CHAPTER 5

Hermione stared back at him.

"Don't leave me." A teardrop fell, splashing against her cheek. It burned through her skin. She reached up and gently caressed his face. "I won't." She said it softly, afraid that her voice will break the person before her. He was never so vulnerable.

Draco's gaze changed, he had never been more thankful to Hermione. He leant down and kissed her slowly, moving from her lips to her slender neck. He would do this for her, to thank her for staying it would all be about her. He didn't deserve anything.

Experienced hands moved to her back and unclasped her bra, removing it slowly he left it at the side of the bed. Still kissing her neck he found a sensitive spot behind her ear, she let out a soft moan. It made him hard. Cupping her breast he moved his lips to nuzzle the other, gently sucking and nibbling the nipple.

No this won't work. I'm staying to help him relive his pain. It's not about me. It's about him.

"Draco.." She whispered.

"Yea?" He looked up from her chest.

"It's okay. You won't hurt me. You don't have to be gentle with me Draco."

"But -"

SLAP!

She slapped him hard. Then she hit him again. "What are you doing Hermione? Why did you-"

SLAP!

He was angry now, he pinned her arms down before she could hit him again.

"Shut up and fuck me Draco. Don't make love to me fuck me. Do what you have to Draco. Use me. Make the pain go away."

Draco stare at Hermione in disbelief. His sanity was slipping away. The darkness was back again. Molten grey turned into a darker shade almost black.

Hermione knew this was the only way to get through to him. She had to do this to break him so he could start healing.

"Okay.. You asked for this."

Gone was the sorrow, rage was coming back to him. He moved in and attacked her lips, this time it was fiery, forceful, aggressive. He bit her bottom lips till he tasted blood. Then he moved to her neck and bit down hard. It was working. He sat up and removed the rest of their clothing with wandless Magic.

There was nothing standing between them now. It was the first for the both of them but neither was aware. Hermione was focused on Draco, Draco's attention was on his pain, the demons struggling to come out.

With a hard tug he pulled her up and flipped her over. "I'm going to take you from behind Hermione." He didn't wait for a response he was already hard from looking at her delicate body. She was so precious, soft and angelic. He was just the opposite. He couldn't bare to taint something so pure but that thought was left somewhere far behind at the back of his mind. With a hard thrust he was inside her.

Pain. Fire. More pain. Pleasure. Insanity.

These were the things that coursed through Hermione the moment he was inside her.

He moved, ever so forcefully. Gripping onto her hips he kept the pumping going. "Fuck fuck fuck. Why oh god why." He was shouting now. He flipped her over again and kissed her, bruising her lips along the way. "Why Hermione why?" His eyes were still closed as he continued to kiss her. His hands moved to her breasts, giving them a squeeze before he sucked on them. He continued with his thrusts. He was cursing, shouting. Pain was mixed with rage. Everything was a blurry sensation to him. It wasn't long before he found his release and emptied himself into her. He collapsed onto her and didn't move for awhile.

Hermione laid still, she was still focused on Draco. Suddenly she felt wetness on her chest. He was crying again. She felt so sorry for him. Carefully she started brushing the hair at the back of his head. "It's okay Draco. It's okay."

He removed himself from her and laid onto her side. Staring at her through blurry visions. Hermione moved closer and pulled him into her chest. Nothing was said between them as he continued to cry and eventually he fell asleep in her arms.

Hermione laid awake, gently stroking his hair. She was aware of what he did to her. But she didn't mind. She knew what was going on when she told him she won't leave. She had fallen in love with him.

If only.. he did the same.

Morning came, the sun was skirting through the blinds. One stream of sunray hit Draco in the eye as he blinked awake. He slowly shifted to a sitting position and glanced at his room. It was no longer in a mess. A note was found beside his bed.

I hope you didn't mind that I cleaned up abit.

Hope you're doing fine.

See you soon..

Hermione

His hand started to shake, Hermione! Oh Gods Hermione. What have I done to you.. Oh no no no. Memories of the previous night came back to him. He had to go find her and apologise before he lost her forever. He wanted to hit himself. How could he? He had used her to sedate his pain. He got out of bed and dressed himself in a hurry. Walking out of his room he saw the living room was back to how it was before again.

I have to find her. Now. Where would she be? It's a Saturday..

Hermione was at her parents' house. It was the only place he didn't know. After all they've only been close for about a month. She needed to escape from Draco too. It was too soon to face him again. She needed to deal with her feelings for him in private.. and to think of a solution so that they could still remain friends.. even after what happened. She wasn't stupid. She knew that he had used her but in a twisted way she had let him and that's okay with her. She could give him everything, mind and body but her heart. No her heart she had to protect. If she gave him her heart she would be crushed. It was the only thing to withhold from him.

Draco would never be with me. He doesn't see me in that way. All he can see is Cassie. Cassiopeia Winsland the perfect partner for someone like Draco Malfoy. Her heart ache as she thought of how perfect they were for each other. So no, she will not give her heart to Draco. It was her only means of self-preservation. Maybe it was too premature to think that she loved him. In the midst of confusion Hermione decided to deny her feelings for Draco and refused to anaylse further.. she didn't want to know her answer.

What should I do. How do I face him again after all that's happen?

Then an idea hit her. Friends with benefits. Draco might consider that suggestion. She could keep him.. even though just as a friend but this could dissolve the event that happened previously. She knew that she attracted him to a certain extent and sex with Draco albeit painful was still fireworks and intense. So so intense. It brought her to places she never knew. So with that she came up with a plan. All she needed was to find him and tell him.

Now where could he be?

"Hermione dear, you have a guest! A lovely handsome young man. All that blonde hair really lovely."

AN: I hope I didn't disappoint! Draco was always a dark character for me. More so on the inside though. Please wait for 6 :)