Chapter 2

Accusations

Sam's Point of View:

Legends are coming true and I have prove to this. I hate it, I don't want to be a monster. I don't want to be this furry beast. I want to live a normal life with simple obstacles and be with Leah.

I hurt her to the fullest extend and I will never forgive myself for that.

I remember as I saw her searching the woods, crying her eyes out looking for me. That day on first beach when she found me, I will always be a memory I cherish. Every darn memory with her I'll cherish.

She's been gone for about two weeks, the same amount of time I was gone. I didn't know if she did that to see if I would worry or if she was trying to escape from something.

"Dude, you're so to blame for all this shit. What the fuck is going on? You just leave her all alone hurt and return like nothing has happen. Then you go and tear her heart out again after she was so glad you're back. I trusted you for her sake!"

"Seth, calm down," I said as his screaming made me snap out of my thoughts of her. I needed someone to yell at me, but hearing Seth curse wasn't something I was used to. He was such a good kid and never swore only with the occasionally "fuck" when he hurts himself. I was sick of the accusations. Every time I looked into Leah's eyes since that day had been nothing, but accusation in her eyes.

I was the blame, but I really wasn't in the mood to bitched at. I wanted to rip some vampires heads up for triggering the wolf gene in me. I wanted to have Leah into my arms and I probably sound like such a loser to lots of guys right now.

"Don't tell me to calm down! I wish there was some way someone could hurt you for the way you hurt her!" he shouted and continued on and I sat there listening to him as I thought of Leah. I deserved every once of hurt for what I've done to Leah.

"I know I am the blame, but she'll come back," I tried to reassure him and myself.

I sat on the couch and closed my eyes.

"Seth, man you should leave," said Jacob as he entered my house. He probably heard all the yelling. Seth growled angrily, but agreed.

"I'm going to go search again for her, since you're too much of a pussy to do anything for her," Jacob said, glaring at me as he left along with Seth.

I sighed and ran towards the woods, stripping down first and now I was the furry monster that I feared would take me away from Leah. Too bad it already had.

I let out a painfully howl because trust me I was in pain. I walked around the woods on my four legs for what seemed like hours.

A scent cause me to run towards it instantly. It was Leah, she was back and she was with Jacob. Jacob was telling her to get over me already, but Leah was still so hurt she thought to herself she probably wouldn't.

Never in my life, have I wanted her as I do now. The animal in me wanted her. To go and comfort her, I wanted to go and rip Jacob for being the one comforting Leah.

"Don't you dare bring him up. He doesn't give a shit about me and I'm pretty fucking positive about that," she said shaking her head.

The statement just killed me at the spot. Of course, I gave a shit about her. She was my world. She was the person that kept me sane though all this. If it weren't for the elders making me stay away from Leah, I would be with her. If I wasn't scared for her well being, I would be with her. It wasn't my choice to be this beast.

I complete zoned out and didn't realized that Leah and Jacob were already heading for her house. As I saw Jacob left the Clearwaters' house, I tried to calm down to phase back. I wanted and needed to see Leah. I put my clothes back on and ran towards Leah's house.

I knocked on the door and Leah was the one opening it when she realized it was me she tired to close the door on me, but that would never work.

"Leah, I want to talk to you," I said quite firmly.

""Well, I don't want to talk to you, so I guess you'll be leaving now," she said.

"Lee-Lee, just please come. I just want to talk to you about some of the things going on," I said, quite desperately. I just wanted to talk to her, comfort her, be with her.

"You can't make me go. I still have my free will."

I sighed and my hands started shaking. Harry looked terrified at what I might do, but I tried to contain myself.

"Leah, you should go with him sweetie," Harry said. I was so grateful when it came to Harry.

"Fine," she said stomping her feet as she walked out with me. It was dead quiet.

"You said you had something to say to me," she said quite bitterly.

"Yeah," I said.

"Why the hell haven't you spilt it out already?"

"Leah, I hate this," I said truthfully grabbing her hands and pulling her towards a rock to sit on it.

"Like I don't," she responded angrily.

"I know I hurt you."

"No shit," she said.

"I know I fucking hurt you and I hate myself for it. You act like I'm not in pain either. I am Lee, I love you and yet I can't be with you."

"That's a complete lie Sam and you it. If you love me then you would give up whatever it was that your keeping from me for me. You don't, so obviously those three years were all lies and a waster."

