Chapter 6

Denied

Emily's Point of View:

Holy Shit, I thought to myself, he going to freaking attack me.

I watched as I saw a big black werewolf out of nowhere come up to me attacking me. He was so belligerent, that it scared the living crap out of me.

I screamed and shriek as I felt claws digging into my skin, where warm, red liquid oozed out slowly.

The pain was unbearable, excruciating, horrendous. I couldn't tolerate the pain. My face was throbbing and I knew I was going to be scarred for life. People were going to be making fun of me and I wasn't going to have a normal life.

At least it was better me than Leah. She looks fine on the outside, but on the inside her pain was probably a hundred times worse than what I'm feeling right now. I would take pain away from her and into my own hands. She was like a sister to me and stood up to me when I was too much of a coward and I finally had to courage to that for her.

"That what I kept from Leah, that I'm a ferocious, horrible monster. I'm too fucking attached and lover her too much to stay away. I'm a selfish fool," he said losing consciousness, a tear rolling down his face, as did mine.

I understood where Sam's was coming from. Even though he was a wolf, I guess I should keep this in wraps and let Leah find out on her own without getting hurt.

I shook, a bit frightened by Sam. I should really watch my mouth when I'm with him and so should everyone else.

My face throbbing and sore, I began to lose consciousness as well.

I woke up to find my aunt Sue. She was always there for me.

"Em, what happened?" she asked, but I noticed how relieve washed over her face as I woke up. I honestly didn't know what to say. I couldn't give Sam away, they would think I'm crazy and they could hurt him and that would hurt Leah.

I think I'm going insane.

"I don't recall what happened that well," I said.

"Well you do you need to tell us what happened. Just tell us when you remember any tidbits of it."

"Alright. I will," I lied. I knew I was never going to tell anyone what happen.

She left the room and I laid on the hospital bed. What else was there to do. Moments later, Sam appear with Leah. He had bags under his eyes, worry lines, and his face was pale as ever.

I knew I hated him for the reason of LeAnndra. She was going to be my third, but we all knew that she would be calling me Auntie Em. I could envision a little girl with Sam's eyes and Leah's personality.

Even with that I didn't have the nerve to hate him. I understood some of what he was going through and Leah loved him. What else is there for me to do?

"Leah, I want to talk to Sam for a moment," I said after a moments silence.

"Okay," Leah said, leaving the room.

"I understand you and I won't tell her. She needs to know about this though."

"She will," he said. His voice sounded tried, dull, with no life whatsoever to it.

"Good, and don't bring LeAnndra up unless she's ready to talk about it," I said grunting in pain as I tried to move to my side.

"I'm so sorry," he said a tear rolling down my cheek. "I'm causing Leah just more pain for what I've done to you. I'm just a fucking dick as you said before. I do nothing, but hurt Leah."

"I heard the words you said before you lost consciousness. You love Leah, she loves you. Things will work out and you'll make her happy as you did in your early years," I said.

"You are so bipolar, screaming at me in the beginning, now talking to me as if you are a comforting person."

I laughed at bit. "Things between you and Leah better work out," I demand.

"I sure hope so," he said.

Leah peeked through the door and Sam smiled her motioning her to come in.

"Everything okay here?" she asked.

"Yeah," he said crushing her body against his with a bone crushing hug, as she made her way towards Sam. Their lips automatically pressed against each other into a passionate kiss.

I smiled at their little moment of passion. Leah pulled away, her face crimson red. We chatted for the rest of the night until Leah fell asleep into Sam's arms.

Sam's Point of View:

We chatted through the night with Emily. Leah got tired and fell asleep into my arms.

As the night progressed I decided to take Leah back to her house where she could sleep with more comfort.

As I got to the door Harry opened it with a worried expression on his face.

"Sam put Leah in her room. We have to go to another meeting," he said and tension arose.

"Alright I said."

I went upstairs and put Leah into her bed and kissed her lightly on the forehead. She stirred and grabbed me by the neck out of nowhere and kissed me.

