Okay so my computer is acting really weird and the internet was not working so I am very sorry. It wouldn't load any sites at all so again I apologize!

Then I couldn't reply to reviews so I'm answering someone that asked a question.

Lilly 2010: I don't know if I will put a chapter in Edward's POV. Most of the time its mostly in his in my other stories LOL.

I don't own Twilight.

"How can you choose which flavor?" I asked, staring wide-eyed at the selection of exotic teas. I wasn't much for coffee. But Edward lived off the stuff. He ordered it black and put two packets of sugar in it. Yuck. It made me realize how much of a difference our age was. I bet in a few years I'll crave the stuff.

"You can mix and match," he said, smirking. Apparently my innocent wonderment was amusing him. I rolled my eyes.

A few people grumbled about a stupid "child" not making up their mind. I turned to see about ten people waiting. So I quickly ordered.

"Raspberry and lemon tea."

Edward paid once again, much to my annoyance. We sat at a small bar table with tall stools. Our knees were touching again. "So why are we going into a sewer?" I teased.

"There was a fire in the original Seattle in the late 1800s. They give a tour and it seemed interesting."

I smiled. How much more perfect could he get?

We chatted a little while longer until Edward said we were going to be late.

The inside of the tour was dark and dank, only lit by a few lights hanging from the walls. The tour guide cracked jokes and told us of the horrible Seattle fire. I was acutely aware of Edward's close proximity. His arm brushing mine in the crowded underground.

Finally we began moving through the forgotten city, listening to the history of each little nook and cranny. Edward would add to the information every now and then, whispering closely in my ear. My heart would pound against my ribcage and my palms would turn sweaty when I felt his warm breath against my neck.

And then I must have almost died of a heart attack, because Edward held my waist as he helped me down a step drop. When he put my feet down, I slid against his chest. He gasped and stiffened before putting distance between us. I sighed, of course he wouldn't be at all interested in a child. I sighed again. I was a stupid teenager with stupid hormones that were targeted at a man out of my reach.

Soon the tour was drawing to a close and I was sad that it meant less time with Edward.

It seemed bright outside since we were in the dim underground for two hours. Even though the sun was hidden behind grey clouds. Edward was silent as he led me back to his Volvo, opening the passenger seat and closing it when I sat inside. He didn't say a word the whole way out of Seattle. The tension was drowning me, so I decided to break it.

"Thank you, I enjoyed our day."

He gave a slight nod and a forced smile. I knew he was uncomfortable. What had I done? Did I say something that I didn't mean to say out loud? Sometimes I spoke my thoughts without realizing. Or maybe he guessed that I had a pitiful teenage crush on him and was annoyed. I had no idea what his problem was, but I had a feeling it had to deal with me.

Finally he spoke. "I don't think it's a good idea that we do something like this again."

My body went rigid. "What do you mean?"

"Bella, I'm your teacher. Does your father even know you're with me?"

I stayed quiet, not answering.

"I'll take that as a no. It's not appropriate for me to be taking you to the city."

He spoke to me like a misbehaving five year old. I became immediately annoyed.

"You're the one that asked me, Mr. Cullen," I sneered.

He glared, then let out a long breath. "I know, it was my idea. But I can't be around you, Bella." He sounded so depressed, and his words felt strained. I wanted to get out of the car and walk back to Forks.

"Fine. Outside of school I'll pretend you don't exist. In fact, I won't even acknowledge you in class." I was furious. He was so different. How could I have been so naïve?

"Be reasonable, Bella. I am still an authority figure. You are a…child. And I'm an…adult. You will respect me in my classroom." His voice was demanding, proving his statement. I coward away from him and scowled out my window.

He pressed buttons on the radio and Medina Lake filled the heated cab. House of Cards. When the cd came to Pandora he quickly changed it. I grumbled and pressed my forehead to the glass wanting desperately to escape this hell.

He switched cds to Fair to Midland. Dance of the Manatee played. He wanted "safe" music. Nothing sexual. He knew what I felt for him. It must've been so obvious. I was brought out of my brooding by my phone buzzing in my back pocket. It was a text from Alice. I decided she would be a good distraction. I ignored Edward, let the music cloud my thoughts and texted Alice the whole trip home.

Edward made no move to get out and open my door. I huffed and opened it myself. But before I got out I turned down Alkaline Trio's Radio, I hoped that song wasn't meant for me, and turned to him, but not looking at his face.

"I'm sorry I ruined your day. I will no longer consider you a friend, but will call you Mr. Cullen. I will treat you like any of the other faculty at school. But I do thank you for the educational experience." My speech was monotone. Dead. I didn't want to see his reaction so I quickly shot out and jogged to my front porch through the pelting rain.

I would get Edward Anthony Cullen out of my mind.

The much anticipated Edward POV! LOL. Here you go!

I was such a prick. She hadn't done anything wrong. I had. I had completely crossed the line of student/teacher propriety. When she disappeared into the house I sped off, feeling like an asshole. But I was to protect her. I wouldn't take advantage of her. She didn't see that I was compulsively attracted to her. And she only wanted to be friends. I was a monster. A Pervert. I had to severe our "relationship" before I became an obsessed stalker.

I crawled up into my driveway, pressed the remote attached to my keys and parked inside the garage.

My home of course was empty and silent. No one but me. To fill the hollowness I turned up my stereo, letting my ears be drowned in Sound Garden.

I pulled out a full bottle of Jack from my liquor cabinet and searched for my scotch glasses and went to my leather arm chair.

In my eyes
Indisposed
In disguise
As no one knows
Hides the face
Lies the snake
The sun
In my disgrace

I poured until the brown liquid spilled over, brought it to my lips and chugged back half of it, embracing the burning it did to my throat.

Boiling heat
Summer stench
neath the black
The sky looks dead
Call my name
Through the cream
And Ill hear you
Scream again

I then just replaced the half a drank and swigged roughly again.

Black hole sun
Wont you come
And wash away the rain
Black hole sun
Wont you come
Wont you come

Another round. I was starting to get queasy and felt my body start to detach from my mind as it wandered around the forbidden girl I wanted so much.


Stuttering
Cold and damp
Steal the warm wind
Tired friend
Times are gone
For honest men
And sometimes
Far too long
For snakes
In my shoes
A walking sleep
And my youth
I pray to keep
Heaven send
Hell away
No one sings
Like you
Anymore

I was crying now. The tears burning my cheeks. I was pathetic. A mere girl had turned me into a sap. I was drinking myself to oblivion because I wanted to put my hands on a student. She didn't know how much power she had over me.


Hang my head
Drown my fear
Till you all just
Disappear

I ignored my cell phone. Ignored my landline. I let my voicemail pick up my calls. Some from my parents. Some from my brother. And one that didn't leave a message…

The cd changer switched on my sound system. The Academy Is… played The Phrase that Pays. Ha. A song encouraging me to do what I wanted. How sardonic.

Bella Swan would never be within reach. And I lost her as a friend…

Sorry it's a little short but I wanted to update as soon as my internet was working.

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LuNa