im soooooo sorry for not posting at all though i promised. i kinda needed a break anyway. so i promise that i will write ....ok, ok, angie! calm down i still hav a lot to write and this is only the beginning! wait 4 the mad obsessive love! goodness i can only write so much until i get writers block (writer's block is a writer's worst nightmare! and yes i have had it.). ive been coming up with todays stuff all day. i hope you guys like it! heres more of ccidentl luv!

Previously

"it was nice seeing you guys. i can insure you that i will be coming back."
"bye sara."emmett said. i smiled. there was a playful threat in between his goodbye.
"bye emmett." i walked to my car and waved goodbye to the cullens. where was rosalie? who knew where.....

Chapter 10: Feelings and the Volturi

i drove up my street with only one arm. rosalie really had a bad attitude...or maybe she was really competitive, but she still broke my arm. the one arm that wasnt broken still throbbed. actually my whole body was. i shook my head. i would probably stay out of rosalie's way. i pulled up into the drive way and walked up to the door. my mom opened it.
"ill be right down!" i said was i ran up the stairs. i headed towards the back of my closet there was a dress that id bought just for this occasion(.com/cgi/app#foo). there was a knock at the my door.
"im almost done!"i said.
"what happened to your arm?" my mom asked. crap! i had this plan of trying to hide the evidence.
"my arm?" i said while pulling off of the rest of my clothes.
"yes, sara, your arm."
"what about it?" i pulled the dress over my head. i was careful to not to move it a lot. i was still stiff.
"it was wrapped up." she said. i put my hair in a head band on my head and put my earrings and shoes on. i opened the door.
"i slammed my arm against a wall at the mall." i said. i went back to get my aquamarine ring.
"how'd you do that."
"i don't know. but lets go! we have only have ten minutes till our reservation is up!" i went around her and practically ran down the stairs. i could hear her footsteps behind me. she opened the door and headed towards the car. i locked the door and got in the drivers side. i quickly pulled out of the driveway and headed down the street.
i glanced at mom. she was looking at my arm that i still held to my body. i stopped at a red light. thats when i noticed a cloaked person standing next to the car. i disguised a laugh as a couch. the person lifted his head up. his eyes were a deep crimson. i looked desperately at the light. it turned green. i sped off.
i turned left after a moment. i tried to calm myself down. you dont see people with red eyes everyday. i tried on focusing on getting me and my mother to the restaurant. i laughed. this time i couldnt hold it in. my mom looked at me.
"whats so funny?" she asked.
"nothing." i said. we had at least thirty minutes to get to the restaurant. i just told her that so that she would leave the arm alone. i turned right this time. the place was right across the street. i found a parking space and turned off the car. i turned my head to my mom. she was still looking at my arm. i sighed loudly and got out of the car. i waited for my mom to come around the car before i made my way across the street and into the restaurant.
"we have a reservation." i said.
"name?" she said. i looked at her name tag. alisa. nice name.
"marino." she typed the name into the computer.
"this way." we walked by many people. tourists and police men and women. she walked us to a booth. it was a view of the river that went by. gondolas went past. there was a walkway. it was a little crowded, but what do you expect. youre in italy. i turned to my mother. i smiled at her. she returned the smile. our waitress of the night came over to us. i looked at her name . another pretty name. i look at the name tags to see how many people have the name sara and the way its spelled.
"welcome to marias. could i get you something to drink?" ella said.
"ill have a glass of ermacora pinot grigio." mom said. ella turned her attention to me.
"ill have a peach tea."
"okay. ill be right back." i looked back over to mom.
"can i at least look at it." she said.
"mom im fine." she turned the puppy dog eyes on me."fine." i carefully took out the pins that carlisle put in the gauze to keep it from unraveling. i slowly unwrapped the wrap. it was bad. well, it looked bad. mom gasped.
"sara!" she whispered loudly.
"mom, ive had worse." i said.
"i know that. but doesnt that hurt?!?" i shook my head. there was a slight throbbing now. the waiter came with our drinks. she gawked at my arm.
"i know that this isnt any of my business," she said while putting our drinks on the table," but did you do that at the mall?"
"yeah." i said with a smile.
"i did the same thing when i was trying to get to a sale." she said.
"did you break it?" mom asked.
"it was just hair-like fractures." ella said. mom relaxed when she heard that." okay. on the the meal. what would you like." she was asking me first.
"ravioli di portobello." she nodded as she wrote that on her pad.
" and you?"
"and ill have ziti al forno." ella grabbed our menus. and told us that she would be back with our meals. mom had a expression on her face, but i couldnt figure out why.
"what?" i said.
"im trying to decide something." she tilted her head to the side a little bit." are you still okay?" my heart skipped a beat. i waited for some pain. i didnt understand why or how i could get over ashtons death. i mean didnt it just happen. and i thought that i was madly in love with him. now i realize that we were wrong.
"im fine." i was almost completely sure of that. mom took a deep breath.
"ashtons funeral is tomorrow."
"okay." i said. i looked outside at the passing people. i was sad, but not the 'im gonna eat the whole bucket of ice cream' kind of sad. i was sad that ashton was gone.
"are you sure you want to go."
"of course. i want to say some things." mom nodded. i was sure when i did this i could move on for real. i started to rewrap my arm. ella came over to us. a plate in each hand and sat them on the table.
"enjoy." she said. and with that she left. i picked up my fork and started to eat. i thought back to the time that i had with the cullens and christopher. christopher didnt say much, but his face said many things. i smiled and stuck another ravioli in my mouth. it was good. mom was so in her lasagna that she didnt even bother to talk.
i got another ravioli on my fork and looked out the window. my fork froze in mid air. my breathing quickened and my heart as off the charts. the cloaked person was on the other side of the walk way. watching me with his crimson eyes.

