So sorry about the short chapters, but unfortunately life has really gotten in the way of writing. My boyfriends mom is in the hospital so I have been with him every day this week and have not been getting home until quite late. Once things begin to get better I will have ore time to update and give you longer chapters. I hope everyone's weekend was nice. Please Review and follow :)
Chapter Three: Stitches
I nod my head in agreement, and I am not sure if I am just saying yes because I am far from sober, or because I really do want to stay and make things right; to make things better. My eyes are heavy as tears fall freely. "Christian, there is something I need to tell you, but I don't know how to say it." Looking into his beautiful grey eyes kills me inside, knowing that what I tell him next will surely crush him as much as it has crushed me.
"What is it Ana?" He grabs my shoulders pulling me in closer to him, urging me to tell him.
My breath hitches and as I part my lips ready to explain what has happened to me in the past two months of my life without him. Just as I begin to speak Kate and Elliot finally make their appearance. Christian scowls at their horrible timing, glaring at both Kate and Elliot.
"Kate I'm so sorry for the way I have acted", I walk over to her timid; scared that my apology won't be enough. She wraps her arms around me embracing me in a tight bear hug. "Oh Ana don't so silly I could never stay angry with you for anything. All I want is to make you better, and I know that Christian made you the happiest." I blush, she is so very right, Christian did always make me the happiest.
Maybe it is a good thing they are here, just maybe I can tell Christian without him losing his mind. I need them all to know why I have been so broken, not just him.
"Can you guys sit down. I need to tell you something, and it is in no way easy for me to say." My mind is battling with my heart on whether I can actually do this, can I really be this vulnerable again and let go on the demons inside? I will try my hardest; for them, and for me.
I sit down between Kate and Christian which strangely makes me feel as safe as I have in a while; like coming home after a vacation. I try to build up the courage to begin, first looking at Christian but stopping on Kate's feeling like it safer than seeing the pain that is sure to resonate in Christian's eyes.
"So, as you know Kate, a little after Christian and I stopped seeing each other I got a job with SIP." I pause as Kate nods for me to continue. Giving a quick glance in Christian's direction I realize he already knew that I had gotten a job there.
"I quit after a month and I told you it was because it was not the job for me." I stumbled over my words feeling bad about the time I had lied to Kate about why I had left my new job, which I had actually loved.
"Well that was not the case, something happened between my boss Jack and I..." I trailed off, this was just too hard to say. The butterflies in my stomach are trying their hardest to escape, leaving me hollow.
Christian stands from the couch in a quick motion, and when I look at him he looks wracked with fear from what will be said next. He opens and closes his mouth trying to figure out how to make the words leave his mouth.
"Ana please clarify, or I am going to lose my mind" His hands are in his hair and he is once again pacing, back and forth, back and forth like a caged animal in the zoo.
" He raped me Christian.." As soon as the words left me I felt better, but it was as if my pain had just been transferred onto him. I reached for him to try to make things better, but he had already made his way into the elevator and was calling for Elliot to follow him.
When my legs finally began working again I ran to the elevator to stop them, but the doors closed before I could get to them. My heart pounded so loud inside my ears, I could hardly hear myself screaming for Taylor. "Stop him!"