You Know I'm No Good

Chapter 4

Leah's POV

My head was spinning. I-I didn't know what to do. What to say. Everyone was staring at me. Looking at me with there waiting and expecting eyes. I wanted to say something, but what? I had no idea. I mean I can't just move back and then live like a big happy family. I have a life now in California, a job and a son. None of those things belong here.

My rapid thoughts were interrupted when the lawyer, cleared his throat. Everyone's pained gaze left me and turned to him thankfully. I sighed in nervous relief.

"Now Leah, you really should consider what's been said. You're father always wanted you to be here with your family after he passed on." He said, staring me deeply in the eyes. I could hardly stand it.

"And I understand that you have started a family of your own." He said knowingly. I nodded, bringing the back of my hand up to my eye to wipe an incoming tear. "Don't you want your son to know his family, Leah?" He said looking at me as if waiting to answer. My throat was closed and my mouth was dry as tears fell from my cheeks.

"I-" As soon as I opened my mouth to say something, I felt my phone vibrate in the pocket of my dress. I pulled it out to look at the caller ID. It was Clive. I got up out of my chair, and looked to all the pleading eyes at the table.

"Um...I have to take this." I said before, walking out of the dining room, through the kitchen and out the sliding door to reach the porch. I sat down on the white wooden steps that my dad painted himself. I gently ran my trembling fingers against the chipping paint. I jumped when my phone began to vibrate again. I hadn't even noticed it stopped ringing.

I quickly answered and placed the phone to my ear.

"Hello?"

"Hey. I have good news." Clive said and I could just picture that creepy smile on his face as he sat in his office.

"What is it?" I sighed out, looking at the tire swing I remember my dad putting up for Seth on his sixth birthday. Oh this day was going to be terrible

"Hey come on...why so pissy?" He asked irritably.

"My dad died. I'm at his funeral. I told you that last night after we closed set. Don't play dumb with me Clive." I said, wiping a tear from my cheek and wiping it on my dress.

"Oh you'll get over it. I see it as giving a little to get a little."

"Right." I said sniffling. He didn't understand."Um, wh-"

"I mean you got something from it, right? Like the will?" He asked, getting intrigued. I sighed, kicking off my leather 5 inch heels. Mens invention to make a girl easier to catch. Bastards. Oh shit the question.

"Um, he built me a house. And left me some money but...I don't know. Forget it so what'd you call me for?"

"Oh, right we got a call from one of your many admirers from New York City. Baseball player.. He wants to pay $75,000 for your virginity."

"What?" I asked shocked at the price. I had always gotten "requests" from admirers, but the price was never high enough for whatever they wanted me to do and this guy wanted my virginity. Wait?

"Clive you know I'm not a vi-" I looked around to see if there was anyone around. There wasn't but I still stood up and walked a little further into the backyard, into my mother's garden.

"You know I'm not a virgin. In anyway." I said, roaming around her koi pond.

"He doesn't want to fuck you in that tight little cunt of yours. He wants that fat ass."

I was immediately revolted. In the porn industry every porn star has a claim to fame, something there known for, something they enjoy doing. I do vaginal and oral but I'm famous for my dirty mouth, moans and ass. Apparently the god of measurements blessed me with the orgasmic measurements of 36-22-43. Clive's words not mine.

"No. You know I don't do that! That's just disgusting." I said, grossed out.

"Leah you're a porn star. You suck cock, eat pussy, get eaten out. It's your job to be disgusting. Come on, just go out to dinner, get drunk and let him defile your ass a bit."

"I-I don't know. I mean 75,000 dollars is alot of money. Money I could use for Jaden and I don't know me for once." I said starting to think about it. I mean I need that money and if all I have to do is let him fuck in the ass, then I'll do it.

"Fine. I'll do it." I said without a doubt. I was sure. Oh great, she's out.

"Eva baby! There you are. I'll let his manager know you agreed and we'll get everything set up."

