Hello everyone and I sincerely apologize that it took such a long time. I hated being in Africa for the first three months so I had no inspiration to write. After that everything went so quick. I now live together with my boyfriend and I'm super busy thanks to Senior year. Besides that I didn't know what to do with the story and right now I'm getting small ideas so I try to make it as good as it was.
Still Tartaros spoilers btw for those who aren't there yet!

Chapter Fourteen: I don't know

I was sitting in the hospital room. The sick bay or whatever you wanted to call it. I was waiting for someone that would fix me. I had walked right into the guild with empty and bloody eye sockets. I felt wonderful, haha. Well it was not a complete lie. Even though I had no idea and didn't understand anything, I felt relieved and with that actually wonderful. I was happy to be back to a home that I didn't understand but that I knew a little. I remembered Erza her name, Juvia, Lisanna. I remembered Bisca her hair.. and.. I shivered, let's not think about that right now.

Porlyusica needed to come, that's what Master said. She would fix me. I only didn't know how. I sat quietly on the bed, overthinking everything. How could someone fix my eyes. Yeah sure give me fake ones but that wouldn't make me able to see. Although I was still able to cry. Maybe a miracle wasn't that far away. I just didn't want to bring my hopes up. I heard Lisanna and Juvia whisper. I could, if I wanted to, hear everything what they were saying with my sharp hearing of a Dragon Slayer. But I didn't. For one total unknown reason I didn't feel like using my magic. I might have used a spell wrong and because of that lost my eyesight. If only everything could be explained.

I heard the door open and heavy footsteps came in. It sounded like that person was wearing an armour. "If you frown like that, you get wrinkles." The voice was of Erza. I wasn't touching the Earth, too many impressions. I looked up, not sure if I was looking at her. Again I felt like crying, I should stop behaving like a baby. "I don't know how you look." I said, ignoring her statement on wrinkles. If I never got my eyesight back, who cares for the wrinkles: I wouldn't see them anyway. "Do you remember our official surname? Because that isn't Scarlet. We got the name because of something else. Can you remember?" I wanted to yell at Erza. No! I didn't remember anything and she kept on talking in riddles. Although somewhere deep inside me I remembered that Scarlet was not our official name. There were vague fragments. I turned my head to right and to left, trying to find Lisanna. Lifting my hands to find her but she got it herself or I think it was her. "We were not here all the time, were we? That's why we are so close?" I whispered because another fragment came to me. I had been looking for my sister but I had given up since I landed in a different world. "Yes. We spend a couple of years in Edolas. You longer than me. It's a different dimension without magic." I nodded, I couldn't remember the world but that moment wasn't important. I had never known my surname because of the fact that I had lost my parents and sister very early. I can't recall the age at this moment. "My hair." I heard Erza her voice, soft and soothing. "It's red, it's scarlet." And that's why she was called Erza Scarlet. When I returned from Edolas, I took the name, because we were sisters and who cared about the official name, as long as we were together again.

The door opened again and I heard Master talking to some elder woman. "I want everyone to leave." The woman said with a cold voice. I heard Erza complain and the woman, that had to be Porlyusica, say that she could stay if she would stay in a corner far away from her. "I hate humans." She muttered but I heard her clearly. She was intruding, she smelled peculiar. I couldn't really put a name on it but it was weird. I frowned again and heard three footsteps leave and one turn to the furthest corner.
"What happened to you?"
"I don't know."
"Who did this to you?"
"I don't know."
"Who was with you?"
"I don't know. No one I believe."
"What's your name and age?"
"Luka Scarlet. I'm twenty-four."
"What's the name of your sister?"
"Erza Scarlet."
"And age?"
"Twenty-six."
"Wrong."

