Chapter 13
After Nahuel left, I led Jacob into my room. We sat down on the loveseat; I could tell that he was still fuming from seeing who my dad said Jacob secretly called the "Dead-Alive Monster." I tried to lean over to kiss him, but he was as stiff as a board, unmoving.
"Jacob, what's wrong?" I finally asked. "I heard what he said as he left. And what he said when he first got here." he answered, staring straight ahead "He's still in love with you, ya know? I heard him last night in here after I left." "What? Jacob, no. He doesn't..." "He lied to you Renesmee." he interrupted, but finally faced me "He can't stand the fact that we are together. He only told you what he did so that you could be around him without feeling uncomfortable." "Jake, no, he meant what he…" Again, he interrupted me "He only wants that one chance alone with you, but he can only have that chance if you're willing enough to be in the same room with him. He's faking the friendship to make it seem like he's not the "Dead-Alive Monster" that he is!" I could no longer stand being interrupted "Jacob Black, you forget that I'm a "Dead-Alive Monster", as you call it, as well! Do you secretly call me that, too?" "No, Nessie! Of course not! I love…" It was my turn to stop him. "No, you don't love me! If you did, you could accept what I am and what Nahuel is and that he is my friend. He was there for me when you couldn't understand what I was going through or when you couldn't be with me." By this time, I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer as the tears started to fall. "Renesmee, please! It's not like that. Please don't cry! You know it kills me to see you cry." Only because I'm your stupid "imprint", I thought. He tried to pull me against him, but I shrugged away from his arms. "Nessie, come on. Don't be like this! You know I love you more than anything! You are my life now! Always have been, actually!" He stood and kneeled in front of me, gazing into my eyes. "I love you, Renesmee, don't you know that?" I looked away. Looking at him only made it harder to say what I needed to say. "If you love me and I'm your life," I began "Then why can't you except the fact that Nahuel is part of my life?" I looked back at him, which only made more tears fall. "I just don't know if I can be with someone who can't live peacefully with the other people in my life."
I was now crying so hard that I couldn't talk anymore. "So what are you saying? Are we just giving in to him? Giving him what he wants? Is that how you plan to solve all your problems in life? Just give in to them?" Jacob said, with a hurt expression "Ness, we're meant to be together! We're each others destiny!" I shook my head "I'm sorry, Jake." I managed to say through the tears. "Yeah, I'm sorry too." he said, his voice sounding strained as he stood and walked out the door.
I couldn't believe what had just happened. Did I really just break-up with one guy I was truly meant to be with? But yet, maybe if something this simple could shatter us, what would have happened if it was something bigger? If this happened so easily, were we really ever meant to be?
I could no longer take this day. I walked into my bedroom and glanced at the clock. 8:53. I crawled in to bed, full dressed. As I lay there, the tears continued to stream down my cheeks and onto my pillow.
In the middle of my sobs and cries, I heard a knock at my door. I didn't answer; maybe who ever it was would think I was sleeping and wouldn't bother me. Instead, the visitor slightly opened the door. "Hey, Nessie, can I come in?" the person said "Are you okay? What happened?" I didn't answer as the person sat down on my bed and pulled me against their chest. I had no idea who it was, since I had yet to open my eyes; but I didn't care as long as it wasn't Jacob Black.
The visitor slowly laid me down on my pillow again and lay down behind me. After a few more tears, I tried my best to get some rest. I had suddenly felt a wave of peace once the person was beside me. It was a feeling as if I would be okay; that I could make it through the night. About an hour later, I fell into a deep sleep.
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The next morning, I awoke feeling terrible. I suddenly remembered my visitor from last night, as I turned to see who it was. When I had rolled over, I came face to face with……………..No one.