Chapter Twenty-Four

"Reneesme Carlie Cullen! Have you lost your mind?!" Alice and Dad stormed into the living room. Everyone else was following, looking confused. I stood and met them halfway across the room.

"Maybe I have! Maybe that's part of me that seems to be missing right now! Do you seriously expect me to just sit around here and do nothing or just simply forget him? If you think so, you are completely insane!"

My mom came from the back of the group behind them. "Okay, everyone let's just calm down." she stood between me, and Alice and Dad. "Now, Nessie will you tell me what is going on? Alice had a vision, and the next thing, ran out of the room, not even stopping to explain."

"Mom, I've decided to go after him. I can't take this! I love him, Mom! You can't expect me to just sitting around, waiting for him to come back. What if he never comes back? What if I could possibly prevent both of us from having this hurt for the rest of our lives? I have to at least try to find him!"

My mom looked into my eyes; when she does this, I feel that she can see straight into me and can understand everything that's going on in my head. She gave me a small smile.

"And I wouldn't expect you to just sit around waiting. I can understand that you want to go after him. To tell him that he's a completely idiot for not giving you a chance to even talk about this, but rather just running off somewhere." she gave my dad a knowing look, at which he coward, lowering his head. "But I only wish that you would do one thing, for me. Just so I know you're not just making a rash decision and that this is what you want to do. Can you wait till tomorrow or the next day to leave? I want you to give yourself time to think and maybe plan what you want to do."

"That sounds reasonable. Yeah I will." I hugged her tightly. She seemed to always have the answers lately.

Dad lifted his head, looking at Mom as if she was insane. "Bella, are you crazy? You seriously think that she needs to go after him? It was his fault! He's the one that ran! Why should she have to follow him?"

"Edward, I see you're finally seeing the other side of the story now! What do you think would have happened to us had I not come after you in Volterra? Would you still be alive? Would we be together? Would we be having this conversation? With our daughter? I think not! Reneesme is more like me than I ever realized. She fights for what she loves! Whether it be vampire or werewolf!"

I could tell he was still seething, but she seems to have a bit of control over him. Mom then turns back to me.

"Oh and one last thing. Take someone with you. I just don't feel right about letting you go off alone when you don't even know where you're planning to go."

I had no idea what to say to that one. Who would want to go with me, searching for my MIA fiancée? I looked around till my eyes met Leah's. She grinned.

"Feel up to a rode trip, Lee?" I pleaded with my eyes. She was the best choice.

"I guess so." she laughed.

Nahuel suddenly appeared beside me. "I'll be going, too. I just wouldn't feel right about the two of you going off without a male with you."

"And you think you are the logical choice? You're the reason we have to do this! If it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be in this mess! But no, you had to kiss me! You had to try it again, even after I said no, that we had no chance!"

He closed his eyes before speaking. "Nessie, listen. I know—"

"You know nothing! If you did, you would have known to not do that! You would have known that I don't want to be with you! Actually, you did know that! You just chose to ignore it! To try to force me into it!"

"Nessie, if you would just listen I'm trying to tell you that I'm sorry!"

"Sorry? No, sorry doesn't cut it! More like idiotic, insane, a complete moron! And apology NOT accepted." With that, I ran out of the room, up the stairs to my bedroom with Leah not far behind me.

Once we were in my room, I closed the door and sat down by Leah on the loveseat. As soon as I sat down, I remembered all the times me and Jacob had sat here. Everything that had happened on this couch, good and bad. I tried my best to not let the tears start to fall again. I had thought that I had no more tears to cry. I was wrong.

"Leah, what am I going to do? I have no idea where he is or where he could possibly be! And once I do find him or if I even can find him, what am I going to say? What will convince him that I truly do love him? Leah, I—"

"First of all, you're going to calm down. You can't think clearly unless you breathe! You have to breathe, Nessie. Now, are there any places that he likes to go a lot? Like when he needs to think?"

I thought back to all the conversation Jacob and I had had over the years, trying to find something that would stick out. Nothing came to mind.

I suddenly had a brainstorm.

"Leah! First Beach! He has to be at First Beach! That's his favorite place to go to think, to clear his head. I can remember now him telling me many stories about times he's had there. We have to go back to Forks! And it has to be tonight!"

"Wait. Whoa. Hold on! You promised your mom you would stay at least until tomorrow! You can't just go running out there looking for him the first place that comes to mind!"

"Mom said to wait till I've thought everything through and decided if I really want to do this and I have. And besides, how else do you expect to find him other than just randomly picking places he loves?"

Leah closed her eyes and shook her head. I had won and she had given up.

"Fine, but I think I might agree that Nahuel has to come with us."

"What?!"