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Chapter 9

I just wanted to wake up from this nightmare of a dream. I want to reach my arms out to the cold pair I know I'll find in the morning.

I want Charlie, to be happy, even if that includes me lying to him endlessly no matter how terrible I am at it. The blackness that now surrounded me seemed to drag on forever waiting for my decision.

How could I choose to be selfish over what I know is the right thing to do? Simple, I just could. But that was wrong I chided back at myself, and eventually, I tabulated it would affect me, to hurt a loved one.

I mustered up what was left of my voice to call for Carlisle. He seemed to disappear after his rather odd entrance.

"Carlisle…" my lithe voice echoed in a seemingly endless way.

Would this nightmare ever end?

"Yes?"

I must have jumped so high that he held up his hands in a cautious, serious manner. Which sort of made me miss Emmett and how much he would have teased me about how high I jumped, I thought again as a seer of pain ripped through me.

Cautiously, I phrased my question to the flawless vampire, my smile tilted upward naturally at that word, but I caught myself before it gave me away. His features caught me off guard. He wasn't the cold stone like creature I was used to seeing. He looked like an angel. The bruise like shadows were gone. But there was an aura of light that shone through every fiber of his being. It was euphoric, like he knew my dreading answer before I could dare to speak it out loud…

"So it comes down to this, huh?" He answered honestly and too calmly for my liking. My knees dared to buckle beneath me at any moment. He saw my reflexive step back, and furrowed his marble brow.

"Yeah," I admitted in a defeated sigh. He knew me well enough. But I bet my body language and motions quickly gave him away to my discomfort.

"It's really for the best…" his words were cut off by my shout.

"You mean for everyone else!" I wanted to go numb with sleep, or pass out, but I quickly realized an easy out would beimpossible. This only frustrated me further.

"Just put everything the way it was, before Victoria, came into my room," I ushered in a resigned sigh. I wasn't fooling him. But what did it matter. Surely I could wait out my life. Why should I have to?

Carlisle saw I was becoming depressed, drowning within my own clouding thoughts. His actions were meant to reassure me but all I wanted to do was hide away and never be bothered by the world again. Unless, he came back…

Of course that's just not how it goes.

The truth hurt me, deeper than I would have imagined.

Than Carlisle stepped backwards. Why is he leaving me?

I wanted to cry out and stop him as I desperately tried to run. Surprisingly I didn't fall down but all I could see was the midnight, moonless sky. I didn't even have a star to guide me. It felt like a treadmill motion, and I never tired on moving. Than I saw the most brilliant, unseeingly amazing light.

I stepped through the odd mystic portal only to learn that drowsiness was possible and I quickly succumbed, anxious, to discover what was next.

--- Yeah it was short but with my lack of time what isn't? So you either a) hate it b) ehh its okay… c) want more. All of these opinions should be voiced! P.S. to understand my editing in this story READ MY BIO… Hope your not madd at me for cutting it short!----

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