You Know I'm No Good

Chapter 5

Seth's POV

Staring up at the ceiling of my old room, I let my mind wander to that day. The day Leah disappeared from our lives for what I thought was going to be forever. She didn't even say goodbye to any of us, just slipped out her bedroom window in the middle of the night without saying a word.

I was bittersweet towards her return. Ever since she left she's pretty much been a soft subject for me. The whole reservation knew not to mention her...well at least not around me. For four years I was mad at her, and I took it out on everyone around me including my parents. Well, especially my dad.

Flashback : Two Months Ago

"Mom, where's dad?" I shouted as I walked in the house looking for her. I found her in the kitchen preparing what looks like lunch for my dad. She rolled her eyes at my "greeting". I walked over and sat on the counter and watched as she made sandwich after sandwich.

"Are you going to give me a proper greeting or am I going to have to beg for it?" She said sarcastically. "I swear, kids these days. So ungrateful." She said turning in my direction, with a butter knife waving it around as she pronounced every syllable in her speech. "Twenty-Three hours, Seth! For twenty three hours I sat and waited for your big head to pop out of my crotch and you can't spare me ten seconds to say hi? Some child I raised." She rambled on. But I pretty much tuned out with the whole 'pop out of my crotch' thing. I get this speech every time I disobey her. Which is a lot...

"Mom enough of the crotch talk. You know most of the time when I say 'Mom, where's dad?' is really me saying 'Mommy I love you.' in Seth language." I said giving her my cutest smile. She pinched my cheek, then slapped it , I winced cradling my sore and probably red cheek.. "Ow, Mom."

"That means 'I love you too' in Mommy language." she said smiling. knowing she won the argument. This what I loved about her. Her humor. "What's going on, baby?" She said with a concerned expression.

"Nothing, I just really need to talk to dad about something important. Know where he may be?" I said completely blowing off the question. I really didn't want to talk to my mom about my relationship problems.

"You didn't get anybody pregnant, did you?" She said dropping her knife and glaring at me, always making assumptions. "Seth! We've talked about this. How many times have I told you to wrap it up down there? Twice?"

"Mom, I-"

"Seth, you can't trust the women out there in Port Angeles. They're dangerous, you don't kn-"

"Mom-"

"Know where in they've been, what they have. OH! and don't trust them when they say "I'm on the pill". It's a dead end. Ask your fath-"

"MOM! for the love of God? No one is pregnant! Besides I'm not really dating. I just need to talk to him about guy stuff. Now can you please tell me where he is." I pleaded, wanting out of this awkward conversation. Like now. She rolled her eyes and sighed, as she bagged the packed lunches she made.

"He went out fishing with Charlie again." She said, letting out a breath.

"Again? What the hell are they trying to catch? Pneumonia? It's sixty degrees outside?" I said confused.

"I don't know, but since you're headed that way, take these lunches to them and tell your dad I love him, I'll be with the girls down at the shop for the rest of the day. Oh and make sure he takes ALL of his meds." She said sounding stressed, handing me the medium sized cooler filled with food.

"Okay, I'll call you later mom. Love you." I said bending down to place a loud kiss on her cheek.

Running out to the driveway, I unlocked my car and placed the sandwiches in the passenger's seat as I sat in the drivers and pulled out. On my way to first Beach, I looked out towards the bridge where dad and Charlie usually fish and saw nothing. Pulling up on the ridge I noticed there equipment was set up along the railing. I got out and looked around. And thats when I saw it.

The gate on the other side of the bridge had been opened, Which was odd because ever since I was a child it would always be chained shut. I looked past it and saw that old abandoned house covered by some trees. I always remember when me and Le- I mean my sister used to go on fishing trips, all she would do was talk about how when she got older she wanted that house.

Only the house didn't look so abandoned anymore. Through the trees, I could see about thirty people with hardhats, walking around with various tools in hand. That's when curiosity took over and demanded I go check it out.

Before I could even stop myself I was walking through throngs of construction workers. Some where paving the walkway to the entrance of the house, while some were planting various different colorful flowers around the front of the porch. It was beautiful...and just the way Leah would've wanted it.

I felt a jolt of joy spark through me, than anger. She couldn't possibly be back, could she?

As I stood in the middle of the long driveway, staring at my surroundings, I spotted Charlie talking to what looked like an electrician, explaining how things should be done.

"Charlie?" I shouted, causing him to flinch and quickly dismiss the workers around him. "What the fuck is this? Where is my dad?" I said looking al around. My mind was spinning. What was happening? She couldn't possibly here? Right.

"Seth please calm down-"

"CALM DOWN? Don't tell me to f- What is this?" I shouted probably gaining the attention of the workers around us. I was heated, I started pacing back and forth, running my fingers through my hair and pulling.

"Seth!" I heard my dad shout, I spun around and stomped towards him. "Seth, what are you doing here?" He said looking panicked.

"Dad, what is this?" I said, towering over him speaking with with clenched teeth.

"Seth, I can explain-"

"Dad, please."

"I know she'll come ba-"

"Dad-"

"Seth I can feel it. She's going to come back to us soon and I just want to let her know we never forgot her. She's your sister Seth!"

"FUCK LEAH,Dad! FUCK. HER." I said in outrage shoving him a bit. I had had enough. "Leah is not coming back! She made that perfectly clear when she left us. So take all this shit down because it's not worth it. She's gone." My rage started to falter as my eyes brimmed with tears. I stopped and took a breath before walking back towards my car.

Present Time:

I sighed as a single tear rolled down my cheek, down onto my neck. I was crying. Fuck. I reached up to wipe my tears, but was stopped by something warm and soft. I opened my eyes to see the most beautiful grey eyes. Bree.

"You okay, baby?" She asked softly, running the back of her hand across my cheek. I grabbed it and placed a few kisses on her bare left hand. I smiled softly as I thought of tonight when I would propose to her.

"Will you make me feel batter?" I asked smiling as I watched her blush furiously. She giggled, straddling my hips and pressing kisses up from my chest to my lips. I groaned, palming her ass, as she caught my bottom lip between her own and pulled away.

When she sat up straight, she grabbed the bottom hem of her sundress and peeled it away from her beautiful body, revealing herself to me. I smiled as sat up, grabbed her waist and flipped us over to where I was placed in between her legs, making her giggle.

"Shhhh. You're gonna have to be quiet." I said laughing, pulling back to take my shirt off. She was always such a beautiful distraction.

Leah's POV

Waking up was always my favorite part of the day. I would always wake up early and go into Jaden's room and just watch him, admiring him and how special he was.

Having a child is still so odd to me. It's like I wake every day and just stare at him like I just can't believe he's mine. As I watched him sleep, I couldn't help but shed a tear to his innocence.

I had never really thought about the consequences of my actions when I was younger, just starting into the adult entertainment industry. I was always thinking of the now and never the future.

Looking at my baby always made me think about how life will be later. I raised my hand up to his soft chubby tan cheek and slowly traced the side of his face.

I wanted the big house with the wrap around porch and five star garden with big backyard that my kids could play on. I wanted the beautiful master bedroom with a his and hers bathroom and closet. I wanted the California King bed that was to big for just me and Jaden. I wanted a home.

And I had that now.

A/N- REVIEW PLEASE! I'm bored and lonely...I'll update YCSMTT sometime during this week!