"It wasn't a waste!" I shouted breathing in and out trying to calm myself. "I love the fun times we shared together even though it pains me Lee, it fucking hurts to think about it. I do love you. I just can't tell you, you'll think of me as a complete monster. I want to be with you, it's not like I don't, it's just that I don't want to hurt you."

"Well it seems like it to me because you seem to throw it away so quickly," she said as the tears was swelling up and flowing down my face. I started to tremble a bit. I felt like such a bastard making her cry. I reluctantly kiss the tear drops off her face and embraced her into a hug.

"Sam, is there anyway we could make this work? I mean anything?" she asked. I could hear her heart racing. I wanted to say yes so badly.

I, of course wanted to be with her. She was perfection to me. She had nice curves, personality, and all of the above. After about a couple seconds of silence and hesitation, I pulled her face back. I looked at her starting into her beautiful brown, hazel-like eyes and crushed my lips onto hers and they were moving perfectly in sync. I missed this, I missed everything about her. I would try my best to not hurt her. I would keep my distance, but enough where I could still kiss and call her mine.

"Does that answer you question?" I asked as I slightly pulled away, but enough to look her into her eyes.

"Somewhat," she said closing her eyes.

"Well, I guess I shall make it more clear," I said pressing his lips on mine once again. I sucked on her bottom lip and she parted them slightly so I could make my entrance. My tongue danced around in my mouth.

Once we had a breather we just sat there in silence.

"Will you tell me what's been going on with you?" she asked.

"Lee, just know that I love you and I would lose you if you knew."

"I don't care, just please tell me. I mean, you made me cut you hair and you love your hair. You look so much more mature, your personality seems a bit different. You also broke some promises we made and it scares me that I'm going to lose you one of these days."

Leah looked like she was daydream land. She looked so peacefully.

"Leah," I said..

"What was your answer again?" she asked. I chuckled.

"I'm sorry, but in do time I'll tell you. It's kind of hard to say. You'll take me as a freak. Just think back to legends and maybe you'll find the answers," I said. She would run away from me if she knew I was a werewolf. She would scream and leave me forever. I was selfish, I know that. There would be a guy out there that she might love more than me. That's not a monster, a normal human-being that'll make all her troubles go away. I for one, was making her troubles double up.

"What are you an elder now?" she teased.

"No, but it does relate," I said. If she just thought about the legends of our tribes she could find the answers. I was forbidden to tell anyone that I was a werewolf unless it was absolutely necessary.

Then I heard a wolf howling in the distance. I'm guessing it was Jared who was phasing. He's been have the symptoms.

"Shit," I murmured.

"What is it?" she asked getting up.

"I have to go, but please, please stay out of danger. Go back to your family. I love you and I'll be by later to check on you," I said running further into the woods. "I love you Lee-Lee!" I shouted and it was the truth. Without her my heart was an empty room with only loneliness.

"I love you too Sam!" she shouted back and I gave her a thumbs up.

I was so goddamn happy that she accepted me so quickly back. Gosh I love that girl.

I phased and I forgot to take my clothes off first. I was gonna have to go around by the cliffs where I stashed some extra clothes.

Why the hell do I hear voices in my head? Jared asked.

Because you're a werewolf and it's just me, I thought calmly.

So, that's why he left Leah. The bastard left Leah in pain, I was in pain watching her. As much as I appreciate him because he's my best buddy and all, but the girl was amazing. He changed her into this completely different girl, Jared thought to himself.

I get it Jared, control your thoughts you're sharing them. I know I hurt her and I'll never forgive myself for it. As long as she'll be in my life then I'm find with the rest.

Dude whatever, he thought.

I told him about how the legends are true and everything I could remember when I had the talk with the elders. He thought it was kind of cool to be a werewolf, but he knew there were going to be drawbacks.

After my talk with Jared, I was glad that my best friends was the first to phase. I knew there were going to be more and I didn't know so much about so much responsibility.

I stared at the stars for a moment and thought about Leah. I decided to sneak up to her room to spend time with her. I wanted to cherish every minute that I would and can with her.

Jacob's Point of View:

Honestly I'm sick of Sam. At first he was an okay dude, I guess, but seriously to hurt a girl like that was pathetic. He was such a pussy. Leah was even stronger than that fool.

He left leaving her heartbroken and then comes back like everything is okay. I really want to kill him for hurting her like that. I remember all our times when me and Leah were little. She was always happy and got happier when Sam came into her life. Then her whole personality changed once the bastard left.