after dinner i told my mom that i had to go out again. i wanted to go shopping.
"didnt you just go shopping?" shed asked.
"i didnt even make it into the store. i went to the ice cream shop." id told her smoothly.
i was now heading to the cullens house. i let my vampire self drive me faster. i was scared and that didnt happen often. but i dont think that ive ever had a vampire other than jane tracking me, but even then she wasnt even tracking me.
when i the house came into view i could see that the the house was lit with the glow of lights inside the house. the bightness didnt even make a dent in the forest that surrounded the house. the door opened as i slowed. alice was on the porch. and so was the other cullens.
"alice. i think that someone is following me." i said.
"i know." she said grimly.
"is it jane?" i said.
"i dont know." there were footsteps coming towards us. i turned to see christopher running to us. my heart kicked into hyper drive. i quickly faced alice again. edward had a smile pulling at the corners of his mouth. i narrowed my eyes at him. he just shook his head.
we have an agreement i told him in my thoughts.
"you called alice?" he said.
"we have a major problem." she said.
"i think that jane is following me." i said. a look of shock flitted across his face.
"youre not for sure?" carlisle said.
"she was in a cloak. i couldnt see anything but crimson eyes." i said. the still image of the person came into my thoughts. i did it mostly for edward so that he could see him or her.
"its definitely not jane. it has to be demetri or felix."
"we should talk about this in the house." alice said. everyone headed inside. i waited for chisopher to be by my side. as we walked up the steps i tripped. christopher caught me before the concrete and my face could meet.
"sorry." i said. i rarely was a klutz. it happened sometimes.
"its okay." i made my way, again, up the stairs and into the house. they were everywhere. some of them chose to sit on the floor. others in furniture. i sat by a wall. christopher sat next to me. now that everyone was here, including rosalie, they talked about the possibilities. it was like that until about two in the morning. i remember that exact time because that was when i passes out from exaustion. i was in and out of consciousness.
"ill take her home." i hear christopher say. next thing i know im in his arms. his warm arms. i didnt hear the door close or even footsteps. i felt the wind whipping my hair everywhere. it was like that for like three minutes. then i felt the warmth of my covers. i wanted to tell him to stay, but i was too out of it to even open my eyes. five seconds later i was asleep.

