Chapter Six- Escape to the stars

Special thanx to ILoveReadingAndWriting and to Jazzyjazz07 for helping me overcome my writer's block. Also the inspiration for this chapter is the song 'Escape to the stars' by Cinema bizarre. Go onto youtube and listen to it while reading this chapter… Sorry it took so long to update, but my wonderful hubby surprised me with Lady Gaga concert tickets!! So yea, I was a little pre-occupied.

Sick and tired of this so-called life
without room to breathe
I toss and turn in my bed all night
Am I the only one who finds no peace?

BPOV

I lay in the bed for the next week, sometimes crying myself to sleep and sometimes just unable to sleep because my racing mind and all the nightmares of Jacob coming after me. I felt bad for Edward, because every time I screamed or cried in my sleep he came to comfort me. I still couldn't talk about that night or Jessica. And I refused to go back to work; luckily I had my laptop and could do the necessary marketing from the comfort of Edwards's house.

"Bella?" I heard Edward say from the other side of the door.

"Yes… you can come in." I said wrapping myself in more blankets.

"I made you some lunch, actually since I can't cook to save my life; I ordered some pizza and soda for us." He smiled as his comment made me laugh. "There's that hidden smile I miss so much."

My smile faded as I felt tears stinging my eyes once more. Edward quickly pulled me in for a hug.

"I wish I could help you Bella, I just want to take all of your pain away."

What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Escape to the stars
Feeling so free
Just you and me
Escape to the stars
Chasing a dream
All that we need is to believe
Escape to the stars

EPOV

I looked at Bella… Eyes swollen, nose red, lips turned to into a frown. Even in this state, she was the most beautiful person that I have ever met in my life. I could see her getting ready to cry again so I wrapped my arms around her.

"I wish I could help you Bella, I just want to take all of your pain away."

She pulled away and looked me in the eyes. "What hurts the most is my heart… I feel such a heavy weight in my chest… and the only time it lifts… is when I am with you Edward…"

My jaw dropped slightly. I was taken back with her confession. I felt happy and honored that at least my presence made her feel better. She continued to look at me, waiting for my response. I gazed into her chocolate brown eyes and lowered my head to hers.

"I will always be here with you Bella, if for nothing else than to keep that beautiful smile on your face, I will stay forever." And with that I captured her lips with my own, for this moment in time I was lost in complete bliss.

I've always been the one to speak my mind
Strove against the stream
Take on the system or leave it behind
And you will find a new reality
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?

BPOV

When I finally broke away from the kiss to catch my breath, I realized that I had no idea if I had real feelings for Edward or if I was just infatuated with the fact that he was my hero…while I was a the clumsy damsel in distress. I could tell that he was trying to read my facial expressions and I am sure that I looked completely confused.

"Edward I…" I started but then he cut me off when I looked down instead of at him.

"Bella, please don't say anything. I'm sorry, it was wrong of me to take advantage of you in this state. I should know better. It's like I'm no better than Jacob!" He said with clenched fists.

"Edward no! There is no way that you are remotely like that jerk! You are so much more… and it's because of that fact that I can't let you in…I mean…I don't know…" I shut my mouth becoming conscious that I was making the situation uncomfortable for the both of us.

"Look, I love you Bella…But that love is that of a sister and best friend. I want what's best for you. And I don't think that it's me." He looked away from me, hiding a look of pain.

"I do need you, Edward… please don't leave me, you said that you would protect me! I still need you! Please!" I panicked, feeling that I had pushed him far away.

"Shhh… I'm not going anywhere. I promise… I will protect you always." He said softly. I nodded at him and tried to smile. "Now, I suggest that you get dressed."

"Why can't I stay in my jammies all day?" I teased.

"Because after lunch, Rosalie and Alice are coming over and do you really want the fashionistas to see in you pj's?" He laughed knowing that those two would throw a fit when they saw me.

All the gravity
Holding you down
On the ground
Free from insanity
No one else is around

Once I fixed my broken heart and soul, maybe then I can begin to let someone new take care of it.

"Go ahead bells, there is nothing I can do to stop them once they get here." He said as he tossed a pillow at me face. I laughed and threw it back at him.

I smiled as I kicked him out of my room so that I could change. And I thought to myself… Maybe Edward would be my escape to the stars……

Escape to the stars
Escape To The Stars
Feeling so free
Just you and me
Escape to the stars
Chasing a dream
All that we need is to believe
Escape to the stars