KaereKimura (木村カエレ)x MatoiTsunetsuki (常月まとい)
Despondent and Distracted.
BureBureBureBure.
She's eccentric. Confusing. Beautifully complicated. Wonderfully intriguing. I can't even talk to her. I'm hiding.
Shhh.
She doesn't know I'm here, no one does. This wall is cold. I should probably move. Surely there are better vantage points.
Clack.
That's the front door, she must be leaving. I wonder where she's going? I'll soon know. Looking down and all I can see is an outfit that mirrors her own on a hideously unimpressive body. An unnecessarily short tartan skirt and a dark blue, silk shirt with the top few buttons completely removed for optimal cleavage. Not that I posses any to show off. I whip my head up. She's already around the corner.
Shit.
I really should pay more attention before I lose her. Peeking my head around the corner I notice her figure, lit up by the street lamps that light the narrow street and cast ebony shadows around her.
Sigh.
She's so gorgeous, we're wearing the exact same clothes but for some reason it just looks right on her, better. Her blonde hair tumbles around her slim shoulders, which seem perfectly level. She walks with an air of grace, her shoes making a soft scuffing noise on the pavement. Every so often I take a few steps closer, dodging behind pillars and post boxes, anything to hide me from her radiance.
Clink.
What was that? Huh? She's unchaining a bike. Crap, I'll never be able to keep up with her now. My mind whirs in a panic, my dependency aching at the thought of being separate from her. I watch as she speeds away, the dust from the spinning wheel being kicked up around me as I take a few more steps forward.
Cough.
Ack, I'm choking on a mixture of the tears and the dust that now clings to me. How did it get to this? Standing in the middle of a street at night, alone and confused. Pining after a girl who will never want me as I want her.
'N-not a stalker .. I just .. I just love her intensely.'
I remind myself of that fact every minute of everyday.
I should start at the beginning.