Chapter 11

i woke up the next morning in my clothes. i tried to remember what had happened last night. i came in a rush. i sighed. when you were not even a normal human life was complicated. i looked at my arm. i unwrapped it. it was okay and the bruising was gone. that was a plus when you had a little bit of vampire in you. you healed fast. physically i mean. i looked at the clock it was 9:30. ashtons funeral was today. there was a soft knock at my door.
"com in." i said. mom came in she was beautiful. she had white a nice white dress on(.com/cgi/app#foo) and earrings and necklace.
"are you ready?" she asked. she still wasnt sure that i was okay. i was surprised myself. when daddy died i broke down.
"im as ready as ill ever be." i said.
"the limo will be here in a hour."
"a limo?" i said.
"you know how much you meant to ashtons family." mom said. i smiled. she hugged me and left. i crawled out of bed and got into the shower. after taking off my clothes of course. when i got out of the shower i went into my own closet and got out my white dress (.com/cgi/app#foo). when i was ready i went downstairs. my ringlets bounced as i came down the steps. my mom gave me a peach for a light snack. we were going to have brunch afterward courtesy of asthons family. mom and i didnt say much.
i heard the limo pull up. the driver honked the horn. i went out first. the hearse was behind the limo. i climbed into the limo. ashtons mom, dad, sister, and brother were in there. mom climbed in after me. the limo drove to the meadow (ashtons family. wanted it to be outside instead of inside.). i looked out of the window. italy passed by in a blur. it was really starting to sink in. ashton was dead and he wasnt coming back. ever. tears were brimming in my eyes by the time we reached the meadow . i was the first one out. people were already there.
i went and sat down in the front. the people brought the casket in front and put it on a beautiful table. when i saw the casket the tears spilled from my eyes. i started to shake. i was feeling the pain of loosing a brother not my love of my life. i knew that and i didnt feel ashamed.
my heart ached. sobs were shaking my body now. i let it come. i had to. i felt someones arm around me. i tried to calm myself down. the sobs became hushed. tears only came. people came down the isle now. it was time for the viewing. people from ashtons team came down the isle. the girls burst into tears when they looked into the casket. some guys even had tears in their eyes. then people from my team came. it was the same.
i got up. the family did the same. i guess that if i could do it then they could too. the wind blew my ringlets around my face. i got to the casket and i saw ashtons face. it was peaceful. i felt like someone had taken all of my breath. my legs buckled. i knew that everyone was a few feet away from me. i heard them gasp. i waited to feel the grass in my face, but i didnt. instead i felt warm hands catch me. they pulled me to him. i opened my eyes a little. it was christopher. i started to shake again. sobs ripping through me. my vision blurred by tears. i clutched onto him and sobbed.
"VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!" someone screamed. i lifted my head. my team and ashtons team. gathered around me and christopher.
"put her down." ethan said. christopher didnt even flinch. they started to get closer.
"leave him alone." i said. they didnt hear me.
"put her down." ethan said again. christophter looked down at me. he smiled.
"are you okay?" he whispered.
"im fine."
"okay so you want to do this the hard way." evan said. they were closing in faster.
"leave him alone." i said louder. they still didnt hear me. "leave him alone!" this time they heard me. they looked at me like id lost my mind.
"what?" nicholas said.
"i said leave him alone. hes not a vampire."
"then what is he?" ethan said.
"hes like me." i said. they gawked at him. christopher looked down at me again.
"do you want to sit down." i thought about that for a moment. when i realized that i was in his arms my heart pounded. i wanted to end up like this ever since i saw him. well not under these circumstances.
"yeah." they let us through. i could feel the eyes of everyone on us. christopher sat me down in my chair and sat next to me. i kept my eyes on my lap. i could feel the warmth of my blush on my cheeks. i looked up to see everyone looking at me. i narrowed my eyes. they continued the ceremony. i didnt dare look at christopher. though i peeked at him from the corner of my eyes. he however was looking at me.
when it was time to go i stood up. i finally looked at christopher. he was smiling. people were still looking at him. mom walked over to me. ashtons family were smiling at me. that shocked me. they went to the limo. ashtons mom came over to me.
"you can bring him if you want." she said.
"thank you." i said. she nodded. she always knew the relation between me and ashton. i thought that that was cool. i would have thought that she would have been mad.
"so the arm is okay?" christopher asked.
"yep." i said. i coulnt help but smile. i was suddenly trapped in his blue eyes. they were a shade darker than my own blue eyes.
"sara. its time to go." mom said. mom was surprised, but not upset.
"mom christophers coming with us." i said. she gave me a look." mrs. de luca said that he could come." i quickly added.
"alright." she turned and headed to the limo. i grabbed christophers hand, but then quickly let go. i didnt really know if he wanted me to do that. i was wrong. he grabbed my hand. when we got to the limo i got in first and he climbed in last. everyone in the limo was looking at christopher and me. i laid my head on his chest. it was nice to hear his heart beat. it was strong. somewhere during the ride i fell asleep. christophers heart beat was lullaby almost. the rhythm was nice. my own heart was beating erratically.
"sara." i heard him say softly." wake up." i peeked up at him. i didnt want to get up yet. we were in the cemetery. the others including my mother had already gotten out and started for the burial site. i closed my eyes. i felt his hands on my thighs and back. he lifted me out of the car and started to walk tot he burial sight. i opened my eyes. the sun was coming out. i almost panicked. i looked at his skin. it shimmered, but not like alice or edward or any of the cullens.
"okay you can put me down." i said. christopher placed me lightly on my feet. we walked together the rest of the way. walking down the isle people started to stare. i smiled to myself. i sat next to mom and christopher sat on my left. i again rested my head on his shoulder. the burial ceremony started. they talked about ashton. towards the end they told us that if we had anything to say. i noticed that the casket us still open. ashtons parents went up. his sister did too. friends went up. i could feel people staring at me. i knew i had to get up. i stood up. i looked back at christopher and sighed. i walked next to the casket. i looked inside. ashton was the same. i drew in a shaky breath.
"ashton." i said." he was my best friend. and he loved me very much, but he and i decided one day that we would take it further. i thought that he was everything to me. in reality he was more like a brother to me than anything. our love was a brother and sister love. there was no way that he could mean more than that and i think he knew that.
"when he died that night, when i listened to that last heart beat i didnt even know what to feel. of course as you could see earlier. i still could feel the pain of loss. even now i wish that it wasnt him. right now i realize that this shouldnt be a sad time, but a celebration of his life. he will always live in our hearts." i leaned down into the casket and kissed ashton on his cheek. i walked to my seat. there was a roar of clapping and cheering. people knew that that was one of the hardest things for me to do. i was proud of myself. i could feel that ashton was proud of me.
"that was very brave, sara." christopher said.
"i know." a few more people went up and talked. the pastor gave people flowers that were in the vases. i picked out five flowers. two calla lilies, two orchids, and a rose. i took one lily and orchid for myself. then i put the other lily and orchid on the casket. i turned and left. i went to go search for my mom. mrs. de luca found me first.
"sara. ashton wanted me to give you this if something ever happened to him." she give me a letter and hugged me."ill always be here if you need anything hon." and with that she climbed into the limo. i found her standing near my friends.
"mom. im not going with you okay?" i said.
"thats fine." everyone was still looking at me. i felt myself blush. i gave my mom my high heels. mom gave me my flats. i quickly left. i ran away from the funeral to home. when i got there mom hadnt gotten there yet. i put the lily on and orchid on my dresser then i climbed out of the window. i ran towards the mountain, but i wasnt going to the cullens. i was going to a special place that my dad had shown me. i was two thirds from the top when i veered right. i ran until i ran into the spring. the waterfall was as beautiful as it had always been. i took the rose out of my hair. i walked over to a large rock and sat on it. i placed the rose on the water. it floated for a while. then it was getting heavy with water and started to sink. i took out the letter and started to read it.

