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"You've got magic inside your finger tips
Its leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that I get close to you
Your making me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

But all I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above
Yeah, oh I need you"

-"Magic" Colbie Caillat

Bella P.O.V.

Jacob was leaving today, and quite frankly, I don't know how much more of this I can take. From the tension of the first meeting, to the various times that Edward, or any other person in the house, had caught us kissing. The tension was palpable, like a thick blanket strangling me. A few times I just had to have some Bella alone time, and go for a quick walk, even if it was just to the bathroom and opening the window. Sometimes discussions would get out of hand...

We were all gathered around a table and were playing The Game of Life. It wasn't going so well. So far my house has been hit by a tornado, I live by the factories in a trailer, landed on every single have a baby or adopt twins spot. We were divided into teams. Jasper and Alice, Rosalie and Emmett versus Jacob and I. Edward went off somewhere. I understood his position, but I didn't understand why he didn't want to stay with us.

"Another carfull of kids!?" I cried. We now had two cars full of our children. It was pretty comical.

Alice and Jasper spun the wheel, and they ended up paying for a speeding ticket to the cops, a.k.a. Emmett and Rosalie.

"Why haven't we landed on a single spot for a child Emmett? Why?" Rosalie huffed.

"Babe, c'mon it's just a game," Emmett said nonchalantly.

Rosalie rolled her eyes and slumped back in her chair.

The game was beginning to wind down. Alice and Jasper had three children, we had seven or eight, I honestly lost count. Rosalie and Emmett had zero, and Rosalie wasn't happy about that.

"Jasper, we have two little girls and a boy! How cute!" Alice squealed.

"How cute!" Rosalie mocked.

Emmett spun again and placed his car with two pegs--him and Rosalie --on a tile that made Rosalie gasp.

"How are we grandparents?! We never had children!" she cried.

Jacob laughed at Rosalie's outburst. "That's messed up! Hey Bella, if this is really telling our futures, we'd have eight kids, Alice and Jasper would have three, and Rosalie and Emmett wouldn't have any!"

I put my head in my hands and waited for the arguing to begin.

"Emmett, you don't think...no!" Rosalie gasped, her voice obviously cracking.

"I said before, it's just a game, don't listen to Jacob," Emmett said lowly.

"Excuse me? Don't listen to Jacob?" Jacob growled.

I had to look now, I opened my eyes, Emmett and Jacob were both face to face, their fists down on the table top, their eyes burning, and waiting for a fight.


Over the fucking game of Life.

"What you were 'just saying', really upset my girlfriend, man," Emmett boomed.

I glanced over at Jasper who was rubbing his temples, ready to walk away from this almost board-game brawl.

"I'm sorry," Jacob apologized.

"Don't tell me you're sorry. Apologize to Rosalie," he ordered.

Jasper got up and walked away, probably going to drown himself in guitar chords and I honestly couldn't blame him.

If Jacob was fuming, then Emmett was a raging forest fire. His face was red, his eyes ready to kill.

"Are you going to apologize or are you going to be a coward?" Emmett boomed. "I mean, I called you out on your bullshit, the least you could do is apologize!"

Emmett's fists pounded on the table and the gamepieces shimmied across the board, completely ruining any chances for us to resume our game.

He was furious.

I don't think Jacob realized the severity of Emmett's rage. He'd do anything for Rosalie, and I've noticed that, I just don't think Jacob has. Jacob has not really been Rosalie's biggest fan, and he's told me that, but he could at least apologize.

Rosalie walked out of the dorm, the door slamming behind her. Alice looked at me, she didn't want to leave. I wasn't about to leave. Emmett and Jacob were both not about to back down.

"Let's play a little devil's advocate, shall we? Now, let's say, your game turned out differently...Bella and you were stuck with zero children by the end of the game and I decided that the game was telling our futures. I don't think you would appreciate me insinuating that your fecundity is down the toilet!"

Jacob's face pained, and I'm sure he had a moment where he realized what he had done.

"But I was just saying..." Jacob added. "I don't see a reason to apoligize."

I wanted to grip his neck with all my might and strangle the life out of him.

Emmet tossed the game board at him, the pieces flying everywhere. I stood back, thoroughly horrified. The board landed in the kitchen somewhere, over by the sink.

