Chapter 2 - Beginning to Feel Alive
"Thank you for the ride home, Damon." I say as we turn onto my street. I was quiet the whole way here. I felt to guilty about getting this ride to talk to Damon and I knew that if I did I would just end up liking him more and I can't do that.
"You're very welcome, Elena." He says with the same smirk he gave me earlier, and I swear if looks could kill I would've been dead right then. I can't believe how easy it was for me to start liking him. I've never had that happen to me, and it's honestly scaring the shit out of me. But I also know that I can't fully admit these feelings to myself or anyone else, especially Damon.
We turn down my street and I'm surprised to see my parents car is not in the driveway. My mom didn't text me and tell me that they had already left before I agreed to get a ride from Damon. I silently begin to wonder why my mom hadn't told me that they were on their way, and why she hasn't asked me where I am. I tell Damon that my house is the first one on the left, and he slowly pulls in. Even though I hadn't mentioned my discomfort to him, about my parents not being home, he seems to pick up on it.
"Is everything alright, you seem worried about something?" He asks me in a concerned tone. I like that he cares even though this man barely knows me. I know to some it may seem creepy for him to be so interested, but to me it just seems sweet. I don't know maybe i'm just more trusting than everyone else.
"No not really." I tell him. "My parents should have been back home by now, I sent my mom a text before I got in your car. It's not like her to not respond."
"I'm sure your parents will be home soon. Just stay calm until you know you have something to worry about." He says which surprisingly calms me. "And if not feel free to call me if you get lonely."
"I'll be sure to remember that." I tell him. "Thank you for the ride and I hope to see you around Mr. Salvatore."
"Likewise Ms. Gilbert."
After exchanging numbers with Damon, I head inside and see my brother Jeremy playing video games in the living room. Instead of bothering him I decide to head upstairs and take a shower. Even though I'm still concerned about my parents whereabouts, I tell myself that they probably saw my text and figured that since they were already out they might as well have a date night. I grab some pajamas out of my top drawer and take my much needed shower. After having the same old fight with Matt again, and having a much too personal conversation with a man I had just met, a shower seems like the best way to clear my head.
When I get out of the shower I run downstairs to check on Jeremy and see that my mom's car still isn't in the driveway. Even though in the back of my mind I am a little worried about my parents, I figure I should just let it go, it isn't that late yet and tomorrow's Sunday so neither of my parents will have to work or have to worry about getting me and Jeremy to school on time.
"Hey Jer, I'm gonna head to bed don't stay up too late, alright? It may not be a school night but that doesn't mean you should stay up all night." I say to him.
"Yeah, yeah. Hey where are mom and dad weren't they coming to pick you up?" He asks me.
"They were, but I got a ride from someone, I figure after mom read my texts they decided to have a date night." I tell my little brother, I'm not quite ready to mention Damons name to Jeremy he would freak out just as much as Matt would.
"Alright, well goodnight Elena."
"Goodnight Jer."
I head up to my room and contemplate on whether or not I should call Damon. Even though I know he should be the last thing on my mind, I still find myself wanting to call him. With Damon being the one on my mind, and not Matt, I feel like it's finally time to tell Matt how I feel about him. I've known Matt my whole life and I thought that going out with him was something that we owed to ourselves after being best friends for so long. I now realize that it was the wrong choice to make for our relationship. Meeting Damon has made me see that Matt isn't going to be the one to give me what I truly want. Damon was right I want a love that consumes me, I want passion and adventure and maybe even a little danger maybe, but most importantly I want to feel alive. And maybe, just maybe Damon is going to be the one that will give me what I really want.