Chapter fifteen. I want to kiss someone!!!

I opened the door and suddenly, smiling sadly back at me was the least person I was expecting.

"Hey Bella", said Jacob quite sheepishly. I wanted to slam the door on his face. After what he did last time, after what he said, that's what I should've done.

Emmett got a little bit protective but what Jacob said was wrong. Emmett cared about me, that's why he did it. Jacob was wrong. Absolutely wrong.

But Emmett had lied, hadn't he? He knew I was adopted. He didn't tell me though. Didn't I deserve to know?

Yeah, I did. But life wasn't fair, was it?

Edward didn't kiss me.

Yeah, I was still angry with that. Still angry. But all of it just didn't make sense. Either he was very stupid or he was a jerk. Either way, I wasn't happy.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, reasonably calm if I do say so myself. I hadn't slammed the door on his face.

"I came to apologise", said Jacob, "please, just listen to what I have to say."

"I'm listening", I sighed, knowing that if I didn't listen to Jacob he'd just annoy me.

"You're listening?" he asked looking surprised.

"Make it quick", I snapped icily. Jacob took in a deep breath. I looked up at him to see his dark eyes looking back down at me.

"I'm sorry for everything I said", he began, and "it was over the top and completely rude and completely wrong to say. I don't like hurting you Bella, and I really like you. I thought you were mad at your brother Emmett, and I thought if I said some stuff about him, you might agree with me and… well, we could get on…better."

"What Emmett did was mean", I interjected, "but what you said was just horrible, Jake. He's still my brother, you know."

"Yeah, I know, Bella. That's why I'm sorry", said Jacob ruefully. He looked at me with a pleading face. "Please Bells, I hate not talking to you. I was a jerk and I'm really sorry."

"You hurt me Jake", I said shaking my head, "what you say about Emmett applies to me."

"I didn't mean it though", Jacob explained quickly, "I really didn't. Please Bella, I'd do anything to get in your good books again. Anything."

I bit my lip and stared at the ground. What Jacob had said was unacceptable. But he was my friend, wasn't he? He was the victim after Emmett launched himself at him. I wanted my friendship with Jacob. He was one of the only guy friends I had. I wanted to keep that. But he had to know when to lay off.

"I could never be mad at you for long"; I sighed looking up at Jacob. A goofy grin was plastered on his face as he realised what I said. Before I could speak again, he had me in a big crushing hug.

"I'm so glad, Bella. I really am", Jacob gushed wrapping his arms around me and lifting me off the ground. I gasped at the sudden contact but couldn't stop myself from smiling. Forgive and forget, right?

It was only fair to forgive Jacob. I had forgiven Emmett, Esme and Carlisle, hadn't I?

Hadn't I?

"I've missed you", Jacob murmured putting me down but not taking his hands back.

"I've missed you too, Jake."

"Alright, that's enough hugging!" boomed a voice causing me to jump. Just as I feared, Emmett had appeared from the living room narrowing his eyes at Jacob. I groaned praying he would be true to his words and wouldn't be as he was last time.

Jacob released me.

"Jacob Black", muttered Emmett.

"Emmett Cullen", said Jacob in the same manner.

"Bella Swan", I giggled, trying to enlighten the mood.

"Swan?" Jacob repeated staring at me with an arched eyebrow. I suddenly realised what I had just said.

"I meant Cullen", I rephrased quickly.

"How can we help you?" asked Emmett directly to Jacob.

"He's here for me", I filled in, "go Emmett, please."

"I thought you fell out with eachother?" Emmett persisted, not budging.

"He's just apologised", I hissed, "now we're ok. Can you give us some privacy or something?"

"You forgave him?" chirped a voice. I looked behind Emmett to see Alice's head hovering behind the living doorway. Above hers were Rosalie's and jasper's and above his were Edward's.

They were eavesdropping.

"Hello? Private convo?" I demanded.

"Seriously, Bella. You forgave him?" repeated Rosalie looking outraged.

"Yes, I did", I snapped, "Stop listening to my personal conversation!"

"Do you want to come to my place?" asked Jacob. I turned my attention to him to see that he was glaring at Emmett but with a smile tugging at his lips.

I sighed. That would be the only way I would get to talk to Jacob.

"Yeah, ok", I said nodding.

"You cant!" snapped someone suddenly. I turned around to see Edward emerging with not only his head this time. He looked panicked, hurt and frustrated all at once.

"I can't?" I repeated. Who was he to say that I couldn't? Edward Run-away-from-kissing-Bella Masen.

"Don't just go wallowing off now that he's said sorry", Emmett interrupted, "you can't trust just anyone nowadays."

"Yeah, because people lie", I snapped back at him, "but I want to go with Jacob. I'll be fine."

"Aren't you going to hang out with us?" asked Edward. I turned to him. What, did he think I'd be begging him to kiss me? Did he think I had no other friends? That he was my only option?

With full hatred and discontent, I turned around I grabbed Jacob pulling his lips down to mine.

Jacob's reaction was very startled. He was tense at first, not knowing that I would do this but he relaxed after a couple of seconds and slowly his lips began to move with mine. His arms went around me once again and pulled me closer. If I said I was enjoying it, I would be lying. His lips were soft but pressuring. His arms tightly around me made me feel slightly uncomfortable and it wasn't my best kiss.

"Hey, what the fuck?" someone roared from behind.