"You were 'just saying', huh? Somehow, I don't think it processed that you hurt Rosie's feelings through some brainless remark! Now I have to go comfort my girlfriend, thanks to you!" Emmett yelled.

I understood where Jacob was coming from, and where Emmett was coming from. I was caught in yet another tug-of-war, or tug-of-Bella.

"Emmett, you're right," I whimpered.

Emmett smirked.

"What?" Jacob questioned.

"I said he's right," I announced. "Emmett is right, Jacob you screwed up big time. If someone told me that I couldn't have children, I would be so upset. I'm sure it's the same thing with Rosalie too."

"Well, someone has a brain!" Emmett decided.

"Yeah, I mean, how could someone not want little replicas running around?" Alice giggled.

Jacob looked pale. He was wrong, caught, and now he knew it. But Jacob wasn't ever the one to admit his faults, even if they were posted up on a billboard.

"I'm going to chase after Rosalie," Emmett sighed. "And you're coming to apologize,"

Jacob nodded. "Can we have a second alone please?"

Oh. Right. I didn't support my boyfriend in an argument. So now he wanted to chat. Fabulous.

Emmett and Alice went to their respective rooms.

"You didn't even support me! You just fed me to the vampires or something!" Jacob cried.

"Well, I wasn't the one who opened my mouth," I hissed bitterly.

"I was making a joke."

"It doesn't matter. You knew Rose was upset about the game, and you just made it worse. Now Emmett hates your guts. Way to go," I said.

"But..."

"You got yourself into this mess, you get yourself out," I insisted.

"You're not going to come with me?" he asked.

"Your a big boy, right, Jacob? Or are you just nothing but a coward?" I accused.

He huffed as he walked away from me.

"Don't you dare walk away from me, Jacob Black!" I screamed.

He banged on the door of the boys' room. "Let's go, Emmett," he said lowly.

Emmett flung the door open and the two were out the door in a flash.

I hope Jacob realizes that he needs to think before he opens his mouth.

Alice quietly tiptoed out of our room and began picking up the pieces from the game.

"When's Jacob going home?" she asked quietly.

I knew what she was getting at. We had established a comfortable living arrangement finally, and we were all getting along great. Jacob came along and threw it all out of whack. I was scared to death that I would be treated differently because of it.

I crouched down beside her, searching for the tiny blue and pink pegs, along with the various white pieces.

"Not soon enough," I said lowly.

"Alright, Bells, I think I've overstayed my welcome," Jacob sighed.

Damn straight.

I hated to see him go, but at the same time, I felt like I was watching the death of Edward. If Edward didn't die from this, Jacob would kill him or vice versa.

The best part is that I am stuck in the middle, I can't get out. I don't know who to defend, who to support, my boyfriend, or my best friend. I felt like Jacob could hold his own, as could Edward, but I still have the responsibility of it all on my shoulders. It was my fault that I came here, my fault that Edward and Jacob had met in the most awful and awkward of ways. It was my fault; and no one else's.

I smiled quietly. "No you didn't, Jake. I missed you, you missed me...It was necessary," I lied.

I should've rephrased that. Oh well, one detail wasn't going to ruin it all. Whatever we fixed, it was temporary. I was beginning to think that the days of our relationship were numbered.

"So...we're okay now?" Jacob asked, his warm hand caressing my cheek.

I nodded. "Yeah, Jacob. We're okay now." I lied.

Damn, for me, Bella Swan who sucked at lying...I was doing pretty well today.

I forced my gaze to wander down to my hands that were twisted at my waist. My hands that were twisted like the web of lies I had started to weave the day I left La Push.

Maybe we were just at our end. Maybe Edward was the straw that broke the camel's back. I wasn't going to end our relationship, Jacob and mine's, not now. It really wasn't worth it. He'd blame Edward, Edward would be prancing around all high and mighty, and it just wouldn't end well. Maybe Jacob could see through my lies, and he just wasn't saying anything. Jacob could also have been clueless to my lying. Whatever it was, I'm just glad we don't have to deal with the whole "you're lying" speech today.

I've certainly established one thing. Jacob's feelings for me are somewhat unrequited. They weren't before, but things change, people change, feelings change. I changed, and I just recently figured that out.

We were standing outside his car, sitting on the hood.

I felt as his eyes were shooting into mine. I wasn't even looking at him; I couldn't.

"Alright, Bells. I better get going,"

Thank God...

