Sorry this is so short, but I wasn't quite sure if I would continue the story or not after a lot of the reviews I had received. Also I am not positive on where I see this story going. If you have any ideas, let me know!
Bish
Chapter five: Numb
My mind is far from calm; a perfect storm of emotions, past memories and current thoughts spin through it like a tornado. My stomach turns and my mouth turns warm as I try to hold back the vomit. Everything is spinning, it all passes by my eyes quickly in a blur. Christians beautiful apartment, my friends worried faces, and the look of Taylor as he comes through the elevator doors and strides towards me.
"No." It is the only word I can manage to blurt out before he comes to close.
"Ms. Steele, I was instructed to keep you here and to keep you safe." His voice doesn't waver, but yet I can feel the uneasiness of his words.
"Taylor, he has no rights over me, I am leaving. Do not follow me." There is no confidence in my statement, but I say it anyways.
Finding my cell phone I find a number for a taxi and punch it in. As I step into the elevator I look to Kate. " I know you were only trying to help Kate, but you can't fix me..."
I come undone once I am finally alone in the back of the taxi. The tears flow freely as I sob into my hands. Why did this happen? Why did life have to become so hard? And although I know Kate was only trying her best to help me; I wish she had just left me alone. None of this was Christian's fault, we had our differences and I left. This was Hyde's fault, he ruined everything, and now Christian who was already broken himself had been burdened with my problems as well. Every night since I left Christian I have dreamed of being in his arms again. I have dreamed that he would somehow forget his need for BDSM and would love me with hearts and flowers instead of whips and canes, but I know it doesn't just work that way. He needs someone that can give him what he wants ; and I certainly cannot be that girl after what Hyde has done to me.