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-------I LOVE Legally Blonde the Musical!!!!!!! but besides that... Here is the next chapter I took a jump hoping the characters didn't seem OOC (Disclaimer: which aren't mine except Emily Marie...) As always enjoy, review, and totally, PAY ATTENTION… a lot shall happen and you MUST understand, or you will be as confused as I am!!!!!------

Chapter 5

After the numbing cold touched my skin, I cuddled into the warmth that was his skin, for what seemed like forever. We finally reached the effaced doors of the hospital. Slowly, oh, slowly, Edward put me down. I wish the time we spent in the woods would last forever.

Although the looks, Emily, gave me were very condescending, I acted very malicious and kept smiling. Serves that jealous bitch right, I thought very smugly.

I was not one to curse but she just ticked me off. Seriously, if he left me, what ever world or time; how could he love her of all girls?

Sure, she was lovely I thought self consciously, but she seemed so….so... Not me.

That simply, I decided, whether Edward loves me or not, I would give my life and everything it entails. Since, my soul wasn't good enough. That's all I have to offer though.

Reality dawned on me, when the Carlisle, I saw in my reality, walked through the metal doors. I expected some change in his features. But I came up empty; he was as perfect as ever.

While, Edward, filled out paper work and, Emily, I am repulsed by the bitter sweet name, went to the ladies room.The least expectant thing occurred Carlisle winked at me, with a kindred, knowing smile. What's that supposed to mean? My thoughts only led me to two choices, either since, Esme, isn't in this place/time, he was hitting on me, (which I am seriously repulsed by the idea!), or he knows about my sincerely odd situation…

"What do you know?" I whispered just loud enough to were his enhanced senses could pick it up. He just continued to do his work on my bandaged arm, and legs.

I was disappointed and why shouldn't I be? I want answers, and now.

I jeered internally! For the love of…

"Ahhhhhh, holy shit! Uh, eh, ah," I whimpered, after my cussing, praying to the lord that trapped me here. If I did die because of Victoria why was I here? Is this heaven? My thoughts were the only thing keeping my mind off the pain.

But now I also felt guilty.

Whenever I whimpered for the slightest bit of pain, my beloved (he's not an angel, he's not god, but oh boy is he somewhere in between!) would crinkle his face in agony; and twisted at my facial expressions.

Why was he here with me? His mom needs him more. Wait what if I...

"Dr. Carlisle, your needed in the infirmary," a nurse stuck her headthrough my room doors. He nodded apologetically at me, then smiled and left, in which, a nurse stumbled in his place to finish his work on my body.

"Edward," I whispered. He obviously was watching me intently watching for any slight change in me.

"Yes," he confided warily looking at me. "What is it?" he wanted to distract me in anyway he could.

"Go be with your mother," I attempted a smile, he saw through it immediately but appreciated my intentions, I supposed.

In response to my pondering, statement, his face became masked and sullen. A mere child could read through his pretenses.

How ironic, I saw that as a figment of the most innocent thing, and I compared that to the mystical creature I knew he was capable of being.

I stared at his magnificent emerald, orbs for eyes and questioned his sanity.

"Please, don't waste your time on me," he looked at me with a sardonic smirk. Ugh… "Seriously, I will heal, but she really needs you…" I drifted off.

I suddenly noticed that Emily was no where to be found….

Then realization hit me. He never told me what his mother was in the hospital for. Plus if I hadn't known about this prior to my situation, this looks, extremely suspicious…. Maybe he didn't notice.

I would have to depend on that factor, I concluded mentally.

By the looks of it he didn't even notice, I slipped up; whew I was safe, for now. This brought me back to the impending situation. And I thought I was stubborn….

He looked derisive, like any choice he made would make a huge difference to his existence; I slipped up, life, at least for now.

Resentment, now filled his eyes. Yes, I was triumphant! Wait there is something wrong…. Emily…. Ah hah that's it I bitterly remembered.

Edward started to talk, automatically bringing me out of my sub-conscious, chatter. "Maybe, I should visit her, at least for a little while, that way, Emily, won't be all alone." He seemed outwardly brightened by that idea.

HOLD UP!

"Are you sure you will be okay?" he delicatelly asked me. Selfish, selfish, selfish, I bit back my words, that dared to flow out like a river. The simple nod of my head reassured him into leaving me into the absurdly lonely white room. Even the nurse that left a minute before brought more energy into this drably hospital room.

I suffered and grimaced alone, at the possibility of my, Edward with Emily. I sat there cold, I could see them together a happy couple. Maybe, he left me because, he could never love me like he could love her?

Love or lies, I confided, helplessly.

---- This chapter is a little boring I will confide, but It leads into chapter 6. Stay tuned!!!! Review…. or i will threaten to stop writting.(again)

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