A/N don't hate me….
I don't own it….
New Year's Eve
Bella POV
I can't believe the year is over. Last year, I was in London with my family preparing to come to the States. This year – I made peace with former "enemies" who turned out to be friends, found my family, Billy, Jacob, Leah and Jakey, found and lost love with Demetri and now found my true love Mina and start anew with Edward. Life has been a roller coaster ride.
Christmas was beautiful. Edward gave me a beautiful platinum bracelet with my favorite verses the book of 1 Corinthians,
"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
Mina gave me a beautiful locket with a picture of her smiling. I can't believe my heart was healing so fast. It has only been a few weeks since Demetri's accident. He hasn't been back in my dreams. I have questioned myself over and over if I ever did love him. I know I did, but Mum states maybe it wasn't true love.
Mum and dad had to leave back home due to charity commitments for New Year's eve and day. They left on December 27th. We promised to see each other soon, since they gave me airline tickets for me to come back home anytime. Carlisle and Esme joined them as well. They actually were going to take a small vacation over in Europe. They had surprised SLR employees with paid vacation week during Christmas. Everyone was extremely happy.
Emmett, Rose, Jasper and Alice were planning to go to several parties tonight. I decided to stay home and Edward was coming over with Mina to see the ball drop. Edward and I were going to cook some dinner and just enjoy each other's company. We were together all week as we got to know each other. He has grown up a lot and actually loves Mina with his life. He has been really great with me. He doesn't push me with too much affection. I am happy with holding hands as we speak. We have kissed and I can honestly say that those lips are a weapon. I have never felt so many butterflies when I kiss him – not even with Demetri. His touch was magnetic and soothing. I found to be at peace with him. I want to take it slower but it is so hard with him. Edward is simply someone I can completely and fully fall in love with.
Edward POV
As I lay here on the couch with Bella in my arms, I think what this past year has brought me. I cannot believe that tonight of all nights I am not in a bed with a woman fucking her brains out. I love Bella, don't get me wrong, but I have needs and those needs haven't been met for a long time and my wrists are getting tired from pumping so much. I am going to need some kind of release soon, but I know Bella will not give it up. I can't believe her – I mean – she is such a beautiful woman. Why am I thinking this way?
I need some release. Maybe I can ask one of my former "playdates" to help me out.
Valentines' Day 2009
Bella POV
Where is Emmett and Jasper? They told me they were going to be here early so they can help me get into Edward's apartment and set up for tonight. Edward and I have been going out now since December and it has been great. Some days I do feel like he is a little off, but those days he had to work late at the lab or meet clients. He would come back the next day really off to me and treat Mina and I differently.
I didn't mind though, I had Mina to myself those nights. I loved having her with me. She was doing so well and I cried when she said Mama to me. I was teaching her to say Dada, but she said Mama first. Esme was there and we both cried. Even though she wasn't from me, she would always be my baby.
"Bella, we are here!"
"Finally, what took you so long?"
Jasper smiled and giving me a kiss "Sorry Bells, but Edward never made it to the meeting with Felix and Emmett and I had to go."
"What? He told me he had a few minutes today? Oh well, he must have taken longer with his prior meeting. Anyway, come on! I want to set up everything for tonight."
Emmett took me in his arms "Bella – are you sure about this? I mean – I love you and I just want you to make sure what you are doing."
"Thanks Emmett, but I am sure. I have caught Edward releasing himself in the shower a few times. I think I should grow up and take care of this. I love him and I know he loves me and he will never do anything to hurt me ever again."
Emmett and Jasper nodded. They were going to help me place red candles all over and get the place for tonight. Esme was going to take care of Mina for us and well, I had my lingerie ready as well. Alice, Rose and I went out to get something nice for the occasion.
We went upstairs to Edward's apartment and Jasper opened the door. "Oh no." I heard Jasper say.
"What Jazz?"
"Bella – let's go…"
"No what's wrong? Did he get robbed…"
It was worse. His clothes were all over the living room and a woman's clothes was as well. I picked up the bra and took a sniff.
"He couldn't Jazz."
"Bella, let's go – you don't need to see this…."
"No."
We walked around and his bedroom door was slightly opened and we heard the moaning and the slapping of skins. I opened the door and I couldn't believe it. Lauren and Edward were fucking like they had never been apart.
"YOU BASTARD!"
I left. I didn't know wear to go. I couldn't be there. I couldn't believe I fell for that shit again. I needed to leave - far away. I couldn't stay here, or the building or work. I needed to get away. First, I needed to say goodbye to Mina. I went upstairs to Esme and Carlisle's apartment and rang the doorbell hard. Carlisle came to the door.
"Bella! What's wrong?"
"Where's Mina?"
I came in and took Mina in my arms and held her tight, kissing her neck and whispering I love you's.
Esme worried "Bella, what's wrong dear?"
"I'm sorry Esme, Carlisle. I am leaving. I wanted to say goodbye to Mina. Please – don't ask. I can't talk about it right now."
They nodded.
Then I look at Mina "Mina, I will always love you. You will always be my baby. Don't ever let anyone tell anything different. You are perfect and I will always be there for you. Forgive me for leaving, but I have to."
I gave her my final kiss and left. I took the stairs and went to my apartment and quickly got my purse and keys to the car. Then I left. I didn't know where I was going to go, but I knew I was never going to come back.
Emmett POV
"YOU FUCKIN SON OF A BITCH."
I can't believe my brother. I pushed Lauren off of Edward, picked him up and threw him against the wall and punched him.
"Edward, what the fuck were you thinking?"
Edward smirked "This isn't anything to do with Bella. I love her – this is just a fuck. If she would only give it up…"
As I was going to throw another punch, Jasper did it for me.
"What the fuck Jasper? You too?"
Jasper held him against the wall "She was going to give you everything tonight you ass."
I was pissed. I was mad. "Lauren, if you don't get out of here now, I will personally take you out."
"Edward, you are going to let them talk to me like that. I am Mina's mother."
Jasper couldn't take it. "You just realized you were her mother. GET OUT LAUREN."
She yelled back "NO!"
Edward came in between. "Stop it. She has every right to be here. She is Mina's mom."
I couldn't believe him. "Edward, you are dead to me. DEAD. Don't look at me. Don't talk to me. Don't even think of me. YOU ARE DEAD TO ME."
Jasper and I were about to leave "And if you think you are taking Mina – you have another thing coming."
I went downstairs to Bella's apartment as Jasper went upstairs. When I got in Bella's apartment, I noticed she had been there but took her purse and keys. Let me call her. Damn it – it's going straight to voicemail.
"Bella, sweetheart. Please come back. Don't do anything rash. We love you. You know that. Please come back to us."
Damn it where can she be?
When I went upstairs, Jasper and I explained everything to Mom and dad. They told us what happened. That's when Rose and Alice came in. They couldn't believe it as we told them.
Where could Bella be?