The Rain continued to pour and I was soaked to the bone, sea and rain water froze my clothes, but this cold held nothing to the coldness of my being. I sat on the front steps of my family's old home, looking at Bella pictures of us together her other gifts lay beside me on the steps. Nothing mattered. After what I had seen and heard today I was prepared to catch a flight to Volturi to kill myself for what I have done to my sweet Angel.

earlier that day...

It was Wednesday now, and again Bella drove up to La Push. Hours passed and I hear nothing from the inside.A Storm was rolling in and I hoped that the dog would know better and bring her to so shelter and soon if she was on the beach. I could smell the dogs now, running sniffing, searching for something. The rain began to fall and my cell rang, Alice more then likely. The I could feel something was really wrong. I left the phone unanswered and ran for the beach. I no longer cared about the packed. Bella, my angel, my soul was in danger and nothing would stop me.

I found her at the top of a cliff; arm up in a diving position. No, this was not right. She was trying to kill her self? Why oh why my dearest Bella, you have somemuch to live for. I had broken one promise today; I might as well break another. I needed to save her.

"Bella…" I said "Don't do this…" I was begging now

"Please for me."

I could see she was thinking, a smile showed on her face.

"Please…" I whispered, barely making a sound. I was a meter away from her. If she would open her eyes, she would see me. 'Open your eyes Bella' I thought.

She then stood on the balls of her feet.

"NO Bella!" I almost yelled. She smiled again, like she was doing this for me, and her arms went up again.

Then she jumped, falling feet first. I reached for her but only held air.

Her scream filled the air, and she hit the water. I followed her into the water. Fighting to reach her in the ice cold water, she kept sinking deeper and deeper. She looked like a rag doll being pushed everywhere by the powerful current.

"Bella Swim!" I tried to yell. I began to see the unthinkable, her stopped fighting.

"Stop that! Don't give up!" I was hoping some much that my words where reaching her. She again began to swim.

"Dammit Bella fight!" I could see her dying, swimming hard I was so close to reaching her and the pulling her to the surface. Now I was getting angry, she was giving up again, looking at me with eyes filled with love,trying to reach out to me. She was excepting death.

"No Bella NO!"

As I reached out and touched her fingers the current took her. Shee hit something hard and her lungs were now taking in the water.

Then I heard her thoughts for the first and last time

'Goodbye, I love you'

To be continued…