"Sweetheart I have to go to this council meeting," I said. She pouted, but reluctantly let me go. "I love you," I murmured into her ear trying to be seductive and I felt her shiver.

"I love you too, come back soon."

"I'll do my best," I said and she smiled with not that much energy. I knew she was drained from the day's events.

"Sleep Lee," I demanded.

"Humph," she mumbled and I knew she was already dosing off. I smiled at her and as I turned around I wanted to fucking kill myself. I was too selfish to let her go, and if I said

Gosh, I'm the one that's sounding bipolar, I thought to myself.

I looked at her cute, peaceful face and remorse washed over me.

I always had these daydreams where I would see her and our kids around. Yeah, I'm a cheesy teenager, but I don't care. I love Leah and the fact that I hurt her like that kills me.

I tried to contain myself as I thought of what LeAnndra would of looked like if she were here. I bet LeAnndra would have been the most amazing creature. A mixture, a symbol of mine and Leah's love.

My hands balled up into fist and I busted out crying.

Man up, I thought to myself. I knew Harry wouldn't appreciate me phasing in his house, so I quickly ran out of the house and into the woods. I turned into the creature that I feared myself.

LeAnndra, I thought letting out an agonizing howl. I ran into the trees and used my claws and tore them down. I knocked out about seven or eight of them. Too many emotions to handle at once. I didn't know what to do, I need to let them out. I couldn't, instead I ended up laying in a fetal position in my wolf form and sunk down into the grass thinking of all the possibilities.

The chance, the choices, the stupid fucking vampires. I wished they never came to Forks three years ago.

I guess when I left it had somewhat the same effect on Leah as it did on Bella. That made me cringe. Bella's face was just tortured, paled, I can't quite describe it because it was very pained.

If that was how Leah was, damn. I was even worse than that bloodsucker. I know that I had hurt two very beautiful women. One physical and the one I love with my heart emotional. I closed my eyes and a howl had made me go up onto duty mode.

I pulled myself together to hear what was the deal with everything hoping that none of my pack members had heard my thoughts.

Leah's Point of View:

They say the only way to kill another person is by a weapon. I don't agree with that. I feel as though I'm dying inside of my own body even though I still have Sam. The truth can kill a person. Well, their soul, I guess.

Sam went out the door and as always I was agitated.

I was completely drained from all the events going on in my life. It was going so well and then a bombshell had to drop. The saying "good things don't last forever," is so true in my case.

I closed my eyes and fell into a troublesome sleep.

I tensed up and got up from the bed once I heard a noise from my window. My heart was pounding wanting it to be Sam, instead I got Jacob.

"Hey Lee," he said.

"Hey there Jacob," I said helping him into my room.

The look in his eyes made him seem like not the same Jacob as before. He seemed more mature and didn't seem to have the same sense of humor as before. All these La Push boys were starting to irritate and worry me.

"What's going on?" I asked after a moment of silence.

"I just wanted to see how you were," he said looking into my eyes, but he looked disappointed.

"Is there something wrong?" I questioned.

"No, everything is fine," he sneered.

"It sure doesn't seem like it," I said.

"It's best for you to not know everything," he said, staring blankly into the wall. I knew he was sure as hell right about that, but curiosity kept coming back to me.

"You guys want to tell me anytime soon what's going on?"

"Soon Lee, soon," he murmured.

"That's what I always here."

"I love you Lee," he said kissing my forehead and jumping out he window. I was flabbergasted by what he just said. I'm pretty sure he only said it as a friend, a friendly gesture. I mean we known each other for years and I love him too just not on Sam level.

I shook my head and decided to freshen up.

As I walked out Sam was sitting with my dad. I smiled at them.

"Leah, I have to talk to you," Sam said. The look in his eyes made me concerned about what this conversation would lead to.

My dad looked horrible. Sam looked like a zombie. I didn't understand all of the things going around me. I hate to be clueless and not knowing what was hidden from me by the most important people in my life.

