Chapter 5

The Shrieks

Five month after…

Jacob's Point of View:

I went to movies with Bella and Mike. Yeah, Bella is pretty decent, kind of cute in a way, but the Bella and Leah competition in my mind made Leah a winner. Leah still beat her by about two percent. Clearly, these two are way out of my league, so I could just forget about it. I would have my kiddy crushes and that was all it could ever be. A crush, since they were both older, prettier, and never could be mine.

Mike got sick and it was pretty disturbing. Puking, all over the place once we got to the bathroom. I didn't want to be in the bathroom stalls trying to help him out, but I did and it was disgusting. Bella encouraged me to help him since she couldn't herself.

I was getting closer to Bella since her boyfriend left. Edward. There was something about him that made me hate him. He did nothing, but I think my superstitious dad had made me hate him in away. The Cullens remind us of the cold ones. Our natural enemies according to the legends.

Sam had found Bella in the woods months just recently due to her sadness about Edward leaving. She sunk down into depression, but I think I helped cured that with my happy-go-lucky self. I didn't like that fact that Sam held Bella, since he had Leah, but I don't even know. I'm just a fool, a jealous one over nothing.

At the thought of Sam, I thought of Embry. Embry was now following Sam like a watch dog. I hated it and I was afraid I was going to be next. I knew I was going to be next. Embry, who always talked trashed about Sam Uley was now acting as if Sam were his superior older brother. That thought made me a bit sick.

After awhile I felt as if I was going to pass out, so I excused myself from Bella and went home. I had to go help Mike and make me get all sickish too.

"Son, what's going on with you?" my dad asked as I walked through the door. I was sweating bullets. I feel queasy and tired.

He had a sense of understanding on his face as well as fear.

"I fucking feel like crap," I said.

"I understand, but don't you swear now," he said. "Go upstairs and try to calm yourself."

Even though he said it calmly I got really pissed. He demanding me to do something shoudn't make me angry, but it did. I started to shake and I felt heat radiating through my body. I felt as thought I got taller and some weight was put on me.

"Go outside now!" my dad shouted. Recognition written all over his face as well as terror.

I obeyed and ran out. I didn't think I would want to hurt my dad. I never felt such anger in my life. He wheeled out after me slowly on his wheelchair.

I somehow jumped up into the night's glimmering sky and turned into a monster.

Leah's Point of View:

Emily came by and I of course explained to her. She look shocked at all points after Sam left. She didn't have the chance to come down, so I had to keep it to myself for another five months.

"You…lost her?" she asked.

"Yup," I said waiting to sink down into the couch.

"I can't believe that she died. Why do things always ended up badly. This shouldn't be happening?"

"I wish I knew sooner, so I could of saved her."

"Her?" she asked her face lighting up a bit.

"Yeah, I was pregnant with a girl," I said a sob escaping from my throat. I broke down. Knowing that if, I knew sooner it might have been easier to save her.

"What were you going to name her?" she asked.

"Well, Sam and I loved the name LeAnndra. So, LeAnndra Harry Uley. I had to have something about my dad in it, my dad is a really important person, but it sounded weird to me," I said as I felt pain in my chest.

I fucking hate this. I don't want to be known as being responsible for a death, but I blame myself. Who else is there to blame? I should have been more careful. I don't regret anything I've done with Sam, but I should have been able to save my baby, our baby.

I kept this in for too long and it felt somewhat good to let it out. I don't know how I kept myself from saying anything. I never thought about her and now that I did the torture was unbearable.

Emily left claiming she wanted some fresh air. She made me stay inside the house without her. Hours later after Emily left, I woke up to shrieks and screaming. I went into a fetal position hoping that all that people I love were alright, but I knew something was wrong.

Sam's Point of View:

Embry had joined the little pack when I was with Leah, five months before. I explained to him about the legends to the best of my ability as I did with Paul and Jared.

Embry was angry at first, but he got used to the idea and was excited that his friends would be joining him. He didn't loath me and think of my badly as before. I knew he talked shit about me because he didn't like me, but he understood now.

Right when he phased, I was finishing off that vampire that came through our lands. I was angry at it for ruining my time with Leah.