"Ok. Bye."

"Bye babe. I'll call you later." And with that I clicked my phone shut, sticking it back into my bra strap, where no one could see. I grabbed my stilettos and put them back on.

I walked out of the picketed garden, then back over to the stairs. As I walked through the door, down the hall and into the living room. I was met with all the same stares as before.

"Um, do any of you know where my brother is?" I asked looking around, not seeing him. I needed to talk to him about well...a lot.

"Um...he's downstairs in the basement." One of the elders of the tribe spoke up to say. I smiled ant mouthed 'thank you' before heading downstairs.

I had to carefully walk down the stairs of the basement, so I didn't fall and make a hell of an entrance. I was thankful when I reached the ground as skillfully as I did.

I was immediately immersed into some type of bar slash sports lounge area. With polished oak tables and flat screen TV's. I was shocked because last time I was here, it was just like a storage area with one couch and a couple of lamps. In fact, I remember Sam taking my virginity down here on the old couch that used to be where the bar was. Oh god. It was so awkward and weird. Sam was quick and clumsy and I just wasn't ready at all. It was just pai- Right, I'm looking for Seth.

"Seth? You back here?" I called out, not quite sure where I was going . There are like eight doorways.

"Yeah...um, the door on the left. Come on, I got people I want you to meet." I heard him call out just as loud. I looked to my left to see a door that was barely cracked open. I walked over and opened the door to find a room filled with men. They were all sitting at a round table, drinking beer and playing cards.

"Um, hey I'm Leah. Seth's sister." I said giving a curt wave and shy smile. I don't do well with people I don't know.

"Is she fucking kidding me?" One of the men asked Seth, looking at him as if I was some type of dumb ass. Seth took a sip of his beer to hide his laughter even though I could see his shoulders shaking in amusement.

"What?" I asked, looking at everyone. Most of them were chuckling.

"Leah it's Paul." He said, trying to let it sink in my head. I gasped. Paul? Holy fuck.

"Paul Meraz?" I asked, starting to remember. Paul was Sam's best friend from high school. As I looked around the table, I realized everyone at the table. We were all childhood friends. "Holy shit. Embry? Quil? Jared? Holy f- Wow." I said, shocked. They looked so much different. They looked like...men. Attractive men.

"Leah shut the fuck up and give me a hug? Where the hell have you been, crazy girl?" Paul asked, jumping out of his seat to give me a hug.

"Oh Paul...way...too tight...Need air.." I choked out. He finally pulled away then looked me up and down. He shook his head. I eyed him suspiciously. As a kid he always had some slick shit to say.

"Guys what ever happened to the flat chested, brace-faced, hormonal teenage girl we knew so well?" He asked, turning me towards the guys. Embry and Quil shrugged, while Jared smiled.

"Plastic surgery." He muttered underneath his breath, looking up at me as if he knew .

"Still a bastard, I see. I am all natural, okay?" I said doing a nice little turn for everyone. "Boobs are mine. Ass is mine."

"I might need proof one day." He said flirtatiously, winking playfully. I rolled my eyes and pushed at his shoulder.

"Anytime." I said, smiling back just as flirtatiously.

Wow, I must be in a good mood. Because, I'm in an awfully playful mood.

"Alright, cut that shit out. I'm a little fucking grossed out. Damn." Seth said, with the most repulsed look on his face.

Paul sat back down, pulling me to sit in the seat between him and Seth.

Looking around the table I noticed everyone was bigger than me. "What the fuck happened while I was gone?" I asked, making everyone laugh.

"A lot a shit that's we'll discuss later, Ms. Leah. But what I wanna know is how's everything with you been?" Quil asked. I smiled.

"Nothing much, really, just um, stuff. I've been living in California with my son, Jaden."

"Son?" Embry asked. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah. He's three. He's the love of my life." I said pulling out my phone and showing them a picture of hin at Disneyland with Mickey and Minny. He was so happy that day.