"It was a really great surprise, Jacob," I said with as much sincerity as I could.

"Goodbye, Bella, I love you," he whispered in my ear, causing a shiver to buzz down my spine.

Jacob lightly kissed my ear.

"I love you too," I murmured.

I watched as he slowly got up off the car, I followed him to the driver's side where he opened his door and got in. Immediately, he rolled down the window.

I gingerly placed my fingers inside the car. He placed his hand over mine, and I smiled. He looked up at me. I slowly ducked my head into the car and swiftly descended my lips up on his.

"Goodbye, Jacob." I said.

I had a feeling I was saying that in more ways than one.

I somberly watched as his car pulled away, and he gave his horn one final beep. I blew a kiss to him and he gave a shy wave.

I thought that maybe I wasn't the only one who's changed, maybe he has changed too. Whatever it was, it was meant to be, and we both needed to accept that. We were definitely changing as people, our values and thoughts were changing. Between Leah, and him seeming so distant I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take.

I could only think of one person to run to...

Not Charlie. Hell no, not Charlie.

Definitely not Alice, Edward already told me she had an idea something was going on between us.

Not Rosalie, or Emmett, that would be like selling my soul to the devil.

I guess I could talk to Jasper, but that's not who I wanted, who I really needed.

I needed Edward.

I ran out of the parking lot and down to our place, our little coffee shop. He came there to study or sometimes just to think. I quickly meandered through the crowds. I saw him, sitting there reading a medical journal. He ran his fingers through his hair, and mindlessly pursed his lips as he took notes on the information. He grabbed a highlighter and drew a bracket around a paragraph and wrote something down. He was sitting in front of the window, and it wasn't difficult to spot him at all.

I lightly knocked on the window. His head lifted, and his lips turned up in that gorgeous smile that I loved so much.

I rushed to the door and flung it open, causing the bells on the door to sing a little song. I sprinted to Edward, pulled out the chair and plopped down on the seat.

He placed his book down and closed it, obviously giving me his full attention.

"Tell me all about it."

"I...I can't do this anymore, Edward. I can't...I just..."

Edward's body was at my side, crouched down, looking straight into my eyes.

"Can we get another...place? Not that there's anything wrong with being here, it's just people are staring," I suggested.

I looked around the room and there were countless pairs of eyes staring back at me.

"Wait...he's not looking. Never mind, he just looked," Edward chuckled.

Edward gathered his study materials and we walked out of the coffee shop.

We found a little park, with a bench underneath a tree. We had a silent commute from the coffee shop to the park bench, and it didn't bother me one bit. I wanted to tell him face to face, my ideas, my thoughts.

He sat down beside me, and softly took my hand in his.

"La mia vita, tell me..."

"I'm confused, Edward, inexplicably so," I began. "I guess I just don't know what I want..."

"Let me help with that," he said confidently.

His lips met mine fiercely, passionately. A fire ignited in my toes and began burning up my body. I wrapped my arm around his neck, pulling our bodies closer together. His tongue entered my mouth, and my mind couldn't help but wander to Jacob. His lips were the last that kissed mine.

My mind was back and forth between right and wrong.

Edward's lips parted and breathed into mine, filling me with his scent.

I had been tugged around enough. It's time for me to unconfuse myself.

My lips stopped reacting against Edward's. I froze, like a deer in the headlights.

"I'm sorry," I said, as my voice cracked.

He swiftly backed away from me, and softly caressed my cheek.

"La mia vita, don't be sorry. If it's too much, we can stop..." he began, a pained expression settling on his face.

"That's just it, Edward, I don't want you to stop, not ever."

He smiled, probably one of the brightest and truest smiles ever.

"Now, let's hear about Jacob..." he said angrily. "He doesn't hurt you, does he?"

"God, no, Edward! It's just...we're not what we used to be and there's nothing I can do about it," I said brokenly. "He's all I've ever known, so this change is hard on both of us,"

"I'm here for you, Bella, you know that. If we need to stop-" Edward blew out a breath. "-we can. There's no use being whatever it is that we are, if you don't want to be..."

"I want us to just be," I whispered.

He smiled and intertwined his fingers with mine. He slowly brought our hands up and lightly touched his lips to my hand.

I felt an electric shock shoot up my arm. I smiled giddily.

I was feeling small, weak and confused. Edward had a way of making my life simpler, but when we were apart, his magic wore off.

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