I expected it to be Emmett, but it wasn't.

Edward grabbed me suddenly and I was pulled from Jacob. I felt myself being shoved along away from Jacob and pushed into the living room onto a sofa.

"Thanks Jacob for stopping by", said Rosalie in a sickly sweet voice, "but you're not really wanted here. Ok, then. Bye."

The door was slammed shut and Emmett was non-verbally congratulating Rosalie for being so kind to Jacob. Alice and jasper skipped into the living room.

"Do you mind?" I hissed to Edward.

"No, do you mind?" he snapped sounding mad. What right did he have to be mad at me? What had I done?

"I was busy", I shot at him. Edward stared at me and sighed shaking his head.

"That was low, Bella. Really low", he explained.

"What are you talking about?" I demanded, "and can you not just grab me and shove me along whenever you feel like it?'

"You kissed him", Alice pointed out.

"Really? I hadn't noticed", I said sarcastically crossing my arms and sitting back. Jasper sank in next to me as Alice and Edward hovering in front.

"Why?" asked Alice simply. I shrugged and looked at my nails indifferently.

"How could you?" whispered Edward looking appalled.

Ha! He looked like I was the one who rejected him.

"He fancies you, you know", said jasper, "by kissing him, you only made him think that you like him back."

"What if I do like him?' I snapped.

"You don't", said jasper smugly, "your feelings towards him are nothing but friendship wise."

"Then why did I kiss him?" I challenged.

"I think it's obvious", muttered Alice. She sighed heavily as if she was carrying the big world on her little shoulders. Emmett and Rosalie walked back in as Emmett glared at me.

"You have a lot of explaining to do", he said jabbing a finger towards my direction.

"I don't have to explain anything", I said carelessly, "now if you don't mind, I'm going to call Jacob."

I made a move to stand up but Alice pushed me back down. She was weirdly strong for being so small.

"Don't play about with Jacob", Alice warned softly, "it won't help the current situation."

"What current situation?" I asked curiously wondering what she was talking about. She simply shook her head. I looked around to see what everyone else was thinking.

Edward was just fuming for some reason, his jaw was set and his fist was clenched. Rosalie and jasper looked to be on Emmett's side, who looked pissed off but didn't really want to say anything, which I was grateful for.

"Don't use Jacob", said Alice shaking her head, "it'll get out of control. He'll just think you like him."

"I do like him", I lied, "and I'm not using him!"

"You're not going near him any time soon either", growled Emmett. I rolled my eyes.

"I can do what I want, Emmett", I said shaking my head, "remember you said you were going to back off? I'm a big girl now."

I stood up and walked out of the room, with Rosalie close behind me. She placed a hand on my shoulder to hold me back.

"We care, Bella. We really care", she said softly.

Alice's POV.

I knew exactly what was going on. Ever since last Saturday, everything had been clear. The looks on everyone's face showed it all.

I could feel the hurt when Edward saw Bella kiss Jacob. I couldn't believe she did that though. I knew why she did it, to make Edward jealous.

He was.

He was fuming.

I wouldn't have been surprised if he murdered Jacob right there in the doorway. I wouldn't have been surprised if Emmett helped him. I would be surprised if I helped him, I never liked the dog anyway.

"Should we all go out to dinner tonight?" suggested jasper. Rosalie and Bella had just walked out. Edward was quietly fuming in the corner and Emmett was muttering his newest ways of killing horny teenage boys.

"…Then boil their skin in vinegar – oh, that's a great idea", boomed Emmett standing up, "should we leave at around half six?"

"I need to get ready", I said bouncing up. Goodness, it was five o'clock now. Would I be able to get ready in one and a half hour?

"You in, Edward?" I asked. Edward nodded in a carelessly manner. I sighed and ran up the stairs.

Edward's POV.

She couldn't.

She wouldn't.

She did.

My stomach lurched in a weird manner. My head was dizzy. My jaws were clenched and my fists were tight. Bella kissed Jacob.

Literally.

She just…kissed him.

She just pulled him down and threw herself on him. He didn't do himself justice by pulling away, oh no, he just went along and enjoyed it.

Bloody git!

He just stuck his slimmy tongue down her throat like it was nothing at all.

It was like the beach all over again.

But this time, I saw that she was the one who kissed him.

But why?

I swore, there was a spark between her and me.

When I was in her room, and we were talking. When I was putting on her lovely silver necklace.

And when I didn't kiss her.

That was it. She was mad.

I didn't kiss her and she decided to kiss someone else. She was too impatient to wait for me. of course, she was a gorgeous popular girl, she could go out with anyone.

Well, behind Emmett's back that is.

But she wouldn't wait for me. Why should she? I was just her brother's dorky friend. Kissing Jacob was her way for showing me she had moved on.

But I so wanted to kiss her.

I really did.

Bella's POV.

Alice brushed my hair into a high ponytail. Apparently we were going to dinner and I wasn't allowed to invite Jacob. I didn't even ask. Emmett just came in and said 'Rose babes, we're going to dinner. Bella, get ready. And don't invite Jacob.'

And that was that.

My mind wandered to Edward. Was he coming? Probably.

He probably hated me now that I had kissed Jacob. I didn't even know why. I didn't even like it. I was just so pissed… I was acting on instincts purely. But he looked mad. He looked very mad.

But I so wanted to kiss him.

I really did.