LIMIT TO YOUR LOVE.
There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love
Your love, your love, your love
Rick looked towards the night stand, picking up his watch and reading the time. 2:00 AM, he sighed as sleep once again was so far away from him. Michonne as always, occupied his mind like a moth to the flame. Her presence so prominent, that even with her absence she still filled each and every one of his senses. Surrounded by nothing but stillness and the constant beating of the rain on the window pane, he was alone but within darkness would always come light. No longer wishing to wallow in his own self pity, a spark of determination supposedly or mere foolishness came over him, he knew what needed to be done and with that, he got up. Rick scanned the dimly lit bedroom searching for a clean shirt and jeans, once found, he slid them on before putting on his boots and trudging down the stairs and out the front door into the pouring rain, he marched south towards the quaint little house on the corner of Monroe.
Michonne sat in the middle of the bed with her legs pressed against her chest. Studying the rain fall, it falling like GOD'S own poetry, singing to her; each droplet a single phrase in a song that only he could speak to her heart. This song bringing the only serenity into the chaos that was her life. Hurt was a strange thing, sometimes holding on to the pain that left you miserable, somehow kept you safe. Safe from taking the risk of forgiving this person and being disappointed all over again. Sometimes not forgiving or forgetting was the best option. Michonne arouse from her bed, the feeling of laying there and sulking became overwhelming for her, she was always strong, she always knew how to be strong and how to deal with shit when things would go awry, she always knew how to suck it up and keep her shit together but this… this left her sinking in a sea of anguish that she had no clue on how to stay afloat from. Michonne walked towards her bedroom window, gently sitting on the sill of it as she sighed, utterly defeated.
In the distance she could hear footsteps pounding on pavement. Those footsteps even in the rain she knew, she jumped up and looked out her window, inquisitively, her eyes roaming the nightfall until her eyes landed on him, walking briskly towards her home. Michonne, dashed down the stairs, heading straight to the front door. She opened it and to her dismay, there he stood.
There's a limit to you care
So carelessly there, is it truth or dare
There's a limit to your care
There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love
Your love, your love, your love
She stepped outside, closing the door behind her, standing face to face with him. Her breath quickened as she studied Rick's face, her emotions overflowing like a river as much as her heart yearned for him, her mind could not just let what happened go, it could not be forgiven and the fact that he was here at her door the dead of night, standing in the pouring rain, with eyes piercing through her soul making her entire being melt, pissed her off.
"What are you doing here Rick?" she snapped
"I needed to talk to you Chonne" he whispered adjusting his weight between his feet, nervously
"Rick don't start with the nicknames, What is there to say? she questioned, wrapping her arms around herself, suddenly feeling uncomfortable in his presence, she tried to use them as a barrier, as if those arms could keep him from leaving her completely bare . "Everything needed to be said has already been said. You made a choice Rick a choice that affected everyone around you and you have to deal with the consequences of your actions."
Rick nodded slowly, taking in every word she spoke. "I know" he said softly
"Do you really Rick? Do you consciously understand what you have done? Have you taken any kind of accountability for all of this?" she blurted louder than she had previously intended as her hands fell down to her waist angrily.
"Ye- Yes I have, It haunts me everyday" he replied sadly
Michonne shook her head as she fought back the tears that stung at her eyes, like poison to the veins. "How can I believe you Rick? How do I know that the next blue eyed, blond haired housewife that bats her eyelashes at you… that this will not happen again! That you will not choose a woman that you barely fucking know over your kids…. OVER ME!"
"Michonne it won't-"
"How do I know that!" she spat painfully, as those tears began to fall
"Because it won't" he implored a little more assertion in his tone. "I'm sorry…..I'm sorry Michonne, he breathed out as his voice cracked, "I disappointed you, I disappointed Carl and Judith, I disappointed myself and I wake up every day regretting what I did because my carelessness caused me to lose one of the most valuable thangs in my life, you. It's YOU Michonne, it has always been you and I am sorry for my actions. I cannot go back in time to rewind it, I cannot go back in time to change what I di- If I could I would. I would have never done it, never pursued her, never hurt her kid-our family, never hurt you. I ain't Mike and I know what I caused made you feel like I was, it took you back to then and what he did, I am so sorry for bringing that pain back up. It ain't right and I can promise it will not happen again and if I need to, I will take on that pain, every hurt you may feel, every doubt, fear or mistrust, just give it to me and I will wear it on my back proudly. I want you home, the kids need you-I need you and each day without you has been hell for me, the darkness in me has consumed everythang and the only thang I know that can take it away is YOU, only you can fill this ache..." He said gently as he pointed towards his chest... His tear stained eyes searched hers, pleading for some sort of understanding, to know that she believed him and would try to trust him again. He cautiously raised his hand, placing it as gently as a butterfly to a rose, on her cheek wiping away her tears with his thumb. Michonne allowed it as she breathlessly stood in awe, she softly looked into his eyes, urging for him to continue silently.
"Anything you ask of me I will do because you deserve it and I will spend every day, for the rest of my life proving that to you. I won't ever hurt you again, I ain't perfect, I'm not a knight in shining armor or a prince charming, I'm barely even a good soul but I love you Michonne and I will give you all the parts of me, the good, the bad and the broken….only if you're willing to have me?" he questioned, his voice laced with vulnerability.
There's a limit to you care
So carelessly there, is it truth or dare
There's a limit to your care
Rick knew it was a long shot but it was a risk worth taking, even if she rejected him after bearing his soul to her, the fact that she knew all of what his heart contained for her, was enough.
"I'm sorry for coming over unannounced and dropping all of this on you and getting you upset, I ain-…" Michonne's finger seized Rick's mouth, cutting off the rest of his sentence. She silently shushed him, using her free hand to interlock her fingers into his. She removed her finger from his lips and grabbed the doorknob behind her, opening it, still facing him she lead him into her home and without question Rick followed. Anywhere Michonne led him; he would follow devotedly time and time again.
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