This chapter is mostly Robin's perspective on the two men in her life this can take her in the right direction again once she finds the right time to tell Ted everything but things happen and that time isn't right now. Think about the timing scenario here, Robin is still in love with Barney and wants to be with him but things don't happen right away... At least not for sometime.

"I don't feel anything when I'm with Ted. I know I thought I loved him but it's not the same, it has never felt right with him even after I thought I loved him and he loved me but it's not the same. I mean, he's a nice guy but being with him is weird. I can't explain it, I thought I could be with him again but the feelings I thought I had for him have been gone for along time. And, it's clear to me now that he still misses Tracy, he's just replacing me with her loss. I think he's just so lost without her and that's why he came to me that night with the blue french horn. I almost thought being with Ted was the only way to be happy and safe because he's the safe choice..."

This really couldn't wait any longer, this needed to be said.

"All me life I chose the safer route because I was too scared of taking a risk so everything I've done in my adult life has been safe. I liked being safe, I liked knowing that nothing can hurt me if I don't let it hurt enough. Like my father or letting you hurt me over and over again until I felt so numb that I stopped feeling anything I felt towards you. But, now I just can't do the safe thing anymore I'm too old to play it safe. I love my job but I haven't felt completed with that. I like Ted but I just don't feel the way I do for you. I'm just not in love with him to feel that way. Do you know when I felt safe and completed?"

They are sitting on Barney's couch after the long day they had talking about everything until Robin turned the lighthearted conversation into a serious one. And, now he's just listening to what she has to say and he can't believe what he's hearing. They took Ellie to the park and got dinner before Ellie went to bed. It was a nice day.

He nods and let's her continue...

"When I felt that way. It was when we were together, when I knew I could trust you with my heart again after everything that had happened in the past we got married and it was the best decision I ever made in my life. My adult life. Meeting you and falling in love with you it never felt wrong, it was scary but wonderful to fall in love, it was something I told myself never to do but with you it felt right. I knew from the moment I first met you that I liked you and that like turned into the best 8 years of my life. I didn't know how to love or if I wanted someone to love me because of how messed up I was but you did. You loved me for who I was and no matter what I did to break your heart so many times that I don't even know how to make it right to you again. You still loved me anyway, the moment I married you I knew I wasn't scared anymore because all my life I ran because of being scared but then after we divorced I began to wonder what the hell was I doing... Letting you leave the way you did."

"He's just not me/you."

They say in unison looking at each other wondering where the time went. This time, it could be it for each other, they are both at the age where life starts to get slowly and you realize things you tried to stop realizing. They stared at each other for... They don't know, when one of them moved or talked that spell they were just under broke and everything started to come undone. Unfinished if you will...

"What about Ted? I know there's still a little part of you that can't leave him. I mean, I know you want to be with me but what about Ted and the kids and your life with them?"

Barney wants to just ask her to move in with him but he can't do that unless Robin wants to and once she tells Ted. She wanted to stay here for the rest of her life but she knows there's Ted, and that life she thought was better for her but she doesn't want to hurt Ted's feelings cause she knows he loves her.

"We can't be together until you tell Ted and let this nice guy dream of yours go. He's not a baby he can handle what you tell him. He will understand, if he cares about you enough he will understand that you don't love him and you want to be with me."

Barney's right, she wants to call Ted now and tell him everything but she doesn't want this to happen over the phone or by text. Being with Barney is what she wants but Ted still think she wants to be with him and loves him. She's too old to play these games, they're too old to play these games as serious as they are they can't be together until Ted knows.

Ted comes back home that following Sunday to Robin in the kitchen making some dinner. She is making this meal for him to tell him that she doesn't want this life, that she doesn't love him and wants to tell him about Barney but that all doesn't happen right at this time.

Timing: Someone once told her that if you have chemistry the timing will be a bitch and man that someone was once her very best girlfriend. Lily was right, timing is a real bitch when it takes longer to be with someone you love. Robin learned this listen several times over the years and one of those times was when she wanted to be with Barney but the timing wasn't right because he was dating someone else.

"My mother is sick she wants me to come visit her. Tomorrow." Damn, just when she thought she could talk to him and tell him everything she needs to tell him this happens.

I'm sorry Barney, apparently Virginia is sick I can't tell him now.

Robin feels terrible, she always seems to get herself into these situations and never gets to finish what she starts. In this case a conversation that needs to be situated but now she can't do that cause she needs to be there for Ted in case whatever happens to Virginia is bad.

Okay, but are you sure you aren't just dragging your feet with this?

Barney's not shocked by this she always does this every time she gets herself into something serious she runs it's always been her weakness to her personality it's the one thing Barney can't fathom.

No, I'm serious Virginia is sick we are going to Ohio tomorrow. Again I'm sorry

Great, now he has to wait for an answer from her and god only knows when that will be.

Barney and Robin continue to text each other the next week talking back and forth telling each other things that aren't serious. Robin is dragging her feet on this, Barney hates this whole thing he just wishes that his life had been completed already once he married Robin but that feeling of feeling whole again doesn't seem to ever close. He wants that feeling of forever with Robin but he also knows that whenever something difficult comes up she chickens out, just like she always does. He hoped that it was easy again, easy for them to go back to the way things were. He misses her and she misses him but being together it's just not a good time and that feeling of forever with her feels to be strained again.