I tried to find the corner, which is very difficult when you don't see anything. Erza had not said anything but Porlyusica said that she wasn't twenty-six. But if I remembered her birthday correctly, or well the distance between our ages than she should be twenty-six.
"But.."
"It's not important right now. What do you remember of the Guild?"
"Bisca's hair. The names Juvia, Lisanna and Erza." I skipped one but Porlyusica didn't need to know right now. "I remember Master's voice and the feeling of someone whose name I have forgotten." I felt the eyes of Erza and Porlyusica on me. It felt very weird because of the fact that I was missing eyes. "Who?", "Laxus. That's what Lisanna called him." Erza was breathing again, I now realised she held her breath because of the things I said. "Is there something you fear?" My face turned to the woman that should stand in front of me. How did she know?
"I don't know." I believed she could see me lying, but I didn't get why this was the procedure of fixing my eyes. There weren't even eyes to be found in the first place, they were gone! Only sockets were left. "You're lying." But more the older woman didn't say. She touched my face, moved it to different angles while she was staring at my empty sockets I think. "Someone has clawed it out.", "Can you fix it?" I heard myself saying at the same time as Erza. "I fixed your eye, didn't I?" The woman said snarky. I frowned again and I got a hit on the face and a "Stop doing that!" from her. Why did she needed to fix Erza her eye? Why was there so many things that I didn't know or couldn't remember.

Porlyusica asked Erza to leave us alone and send in Master. It took her some time to convince my sister but in the end Erza left. She pushed me down on the bed. Not waiting for Master to show up. She poked my eye sockets and that hurt a lot. "This is going to hurt a lot, but it's the only way." She was making a lot of noise, probably finding potions in her bag or whatever she had brought with her. "What's going on? Can you fix it?", "It will take a lot of time. She needs to visit me every day for the next three weeks. I hope I can fix it by then. But I need to know who she fears. I can't fix her eyes otherwise." I don't know why not! I mean what did it matter? I must have had an open book for a face because she said again with a snarky voice: "You will ignore that person's existence with your new eyes if you won't be honest with yourself."
I swallowed slowly, I could feel the barf in my throat. I felt like puking. "Natsu Dragoneel." I whispered. "We can't hear you. Who do you fear?", "Natsu Dragneel. And I don't know why!" I didn't even remember the guy. But there was something, like a soft bell ringing in my head that made me realise that there was something very scary about him. Master and Porlyusica were great in whispering because I couldn't hear them, as if they were talking in a different language, yet English parts in it.

I put my hands in front of the empty sockets and I could hear his voice. "Let's fight Luka!", "Hey Luka where you're going?" things like that. Why would we fight? What kind of guy was he and why was this so frustrating?
When Porlyusica was starting on my eyes, I believed I had screamed a lot because it hurt a lot and there was no anaesthetic. When it was over for today, Erza barged in and took my hand. I knew it was her by the smell of her hair and the grip on my hand. She was mad, but she didn't say anything because we both knew that it was no use. It wouldn't change anything, it could only change the fact that Porlyusica didn't want to fix my eyes anymore.

"What were you doing in the Library?" she started again.
"I don't know."
"What happened at the Library?"
"I don't know."
"Have you been at the Library before?"
"I don't know."

"Yes, she has. She was there with Bisca and Alzack." Erza, her voice was loud and clear next to me. I probably frowned again because the idea that I have been there before didn't make much sense. "How many days before and what was she looking for?" Porlyusica turned to Erza instead of me. She didn't know so Porlysucia let her fetch Bisca. In the meantime she didn't talk to me. When Bisca came in, I remembered the way she smelled, like gunpowder with vanilla. A very nice combination even though it sounds really weird. "Speak." Porlyusica said and I could hear the anger in her voice. There were too many humans to her liking in this room.
"We went to the Library three days before Luka went again. She was looking for the books about Dragons. Zeref and demons of Zeref, oh and Agnologia. I don't know why because I didn't ask that question but I knew that you were working for the Magic Council to find the Dragons."

"Did you remember?" Porlyusica turned to me again.
"I don't know." I couldn't answer, it was vaguely known yet not. Did that make sense?
"What happened at the library?"
"I don't know." Why did she keep asking that.
"Why did you go to the Library?"
"I don't know."
"Who send you to the Library and why?"

I clenched my fist because I was getting really pissed at this woman. My head was pounding because of what she had done and I felt blood trickle on my cheek. I wondered how bad I looked but did it really matter for now? She made me angry and you didn't want a powerful Earth Dragon Slayer to be angry. I could already feel the building shaking, I was probably losing control because of the fact that I didn't want to use it anymore, ever. Well ever was a big word.
"I don't know why Cordelia send me to the Library!" I yelled at her. And after that it was quit. It was like the whole building stopped moving and the people inside there vanished. So I put my feet softly on the floor to be sure the four others were still in this room. They were as quiet as a mouse and the tension in this room was so big that I didn't even hear the other Guild members down stairs anymore.

"Cordelia? The Earth Dragon?"