So vampires are like our natural enemy? asked Embry.

Durr, replied Paul.

So when people ask we just say we are protectors? asked Embry.

Yeah, I thought.

So that's what Leah meant when she said you guys were protectors. Does she know anything?

No she doesn't. I thought and she won't be until awhile.

Embry had a whole bunch of questions afterward and I answered them to best of ability. He was a curious one for sure, but it was only in his thoughts. If it were in human form, he wouldn't ask a thing. Embry was a shy guy.

After an hours or so of patrol, I noticed a twinge feeling in my side and had known someone new had phase. He had a gentle thoughts at first until he realized what he was and who was the alpha of this pack. I knew he hated me, but knew something was going to happen to him that led him to have to deal with me.

I knew something was going to make me deal with Sam, he thought. His thoughts drifted a bit to Leah and Bella, but quickly returned towards anger.

I explained to him about legends and all that, like as if any other person that has phased. About how we could read each others mind, so he should keep his mind shut about things no ones wants to hear about.

Even if you didn't mean to hurt Leah like you did, I still loath you for it, Jacob thought as I started to tell him about why we had to keep this to ourselves.

It's understandable, I still hate myself for it. I do because I caused Leah pain. I will keep repeating that because I have to remind myself that because I shouldn't try to get more than I deserve. I had Leah and that's all I want.

He decided to go for a run and clear his mind. He took in calmly, but so far he hated it. He didn't want to be a werewolf. I could see through his mind, so far its nothing but hostility towards me. He turned down the position of the alpha as well. He said didn't want this for himself, so he wasn't going to take on more responsibility for this pack unless absolutely necessary. He was glad to have Embry back too and he understood. The both of them just couldn't wait till Quil got back into their little group.

After about two hours it was Jared's and Paul's turn to patrol, so I phased back into my human form. Jacob still ran around. I gave him his freedom for the night. He could do as he please and when he needed help phasing back to howl. I somewhat could tell the difference between the howls. I walked towards the one tree that had the bags with our clothing in it and put on my cutoff jeans.

Emily was sitting on my doorstep. She got up, looked me into the eye and slapped me. Hard. Across my face and her hand made a cracking noise. She decided it was best to walk into the woods, so we did. I knew where the conversation would led to. She was her to defend Leah and I was going to take in the bitching and all that because I fucking deserved every bit of it. I closed my eyes and sighed waiting to hear the words that would come out of Emily's mouth.

"How the hell could you do that to Leah?" she asked. Her voice sounds as if a boy were starting to hit puberty. It was high pitched. She held onto her hand, that looked really swollen. You should never punch or slap a werewolf. It won't cause them pain, just you pain.

"I know, I left her and I have my reasons. I love her and I have not yet to forgive myself. It's just dangerous to her now," I said. She started to rub her hand so I asked her, "you okay there?"

"I'm fine," she said bitterly, looking down at her hand.

"You should get it checked out," I suggested.

"I'm freaking fine!" she shouted.

"Okay then, I was just trying to make sure that you're alright."

"Thanks, I don't need your concern," she said.

"Okay then," I said looking at her face. "Jeez," I murmured.

"Did you know Leah had a miscarriage?" she asked her lip curving up as she took in my facial expression, disgust by me. I was stunned, bewildered, at lost for words.

I started to shake, heat boiling up in my system.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" I said, my voice getting louder.

"You heard right, I'm not suppose to tell you, but I thought you should know that you are a dick for hurting her like that. For killing the baby. Leah blames her, but I blame you. I blame you for crumpling Leah's life. For all the things you've done that hurt her. The arguments, the pain, everything. Especially, for killing the little girl inside of Leah."

My heart swelled up at those words. I really didn't know what to do. Honestly, after Leah told me about Emily, I never would that there was so much hatred and anger in her. I always thought of Emily as a sweetheart.

I couldn't believe Leah was about to have a little creature made by the both of us and she died. A little girl, I should of grown older, protective of her as she got older. I wasn't able to do that now because of me she died.

"I know and I blame myself too," I said trying to calm down. I couldn't believe that I was close to being a father and yet it came down to the point where I couldn't.

