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------A/N,,, What do you think of my story so far?...Well, I have been really busy now being, a popular freshman and all…. So if I don't get at least 20 reviews I, don't think that there is enough reason for me to continue….sob….
On that note. This is Chapter Six. As for the whole Carlisle thing, my lips are sealed (wink, wink)…. However I promise you an amazing chapter to continue from, my insultingly boring fifth chapter! As per always, ENJOY!-----
Chapter 6
Ugh, if the vampires complained about time seeming like nothing. They obviously were never stuck in a hospital bed, nearly immobile. Well not physically, but mix my injuries with the unfathomable fact I'm an utter klutz than I have a problem don't I?
"Miss Swann?" thank the lord! You're my personal miracle Carlisle!
That was until I heard the emotion behind his enthralling voice. It was sullen, mixed with pity. I knew the influenza was spreading but I didn't think how it would affect him. On the other hand how could it not?
"Hello, Carlisle," I still saw his caramel eyes transfixed on a glazed stare. Poor thing! "Is every thing okay?" I expected him to snap out of his trance like stare and reassure me, as I guessed he would.
"No, no it's not okay." He stared at me with a knowing glare.
What can I do to help with the tragic impending situation! I was one meek, uncoordinated human girl. That word reflexively made me clutch my torso. As a jerk reaction he turned to see my solemn face.
Than he sighed. "You probably know more than I give you credit for," you think?! Why am I so frustrated? Ugh, Carlisle is being a cynical, stubborn, uptight bastard!
Even when I thought about cursing about him remorse and disgust coursed through me. I can't say that about that to a fatherly figure. He once was family… It seemed so long ago…
….Never mind.
"Your right you know." He turned dumb struck by my response.
And than I let go. I felt the tear in my chest. I started to ramble, but he could hear every slurred phrase.
"T-the love of my l-l-life," I choked out in gargled sobs; I let every wall fall, every single pretense. "Is with that Elizabeth Mary!" I spit out disgusted by that thought. I only inhaled more air and started to rock back and forth on my bed. I was nothing left, a hollow shell filled with a life that I didn't want to love because I had no reason to. It felt selfish in a way. All the people in the hospital, who had no chance at life, looked at me like a prodigy. I have something they don't have. Hope.
I can recover if I try right? Wrong! Oh how wrong!
I must have been mumbling incoherently for a while, because when I looked up I saw my shudder came to an abrupt stop. It was outer body experience. It was Edward. He mumbled incoherently, and his eyes seemed puffier than my cold hard eyes. What happened? Oh no! Not his mother! Wait it's to soon, I thought comfortingly. If all the stories are exactly the same as the timeline I sketched out about the Cullen's we still had time. So than why is he crying?
That's when I realized the, girl, I cried my heartbreak over was gone. Where was she? My whole body went completely numb. He never loved her, maybe in his own way he did, but not like he loved me. My epiphany came to late to stop the heartbreak and tears. But that didn't solve the look in his eyes, and the irritability in Carlisle's
But before I could ask either what was happening, Carlisle's head flung a glance at Edward's. As confused as I was at that moment it never occurs to me to feel sorrow for a girl I now pitied.
Then a haunting feeling washed through me. No, the influenza got to her! How could life be this cruel? She wasn't even that old! That made my life look like it belonged to someone who lived in a utopia.
Coming back to my present situation, the two gentlemen realized and grasped my facial expression as a grim nod of understanding.
I had to move now I told myself. That's when I attempted to get up. The speed at which I fell was almost enthralling and adrenaline worthy. And the young man who's arms I fell into surrounded me like a safety blanket. Then all the doubt of him never not loving me washed all those terrible months away. I realized he loved me.
My response was a kiss. It was filled with passion, remorse, longing, and most importantly irrevocable love.
Drip
DropDrop
Drip…
That's when I smelled the most sickly, thing.
His blood, it slowly, dripped from his ear.
…
…..
………
FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NO!
NOT NOW
NOT EVER
….HELP!
I wanted to cradle him in my arms. Tell him everything would be okay, but I had no clue, to what was going on.
"Carlisle! Help! Oh no, no, no!" A fresh wave of tears masked my vision. Wasteful, how much time did I have left. This delusion of him was to good to have this happen. What did I do to deserve this! More importantly what did he do? Nothing I cried weakly in my head.
They tried to move me away from him I refused to leave his side. "Not, not ever!" I vowed a little staggered.
He smiled at me, barely realizing what this meant. So little time! Then I thought about the future, or what ever it was to me. Is everything I know a lie? If this can happen to people….
"No, not him!" he kissed me, his lips left an imprint on mine, they moved him to another crowded area of the hospital. I went to follow.
Carlisle stepped in front of me. I forgot how hard he was. "Move!"
"Hush, Hush,"
That's when felt detatched from my body.
Swimming with the scent of his vivid kiss, I looked at it like a goodbye…….
---- I'm SORRY, don't hurt me! ((Curled up in a ball)) It killed me to do it! I swear right now I am mourning for his fictional death! On the other hand I would love suggestions, did you like? Question, comment, even a concern? I would love to help! Hope you enjoyed stay tuned for Chapter7!!! I'll explain this chapter in more detail when I put up the seventh Chappy( this is one of my new fave words, who cares if you think I'm a weirdo!)-----
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