Chloe looked confused at her. "Sebastian and Jesse." Stacie said in an obviously tone to her, she was even more confused. "She's no way choosing Sebastian instead of Jesse, right Becs? " I stayed silent; Chloe was waiting for me saying that I preferred Jesse and that things were going to be better. But I didn't talk. "Right Becs?" She asked again. "Chlo, I told you Sebastian and I are actually a thing now." Staci gasped amused from the news. " And he's a good boy, he deserves a try. I don't think Jesse and I are going to talk again. I already changed my shifts. I talked to Luke and now I start an hour earlier so I can leave at 7.30PM, when he starts." Both girls were speechless, I don't get why Chloe was like that If I already told her this morning. "No. I know at one point this is gonna change. I totally ship Jeca."
"You ship what?" Stacie and I said in unison confused. "Jeca. Jesse + Beca its Jeca, duh." Stacie and I laughed so hard at that. "And I thought Stacie was the one that invented weird names." Stacie elbowed me in the arm. "Bosster is awesome, and you know it. You just don't want to admit it 'cause you are jealous." I shrugged. "You know what's better Stace? Step-Momster."
"Okay, I don't get what you two are talking about but I have some new to you." We motioned Chloe to tell us. "I talked to Amy, you know, the cool girl from the Riff- Off and told her that WE THREE are going to the next one." Stacie clapped excited. I wasn't. "Great. When is it?" Stacie asked. "This Friday. Beca aren't you excited?"Chloe said with a huge grin on her face. "Actually I'm not. Why you said the three of us? I'm not going to go, you know how it ended the last time. And I know you remember it 'cause it was 3 BLOODY DAYS AGO."
"I thought it was a good idea so you could fix the things with Jesse" This was great, I explained her I was trying to forget him and start to avoid him and she subscribed us to the damn riff off. "Didn't you hear I don't want to see him? I'm not going, either to the dance." Chloe and Stacie were about to sat something but I stopped them raising my finger. "It's my decision, not yours. I'm good with Sebastian, if you don't like him I don't care because it's MY life and I don't need your help making good choices. Thanks, Chloe." I left the girls without letting them to tell me what they wanted to tell me and went straight to the radio station now that my shift started earlier.
I entered the radio and look was in the booth. When he saw me he waved me and I mouthed "Hi" I started stacking the big pile of CD's . "Hey Bec..." I glared at him. "…Ca." He said with a smile. "I listened to your mixes and they're sick, you know? I want you to play your music on the late shift if you can. At least on Fridays." He offered me with his British accent. "Sure, Luke. I don't know what to say, Thanks." I said hugging him. "No problem." He said with a wink "You can start this week or the next, just text me." This. Is. Awesome.
*Friday Night*
*Chloe's P.O.V*
We were in Barden High; I hoped that Beca could make it. I knew she wouldn't let me down and I knew she wanted to come. The riff off was about to start when Jesse came with preoccupation in his face. "Hey girls, Beca isn't here yet?" And preoccupation in his voice too. "No, I don't know if she's going to come." I said sadly. "I think Sebastian is going to convince her. He said he'll take her here." Suddenly, Jesse's face changed. "WHAT?!"
"Oh my god is something wrong?" I asked scared. "Sebastian is going on the bus, the line 56. You know what line is it, right?" I nodded, and my nodded was transformed to a shook. "Imagine this, an old line of busses, late at night with a girl that is…" He felt his phone buzz and looked for it. When he read the text he just got, his eyes were bigger than normal. His breath started to shake and getting faster. "It's Beca." What?! Beca texted him? "What's saying?" And suddenly, everything he said was in slow motion.
A/N IM BACK :) What happened to Beca? Is she okay? did she and Jesse talked? I dont know. You'll have to see. As i said, im going to update on staurdays or fridays...or if i can, another day. Thanks for the reviews. It REALLY helps :D Love y'all. Hope you liked this chapter, tell me what do you think