Your life
was joy
your mama's
only boy
And when the skies
are blue
Big brother
they're blue for you
Unknown Brother- The black keys
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"You always did have a better relationship with Alice" Edward spoke casually
I turned around slowly, afraid he would take off before I could get a good look at him. Edward here all this time... but that didn't make any sense.
"Emmett!" Edward fell to his knees, he was crying and screaming. I tried to get to him, but my body wouldn't move. I was frozen in place.
"Emmett! You're so close... Cold" His breath was visible, but it wasn't cold in here.
"Edward tell me where you are!" I pleaded with him... but it was useless, he couldn't hear me.
"Emmett!" Alice?
I jumped with a start and fell to the floor. Alice was standing beside me with a worried look.
"Are you alright? You were… talking in your sleep"
Sleep.
It was a dream.
I couldn't help but feel awful, I had never dreamt of Edward before. Was my subconscious trying to tell me something? He said "cold", what could that mean? I looked to Alice who still looked worried.
"I'm sorry Ally... I guess I was tired"
"You... were talking... about Edward?"
She heard me.
Of course she did.
"Don't worry about okay? Now… let's get you out of here!"
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Alice had been living with me for a week now, and every night since she moved in I dreamed of Edward. Some were different variations of the night he was taken. Others were of him in my apartment trying to tell me something. The one thing they all had in common was "Cold" Edward was often shivering or his breath was noticeable… I wish I knew what it meant. What was my subconscious trying to tell me?
"Emmett! Telephone for you!"
I hadn't heard the phone ring, besides the only people who called me seem to be telemarketers or wrong numbers.
"Hello?"
"Em…"
I couldn't help the gasp that left me. Her voice… my angel. I hadn't spoken to Rose in over a year, well actually over three years. About a year ago I last talked to Esme and Rose happened to be next to her. My god… how I've missed her.
Her voice
Her eyes
Her smile
but…
her tears
her hurt face
It was all my fault and I wouldn't do that to her again, she was better off without me. They all were.
"Em, you don't have to say anything. I just heard that Alice was living with you and wanted to talk to her. See how she is. I… I miss you. "
She began to cry. I couldn't have that; my angel didn't deserve to be sad. She had been through enough.
"Shh Rosie, it's okay… please don't cry, don't be sad"
I was starting to cry too… if she hurt, I hurt.
"God Em! What the fuck has happened to us? I don't fucking care about the past… I mean it happened… it's still happening, but I need you. I love you and can't be without you. I want you all! Especially the bad and guilt-ridden shell that I know you are, because I'm the same. I don't care if you can't be what you were… just be whatever you can be, but be it with me! Please! I can't live like this anymore… I need you!"
She was beyond upset and my heart was breaking all over again. I love her I really do, but I just can't be around her. I can't risk seeing that look in her eyes…the same look in my parents' eyes. Only Alice can see me… she never really knew the old me, she was so young then. We can have our beginning now and I can't make sure not to screw it up again. Maybe then they can see that I didn't mean my part in Edward's disappearance.
"Rose…" she interrupted me before I could finish my thought
"No! Goddammit! No! I gave you all the time in the world! I needed you…our baby boy… and I let you go. Please Em… Fuck this! I'm not asking anymore! I know where you live and Alice will let me in. I'm coming to you and I don't care what condition you're in. I'm going to be in your life. I'm going to be with you. "
With that she hung up on me.
I was stunned.
Rosalie had never taken charge like that before.
I looked up to see Alice smirking in the doorway.
"I may have let slip to Mum your address. "
Rosalie. My Rosie was coming home.
I looked back up to Alice and she was full out smiling now.
Her smile fell a bit and she cocked her head to the side
"What's cold?" she pointed to my window
I turned around to see what she was pointing at and saw that someone had drawn on the glass the word cold. The heat in my room had turned on and the glass was beginning to fog up revealing the word. I was once again frozen in place only this time I was not sleeping.
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A/N
Hey! Hope everyone has a Happy Christmas! I probably won't update till after the Holidays… I just don't want to say I will and not… So I guess I'll talk to you all in 2012! Thanks for reading! 3