I saw Leah come up from out of the trees and I knew she was with Sam.

"Lee," I said shaking a bit. I noticed she looked happier and her skin was not as pale as it has been these past couple of weeks.

"Yeah Jake," she said.

"Where you with that douche that hurt you?" I asked, knowing the answer to the question.

"Yes, and he's not a douche, thanks a lot Jake. Please don't use cruel words to describe him."

"He hurt you to the fullest extend and you mean to tell me that you'll just take him back like that! That'll you'll still defend him no matter what. That's complete bull Lee!" I shouted at her. I don't understand her how the hell is someone going to hurt you to the fullest extend and you'll take them back in a second. Love is weird and fucking retard in my opinion if that's what happens.

"I love him and he apparently still loves me, so I'm going to do what makes me happy!" she shouted.

I scoffed back, disgusted at the answer. "Yeah, sure it will. It'll cause you more pain Lee, He'll cause you more pain," I said pointing into the woods.

"Jake are you here to lectures me about my personal life? You need to mind your own goddamn business. I feel blessed that you care, but leave me the fuck alone about. I love Sam and until you experience the feeling you'll never know."

"Leah," I said stressing on her name. "Please, think about everyone if you get hurt and take off like that again. You have other people you love and love you, It's not just him," he said putting my hands on my shoulder rocking me back and forth.

"I just care," I said. Truth is I do care about Leah Clearwater. She was there when my mom died, even though I was younger. She's helped me, so I'll do whatever it is to help her. I did have a little kiddy crush on her, but I believe that was just it. I mean she's gorgeous, nice curves, and everything. I'm a teenage boy, what's not to like?

Seth came out we headed to the movies. I just hoped those words I said didn't hurt Leah too much.

Leah's Point of View:

I laid on my bed starting up at my ceiling. Those words Jacob had said had sunken down and has been absorbed. He probably just cared and doesn't want me to be hurt. I feared for the future, though.

Jacob seems so different to me, he was always the sweet kid and humorous. Ever since I left I seen a new side of him. I think it could be me, but I should be returning to my normal state and then he should too.

I heard a light knock on my window and I went over to my desk to get the pepper spray first. I walked over it to it slowly and Sam's head popped up and I jumped and he started to laugh. I scowled at him and he laughed even harder. I loved the sound of it all husky and it just enlightening my mood.

I went over to open it and he climbed in.

"I hate how your room has to be upstairs, but thank goodness there is a tree right next to it."

"Uh-huh," I mumbled.

"Are you mad because I laughed at you?" he asked with a smirk on his face.

"Somewhat," I said.

"How can I make it up to you Lee?" he asked.

"I don't know, what do you think?"

"I think I should do this," he said striding over to me and he kissed me. Our lips moving together perfect, at full force. It seemed as we were hungry for each other because we couldn't stop and before I knew it, Sam had me over on the bed.

"Do you forgive me now?" he mumbled. I laid my hands on his chest.

"Somewhat," I repeated.

He looked at me in the eyes with a grin on his face. He started to nibble on my ear and he started to try to take my shirt off. Then he stop abruptly.

"We can't," he stated.

"Why not?" I demanded. His face turned serious.

"It's too dangerous."

"Uh, Sam, if you hadn't notice we had done this before, more than once. It didn't seem that dangerous, it seem passionate."

"I know, but I'm a monster now and I don't know if I can contain myself."

"Sam, what the hell? What are you talking about? You're still Sam, you're not a monster. Stop telling yourself that. Sam just please talk to me about this."

"I'm gonna lose you Lee, and I can't lose you," he said shaking.

"You're not going to lose me, I'll stick by your side Sam. I'm the one afraid of losing you because of your sudden change."

I cried. I couldn't control myself as I sobbed on his shoulder. The night we shared before Sam left was nice. I lost myself to him every single little darn thing was his.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be," I said almost inaudible due to my constant sobbing.

"I promise to stay be your side until I have no choice," he said.

"Let's just cherish this moment," I mumbled.

I fell asleep in Sam's arms and I dreamt about our future. That's what I want to do every single night, to fall asleep into his warm, muscular arms.

A/N: Emily will be in the story, but she shall NOT be Sam's imprint. She'll simply be there to comfort Leah and some similar events in the Twilight Saga will happen to her. Please Review, it shall be very appreciated!