As I thought that I understood that it was good to keep some of information away from other people. I knew I keep LeAnndra to myself for a bit of time now, but it was for their own good as for me.

"What's going on?" I asked.

It looked as though Sam and my dad were having a little conversation of their own while they were looking at each other.

"Good luck son," my dad said.

Sam pressed his lips together and stride towards me as my dad left to go into his room.

"Leah," he said slowly as he putting his hands onto my shoulder.

"Sam," I said back looking into his brown eyes that always seem to make me dumbstruck every time.

He shook, a tear rolled down his face. I knew this was going to be bad.

"We need to stay away from each.." I didn't let him finish what he was going to say. I didn't want to hear it.

"No!" I shouted.

"I'm a monster."

"No, no, no," I said knees growing weak causing me to fall onto the linoleum floor of the house.

"Leah, this is for your own good," he said.

"You can't leave again," I said shaking, sobbing, crying.

"I'm not going nowhere, it's just a little break."

I closed my eyes and my dad came back out.

"Lee, let me talk to Sam for a bit princess," he said gesturing Sam towards his room.

Jacob's Point of View:

We all knew what happened to Leah. Sam had one of those phases where your emotions take over and you can't hear your other pack mates.

Everyone was wordless, dumbstruck by the thoughts inside Sam's head. The pain was also unbearable to feel along with Sam. It was so strong, as for the guilt as well.

I can't believe that this type of thing could happen. She was going to have a little girl. Sam bottled it up at first, not thinking of it, but he burst out as he saw Leah's delicate face.

A howl went through the forest and I ran towards Embry.

Bella decided to go cliff diving without you and she's in the waters right now. You better do something.

Fucking shit. Leah and Bella are freaking killing me here.

You know they both taken right? asked Quil.

Do you think I'm a fucking idiot Quil? I asked.

You didn't answer the question and yes Jake. Yes I do think you're an idiot.

Dumbass. I got better things to worry about than argue with you.

I ran down to the cliffs and jumped. I pulled myself underwater and the saltwater burned my eyes. I tried searching for Bella and as I found her I wrapped my arms around her. And pulled her up and swam to shore.

She coughed and smiled up at me. Sam was down here five minutes later.

"Yeah, she's fine," I said.

"You take care of her now," he said walking up the cliff again.

That's exactly what I did. I took care of her for a bit and took her home. I made her promise me that she's wouldn't go cliff diving again until she was with someone.

I decided to go and check up on Leah. I crawled up into her window.

"Hey Lee," I said.

"Hey there Jacob," she said helping him into my room.

She looked so helpless to me. I hated how she's going through her silent torture not letting anyone how what's wrong or going on with her if it's something treacherous.

"What's going on?" she asked after a moment of silence.

"I just wanted to see how you were," I said looking into my eyes. I hated how the were bags under her eyes. How she looked so fragile and tired. All these bad things happened to her.

Why is it that I fall for the taken ones? Why do I fall for the ones who is going through their little emotion breakdown?

"Is there something wrong?" she questioned.

"No, everything is fine," I sneered.

"It sure doesn't seem like it," she stated.

"It's best for you to not know everything," I said, staring blankly into the wall.

"You guys want to tell me anytime soon what's going on?"

"Soon Lee, soon," I murmured.

"That's what I always here."

"I love you Lee," I said kissing her forehead and jumping out the window.

Holy Shit, I thought to myself. I had actually said that to her.

I do love her, as a sister I think. I don't think it could go further than that. As I think of it, I do love her at that state. Same with Bella. Damn I'm a mess.

I ran into the woods, not wanting to phase because I didn't want my brothers to hear my thoughts all wrapped up on these two girls who are way out of my league.

I decided then to go to first beach and watch the waves, rethinking things. That's all we all can do at the moment think, argue, and cry. La Push was this boring old town. How did so much drama get wrapped up in it?

I heard playful growls from my brothers. I smiled, but knew their fun wouldn't last long as I smelled a familiar vampire, Victoria.