"He's going to be a lady killer one of these days, like his Uncle ...His dad here?" Paul asked curiously. I shook my head no.

"No, we...uh broke up a couple months before Jaden was born."

"Was he a white guy?" Quil asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"Figured. A guy on the rez would've never left someone as beautiful as you." Quil said, blushing. He was always so bashful. I loved it.

"Thank you, but I seem to be attracted to assholes for some reason. Example number one is standing right above our heads." I said, taking a swig of Seth's beer. He rolled his eyes and got himself another.

"You went to visit dad yet?" Seth asked. I shook my head, no.

"No, not yet. I might go tomorrow after I get some rest and I get Jaden situated. He doesn't do well with new surroundings."

"Oh. How long you two staying?"

"Uh...a couple of days. We're leaving on Thursday."

"Great, we'll have plenty of time to...uh catch up and what not."

"Yeah." I said agreeing with him. We both needed time to figure out shit and understand some things.

It was cool as we sat down i the basement and casually talked about everyone's lives since I had left. It turns out, I missed a lot.

Such as, Mom and Dad separated three years ago. Paul and Jared were married to two women named Rachel and Kim. Sam and Emily were married shortly after I left and she is currently pregnant with there first child.

And what shocked me the most is that there was a new chief, Jacob Black. He wasn't really the social type according to Seth, but after his dad died he took over.

I had only seen him once or twice around the rez as a kid. He was a scrawny little toothpick with long raven colored hair down his back. We hung with different crowds seeing as he went to Forks High and I went to the school on the rez.

"And if you think I'm big that motherfucker is HUGE!" Seth said, making me laugh. He had never cursed as a teen, so to say I was shocked was an under-fucking-statement.

"What? How tall is he? You guys have to be about, what? 6'5, 6'4?"

"Yeah but that fucker is 6'8. No shit, he's tall as hell! Ripped as fuck too. I'd hate the bastard if I wasn't sleeping with his sister." Paul said, sitting back. Wow. Five hours in and I feel like I never left.

It was awkwardly silent for a moment when all of a sudden, we heard a firm knock on the door.

"Can I come in?" The masculine voice asked. And wow. If that voice wasn't music to my ear drums. His voice was deep, soft and sexy.

"Yeah, come on in." Seth said, putting his beer can down and straightened out. I looked to the door and my eyes widened when the door opened.

This man was beautiful. Dark skin, full lips, hazel eyes, big hands, nice a-

"Chief." Seth said, acknowledging him. The man smiled a bit, showing his perfect teeth. He reached over the table with his hands acknowledging everyone.

"Quil. Paul. Jared. Embry. Seth." He said stopping to place his large hand on Seth's shoulder patting it in a comforting fashion.

"Seth. I'm really sorry for your loss. You're father was a great man and will be missed terribly." He said. Seth nodded and thanked him. "If there's anything you or your mother need. Just call."

"Thanks Jake. It means alot man." He said and thats when it hit me. This was Jacob. Wow, he was gorgeous.

When he turned to me, his eyes met mine and I felt so vulnerable for a second before-

"Oh Jake...This is my sister, L-"

"Leah." Jake finished for him. I was shocked. How did he know me?

"You're father spoke very highly of you. You're even more beautiful than his descriptions." He said, making me blush.

"Thank you."He reached his hand out and I slowly placed my own palm in his. He shook it slightly before holding on a few seconds.

"Ahem." Someone said, making me quickly snatching my hand back. I looked up to see that Jake had a slight red tint in his cheeks.

"Well I should get going. I need to speak with you're mother briefly." He said, making me shiver as he stared right at me, walking to the door.

"It was nice seeing you all. Very nice meeting you, Leah. I look forward to seeing you at the bonfire, tomorrow." He said before, walking out, softly closing the door after him.

"Uh oh." I heard someone say, but I was to taken with the man who left the room.