to my dearest sara
if you are reading this then i must have died. i know that you will get over it. i know you will because our love was a brother and sister love. i couldnt love you anymore than that. i do love you sara. i
if you find someone special sara i give you permission. im dead so be happy for me. i want you to be happy. i will love you always love you.

ashton

i stared at the letter. he knew too. he knew what kind of love i had for him. even when i didnt know. i knew that though at the same time. it was at the back of my mind. i smiled to myself. christopher was going to be mine and nothing was going to change that.

Chapter 12

she knew that i was following her. that was good and bad at the same time. i was sure that she was going to the cullens. i couldnt follow her there. edward would be able to "hear" me. i was still dressed in my cloak. i watched her now. she was at a funeral. i didnt know who. i could see that a friend of the cullens was there. christopher i think his name was.
i could see tears glistening on saras face. she walked down the isle and stopped at the casket. she collapses. christopher catches her before she can hit the ground. she doesnt even know that i am watching her. nothing is interesting here. i follow them to the burial site. she talks. about this person who dies. his name is ashton. i climb up a tree. i could see the crescent shape of vampire bite marks on his neck.
sara is done. she sits by christopher. i am surprised to see that she lays her head on his chest. jane would love to know this. after the funeral is over this sara girl runs off i follow her. i am careful to not be seen. this christopher person is still at the funeral. i am not going to kill her now though.
she makes a stop at home. then she runs towards the mountains. ugh! must she go to the cullens all of the time?!?! i head back to volterra now. i have something to tell jane.
i laugh. this unimportant girl doesnt even know what is going to happen to her. that will get alice to attack and if alice dies....the cullens will also perish and we the volturi will be safe once more....

*sighs* so how was that???? i know its not a lot, but i hope that its enough. im really sorry for not posting. i think that i will be able to post more tomorrow. im not supposed 2 b on right now anyway. i hope you love it! who is this new mystery person????? is it: felix or demetri. tell me who you think it is. oh and then christopher!!!! what is happening between sara and christopher??? find out soon when ccidental love returns!!!! oh one more thing! i really want to spread my fanfic all over the twilight saga site so i would love it if you guys would tell people about it friends and stuff! thanks!

luv always....kisses

nic cullen~