CHAPTER 2: THE SUDDEN GOODBYE

"Jellical cats I would like you to meet Rum Tum Tugger and Rin Tin Tiggista, my new son and daughter" Old Deuteronomy said proudly as held up the kittens.

They were now 15 days old and this was the first time the whole tribe has seen them, the kittens eyes were now open, Tugger had deep chestnut brown eyes with flecks of green running through them, while Tigger (easier to say) had dark purple and blue eyes with flecks of black in them, every cat in the tribe were amazed by the colour of her eyes and how they seemed to sparkle, they were very peculiar.

The Jellical cats all cheered as their leader handed the kittens to Grizabella who was standing next to him on the magical tyre.

After the third hip hip the tribe started the celebrations, for Tugger and Tigger were not the only kittens to recently be born as days after delivering Griza's kittens Jellylorum gave birth to two of her own, two tabby crossed calicos, a male and female which she and her mate Skimbleshanks had named 'Mungojerrie' and 'Rumpelteazer'.

Jennyanydots had also had a kitten the day before Grizabella, a cute little calico queen her and her mate Asparagus had named 'Pokadot' because the tiny queen had five different coloured spots on her belly.

Grizabella didn't stay for the celebrations and slipped off back to her den with the two kittens, she laid them down in their cot and placed a thick blanket round them. She then sat down by the small box she used as a table, took a piece of paper from the tatty note book and a pen (the little ones from Argos) and started writing a letter. As she wrote tears stung her eyes falling on to the paper, when she finished she folded the letter and wrote Old Deuteronomy on it and placed it on top of the blanket that wrapped her purrfect kittens up nice and warm. She bent and lick both her sleeping angels faces and whispered softly her goodbyes and reason for leaving, she begged that they would understand and forgive her for leaving when they grew up.

Grizabella then went to the old jewellery box that held her special things and silently opened it, from inside she picked up the two letters she had written a few days ago, a silver and diamond belt and a ruby and black sapphire collar. She placed the items on the bed and without another word walked out to the back of the junkyard, she turned, looked back at her used to be den she had shared with her mate and toward the jellical's celebrations, she then slowly climbed up a junk heap and disappeared into the fast rolling darkness of night.

Finding that his mate had left the celebrations, Old Deut walked back to their den to see if everything was alright.

"Grizabella!" Old Deuteronomy called from the doorway of their den, when he got no answer he moved in to the den, "Grizabella are you in here?" Old Deut walked to the bed of rags but found no mate. He turned to leave but was stopped short when he heard a small cry coming from his kittens cot.

"Tugger? Tiggsita?" he creped towards his crying little tom and queen, "shush its ok, where is your mother?" he reached into the cot and lightly stroked their heads. He then noticed the folded up paper. He picked it up, unfolded it and silently read the letter.

My Dearest Deuteronomy

I need you to know that I will always love you and will never forget you.

I'm sorry but I can not live in the Junkyard any more, ever since I gave birth to our purrfect kitten I have been depressed, I have managed to hide it from you and the tribe but not from the kittens, when I am alone with them I'd cry and started pulling my fur out. You would not have notice as I brushed my fur to cover the patches. I have also stopped eating properly, I feel like I'm being closed in and have on many occasions shouted at the kits when the cry.

I have tried to control myself but I'm finding it harder to every day and this afternoon was the worst day ever, as you introduced our kittens to the tribe all I wanted to do was hurt you and them. I do not want to but I'm afraid if I stay I may do something bad to Tugger and Tiggsita.

I know I am abandoning them but I would prefer to hurt them mentally then physically, I'm afraid I will kill them.

I have left 2 letter on the bed 1 for Tugger and for Tiggsita along with a belt and collar, please give these to them when they are older and I hope that they can see it in their hearts to forgive, I hope you can as well.

Please tell them both I love them and will never stop loving them or ever forget them.

I also want you to find someone else, someone better then me and who can be a better mother to the kittens.

By the time you read this letter I will have gone, please do not try to find.

Good bye my love

I am sorry

Grizabella

XX

Old Deuteronomy was silent, he read through the letter 2 more times before turning to the bed where the items Grizabella had mentioned were, then looked toward his kitten.

He folded the note back up and placed it on the table, he let out one sigh and began to quietly sing:

x swear that I can go on forever again

please let me know that my one bad day will end

I will go down as your lover, your friend

give me your lips and with one kiss we beginAre you afraid of being alone

cause I am, I'm lost without you

are you afraid of leaving tonight

cause I am, I'm lost without youI'll leave my room open till sunrise for you

I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you

where are you now I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming

and if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone

cause I am, I'm lost without you

are you afraid of leaving tonight

cause I am, I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alonecause I am, I'm lost without you

are you afraid of leaving tonight

cause I am, I'm lost without you

are you afraid of being alone

cause I am, I'm lost without you

are you afraid of leaving tonight

cause I am, I'm lost without youI'm lost without you

I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you x

Only when he finished singing did Old Deuteronomy cry.