"You damn right should. You're a murder, a killer. Even if your not really a murder, you killed Leah's spirit. Her personality changed because of you," she said shaking her head. "You're a fucking dick. LeAnndra Uley died because of you," she said emphasis on the you.

I lost it. Right then and there. When she said the name that Leah wanted and would of name our baby girl. I knew that she always wanted loved that name and I like it too.

I phased before her very eyes and turned into a beast and ruined Emily's face. She looked stunned, shocked to move when I phased.

I shook my head and watched what I've done. I lost it, my anger swelled up and took over and I felt remorse right away when Emily started to shriek. I truly was a monster. I watch as blood came down and the scars on her face. I was taken over, I was in destroy mode. There was nothing I could do, the anger came over and I couldn't control it.

I knew that Jared and Paul were silent, not knowing what they should do. The stood there confuse and horrified by what I had done.

I tried to calm down and as I did. I looked into Emily's eyes.

"That's what I kept from Leah, that I'm a ferocious, horrible monster. I'm too fucking attached and love her too much to stay away. I'm a selfish fool," I said as I returned to my human form, clasping onto the forest floor, panting, losing consciousness.

I woke up in my bedroom, Leah holding my hand looking completely strained.

What the fuck had I done to this girl? I caused too much agony, torture, and I don't even deserve her.

"You're awake," she whispered.

"Yeah," I murmured into the pillow.

"Emily's in the hospital getting treated for bear attacks," Leah said.

I was stunned. I would have thought she would of said something about it, but that excused was brilliant, but the remorse washed through me right away.

"We should go see her," I suggested.

"We should, but I don't want you to be stressed or anything. You fainted in the woods and I don't want anything to happen to you," she said. I chuckled. I'm the one that hurts the people.

"It's fine," I said. One part of me is telling me to let Leah go. To have her just fine another man. She probably could, but the other part of me loves her. Wants to have her cradle in my arms for the rest of my life.

I decided maybe it's not the best time to remind Leah of LeAnndra. I would have to bring it up as a topic discussion because I need to know more about it. I feel like I don't deserve what I have because it seems I always cause her worry and pain.

I get up and engulf her into a hug and we headed off to the hospital.

We walked into the hospital and the scars I put on Emily's face made me twitch in guilt.

"Leah, I want to talk to Sam for a moment," Emily said.

"Okay," Leah said, leaving the room.

"I understand you and I won't tell her. She needs to know about this though."

"She will," I said.

"Good, and don't bring LeAnndra up unless she's ready to talk about it," Emily said grunting in pain as she tried to move to her side.

"I'm so sorry," I said a tear rolling down my cheek. "I'm causing Leah just more pain for what I've done to you. I'm just a fucking dick as you said before. I do nothing, but hurt Leah."

"I heard the words you said before you lost consciousness. You love Leah, she loves you. Things will work out and you'll make her happy as you did in your early years," she said.

"You are so bipolar, screaming at me in the beginning, now talking to me as if you are a comforting person."

She laughed at bit. "Things between you and Leah better work out," she demand.

"I sure hope so," I said.

Leah peeked through the door and I smiled her motioning her to come in.

"Everything okay here?" she asked.

"Yeah," I said crushing her body against mine with a bone crushing hug, as she made her way towards me. It felt so good to inhale her scent. To have her in my arms, to see her face. Everything faded as I kissed her. Our lips crushed together, moving together. My lips hard against her as tears rolled down both of our cheeks.

I was just glad I could have her in my arms, but I knew there were problems that would come through because we haven't disused everything yet. She knew I gave up my college scholarship because of my job.

She had to know more about me and my other life. My life as a wild animal. As, like I need to know about her and LeAnndra. My future wife and my daughter who I have not yet met, but love oh so dearly.

A/N: I have grown attachted to doing Sam's Point of View. It just seems interesting to me. Anyways, I probably won't be updating until a while. Test, finals, regents are coming up and I got to get down studying. When I have the free time I'll try to type up parts of it until I finally have the whole chapter and update it! Thanks again for you readers and please REVIEW, it encourages me and makes me better! :)