Chapter 3

Edward quickly put his seatbelt on and started the car, "I don't care!"

~End of Flashback~

I left the bathroom shortly after the bell rang and went straight for my fifth period class. I wasn't very far from it so I turned out to be the first in the class. The class filled up pretty fast after that though. I had art this period with Mr. Freeman.

He acted a bit weird but that was only because he was so passionate about art. He thought art was about looking into your soul. I was ignoring him most of the time but once he asked, "Can anybody tell me what there feeling right now?" I looked up.

Ha, truth was I've been numb since the night of the party. Every once in a while I'd feel pain, sadness but the feeling I felt the most was numbness. I didn't feel anything. And I was okay like that.

I did miss the feeling of happiness I used to get. But I much rather feel numb than feel pain. I paid attention again once he started going around the room with a broken globe and people were taking a piece of paper out.

"The word that you get from the paper will be your assignment for the rest of the year. I want you to find different ways to make art with this object," he said as he walked around.

I'm going to hate this class. I looked down at my hands, "Bonk," I looked up to see Mr. Freeman move the globe away from where he had gently hit my head.

I put my hand in there and pulled out a piece of paper. It said tree. I was about to put it back in when he said, "Whoa, whoa, whoa, you just chose your destiny you can't change that," he said as he pulled it away.

I looked down at the paper that read tree on it. I wish I could change my destiny. "I learned how to draw a tree in the second grade," I spoke up.

He put the globe down, "Oh," he walked back over to me and handed me the piece of chalk he was holding, "You want to show."

I pulled my head back a bit from surprise. I don't want to go in front of the class, "Don't worry," he said, "I won't grade you on it."

I took the piece of chalk with shaky hands and slowly got up and walked my way towards the board.

Someone snorted like a pig from my right. I turned to look, "No commentary," Mr. Freeman said.

I went up to the board and slowly drew a circle with J's coming out of them. I turned around slowly. I could hear a couple of chuckles coming from some kids.

"Okay good start lets see how it turns out by the end of the year," he said.

Bus ride home was pretty boring. I went over the events that had happened that day. I had Edward for first, second, and last period. I only had to sit next to him first though. My friends were all talking to each other but I just stayed quiet. None of them talked about the incident at lunch.

And I was thankful about that. I looked at the girls chatting in front of us to see them laughing and pointing at me. "Yeah she called the cops at Kyle's party," they whispered loud enough for me to here.

I looked away and looked out the window. Everyone soon departed the bus. I was the last person he dropped off. He dropped me off across the street. I got out and waved goodbye before I walked across the street and went straight to my room.

I dropped my backpack on the floor and got under the covers. I breathed in slowly and tried my best to erase everything that had happened today. I just couldn't erase his face; Edward's. He had looked so worried about me when I ran out of first period. But how could he still care when he said he didn't at the party.

I should be mad at him. I should hate him. But for some insane reason I just couldn't get him off my mind. I got out from under the covers quick when my mom entered.

"Are you sick?" she asked.

I couldn't make any words come out of my mouth so I just shook my head.

"Okay well I got you this from a store. If you don't like it just tell me and I'll return it back," it was a hideous purple sweater. I just nodded as she hung it on the door knob and left the room.

Definitely not wearing that. I did my homework and was finished by nightfall. After I finished I went downstairs and watched a movie on TV while I ate pizza. I hadn't eaten anything that day so I was starving.

I had that dream again. About the party. I have a dream about it almost every night. What happened to me was horrible but what Edward did to me hurt more. I don't get how he could just say he didn't care and then act like he did after a couple months.

I went to school the next morning with my mom mad at me. I didn't wear the sweater she bought me and apparently she can't return it back because she got it on clearance. Then why the hell did she say I could return it? So I went to school a bit pissed off. My mom was acting like a douche bag.

I was silent on the bus drive again. My friends didn't ask why though. I just stared out the window as they talked on and on. Truth is no body gives a shit about what you say or what you think. It's all bull crap when they say that they're there to listen to you. It's all total crap.

That's why I didn't care to speak out my opinion anymore. I don't think anyone would notice or care if I never spoke a word again. They just kept talking about clubs they wanted to join and cute boys. I wonder how long it would take for them to notice if I just…stopped talking.

I walked into biology on time this time and sat in my seat across from Edward's. I just stayed quiet as she started class. Edward was staring at me though. I looked at him from the corner of my eye every once in a while but mostly ignored him.

The teacher instructed for us to go to the back tables and sit with our lab partners. We all got up and walked over to a table. I followed Edward and sat in the stool next to him. All she was doing was giving us rules about the labs we were gonna do.

I ignored her and glanced over to see Edward's binder. He had pictures of the whole gang together taking a picture. One of me and him smiling like idiots at the camera. I almost smiled at that until I saw the one with him and his guy buddies.

I quickly looked away and actually paid attention to the teacher for once.

The weeks passed by pretty fast after that. I only talked to Edward when I had to. I talked to my friends when they started talking to me. I talked to the teachers when they asked me a question but other than that I was quiet almost all day everyday.

My tree was coming out better once I put my heart into it. I was beginning to like art. A lot. It helped me pour my soul out like Mr. Freeman said. Most of my trees were dark though. They had a dark feeling to them.

I had just left the cafeteria when the same man that wanted to give me a demerit the first day of school started calling after me. "Swan!" I looked back in fright. What did I do this time? I quickly started walking faster down the hall. My storage room was passed the hall where all the senior boys hung out.

"Swan!" he was walking faster now. I sped down the hall.

"Fresh meat!" I turned around to see Tyler looking at me with a smirk.

I looked at him in horror and disgust, "What I can't say hi?" he asked. I looked next to him to see Edward with a huge grin on his face. I clenched my jaw and quickly ran into my storage room just in time. I lost the demerit guy.

~Flashback~

I looked around for my friends. I couldn't find them anywhere. I was at a party all alone and bored. Before we got here I was all excited now I see that I wouldn't have missed anything if I hadn't come. I stopped in front of the glass doors when I saw Edward making out with some chick.

I knew he was drunk but it looked like it was going to go somewhere. I sighed as I watched them make out heavily. Someone's arm went around my waist making me turn around in confusion.

"Sorry I just thought that it wasn't right to see such a pretty girl all alone," it was Tyler. One of Edward's friends. He was a junior in high school.

I smiled at the fact that he called me pretty, "I'm not alone," I informed him, "My friends are inside," I said pointing my thumb towards the glass doors.

"Wanna dance?" he asked.

I looked back inside before looking back at him and nodding, "Yeah." He took my hand and led me to the back of the house where the dancing was taking place. He took the cup I had in my hand, it was a coke, and threw it in the bushes with his beer bottle.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and we danced for a bit. It started raining suddenly I looked up and laughed. He lifted me up against him and swung me around making me laugh more. He put me on the ground again and splashed me with water from the ground.

I bent down and splashed him back with a huge grin on my face. He pulled me towards him and crashed his lips on mine. I placed my hands on his shoulders as he wrapped his arms around my small waist.

He lifted me up against him again but never broke the kiss. This is the best first kiss ever. I'm glad I came to this party.

~End of Flashback~

Little did I know.

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