The last thing she remembers is dropping her phone to the floor. She doesn't remember going to the hospital, she doesn't even remember how she got there. Her mind hadn't registered anything since Jan Di's call to let her know about Yi Jeong's accident.

"He got run over by a car by the school…"

No, no, no. This couldn't be happening. Not now, not when things were going so well for them. Not when things were perfect. How…how did this even happen?

"He was crossing the street to get to his car…"

Then why wasn't he looking both ways? God, did his parents forget to teach him that? Of all the things Yi Jeong knew, he just had to not know how to cross a street?

It didn't make sense. None of it made sense. Why would Yi Jeong cross the street, anyway? He has car. So it couldn't have happened. No, no, no. Jan Di was probably just pulling her leg. This has got to be some kind of joke. He couldn't…he couldn't be…

"He's getting surgery as we speak, we're on our way there…do you want us to pick you up?"

Ga Eul doesn't even remember how she answered that. That was probably the time the whole thing had sunk in and she dropped her phone. This couldn't be happening, she kept repeating to herself. It just couldn't be. So many questions clouded her mind. Why now? Why them? Did the people up there really didn't want them together? Was there some heavenly force that was trying to pull them apart? Was this really how their relationship was destined to end? All those fights, all those tears, all those laughter…were all just leading up to this? No, please no…

Now she was at the hospital, though her memory of how she got there still isn't working. She doesn't think she's spoken a word since she got here, not one, to any of them. She feels Jan Di wrap a comforting arm around her. But she doesn't react; she doesn't have the energy to do so. Shock has prevented her to do anything other than stare straight ahead. She hasn't even shed a single tear.

The door opening woke Ga Eul up from her trance. The doctor who had just done surgery to Yi Jeong made his way to them.

"How is he?" Woo Bin immediately asks. He couldn't believe how all of it happened so quickly. One minute he was just right in front of him, all smiles as he held the flowers he had just bought and then the next, he was being run over by a car. It was too surreal.

"The operation was a success. But we still can't be sure about his condition, for now he's still unconscious." The doctor tells them and they hear a noise from behind them. They see Ga Eul's back, running away from the group. Jan Di attempts to follow her but Ji Hu holds out an arm to stop her.

"She needs to be alone for now."

--

Ga Eul doesn't know where she's going; all she knows is that she needed to get out of there. The hospital, it was too suffocating for her. She couldn't handle it, not any of it. She needed time to think, she needed…God, she needed to cry. But she wouldn't, she didn't want to. Even if she did, nothing came out. It was as if her brain held a rope to reel back all her tears. She finds this comforting…this meant she was strong, right?

She ends up not leaving the hospital, anyway. Too afraid to face a world where almost everything reminded him of Yi Jeong. She might lose it, and she wouldn't lose it. She was not going to cry…no, she was better than that. Wasn't that what those four years of pretending she was okay for? She wanted to show everyone that she was strong, that she wasn't little, vulnerable Ga Eul anymore. So what was the point of those four years if she was just going to be crying in the streets again, like before?

So she finds herself in the chapel of the hospital. It was small and quiet. There was only one person there other from her, an old woman. She wasn't kneeling down, like how Ga Eul pictured people in churches were. She wasn't particularly religious, so she hasn't been in a lot of churches. She sits down at the far end, two benches behind the old lady. She just sits there and looks ahead. She really didn't know what to do. She wants to blame everything on destiny, on the heavens. She wants to demand from them the reason why they would do this to her, to them. It was just too unfair. All of it was just too unfair.

"Why?" she mutters, sadly, not intending for anyone to hear her. But because of the deafening silence, the old woman looks back at her. Ga Eul doesn't know if she should apologize for disturbing her or if she should just leave. The old woman stands up and walks back to her, sitting down beside her.

"I'm sorry if I was too loud, halmoni…I'll be going on my way now…" she attempts to leave but the old lady stops her.

"You can stay, dear. I just thought you needed someone to talk to. Talking to oneself isn't really a sign of normalcy, now, is it?" Ga Eul couldn't help but flush bright red. Halmoni thought she was crazy.

"You don't need to be embarrassed. I've gone through the same thing, asking the same damn question…why?" Ga Eul couldn't deny the raw emotion she heard in her voice. She wasn't lying; she really has gone through this.

"You know, I've probably spent the most time here in this chapel than any of the other people in this hospital." She tells her and Ga Eul couldn't help but wonder why she was telling her this. She opts to just listen.

"You see, my husband got in a car accident a year ago. He got into a coma right after that. My friends, family, even the doctors told me to just give it up after six months of waiting…but I couldn't, I wouldn't." Ga Eul couldn't help the tinge in her heart as the old lady recounted these things to her. She couldn't help but feel hopeless, too…Yi Jeong was unconscious now, wasn't he? Would she be waiting for years too, before she lets it go? Would she ever be able to?

"I figured we've gone too far and worked too hard for me to give up on him just like that…" Ga Eul felt her heart break even more at the similarities she had with this woman.

Would this really endgame for them?

"But guess what, my dear? He just woke up this morning." Ga Eul couldn't believe her ears. Her husband woke up. They were going to be together again, him and this halmoni. It was like something out of a movie and movies has always managed to give her hope. Suddenly, all the fear and despair slowly made their way out of her system.

"I'm so happy to hear that, halmoni. You don't know how much I admire you for holding on." She tells her, smiling slightly but gratefully at her companion.

"It wasn't easy, I'll tell you that. But in the end, it's all worth it, believe me." Ga Eul nods but without conviction. Sure, she was hoping again but, really, what were the odds the same thing would happen to them?

"He's unconscious now. I don't know if I have your strength." she doesn't know why, but she blurts this out. The halmoni gives her a comforting smile.

"You just have to have faith…in him, in yourself, and in Him up there." Ga Eul looks shamefully at the altar. She doesn't think she's talked directly to Him since she was little, excluding a few moments ago when she was blaming everything up there. But she couldn't deny the heavy presence in her, it was time to come back, it was time to have faith.

"You'll do well, dear." The old lady left her at that. And for the first time in a long time, she kneeled down and prayed.

--

Her steps leading to his room were slow and soft. It was already quite late; she spent a lot of time in the chapel. She prayed and prayed, but she still didn't cry. Not a single tear. She opens the door and she sees Woo Bin getting ready to leave.

"Ga Eul yang, where did you go? We called you and…"

"I just needed some time alone, sunbae. I didn't mean to worry you guys…" she bowed her head a little in an apology.

"You don't need to apologize, Ga Eul yang. Are you sure you want to be here now?" Woo Bin knew it was hard for her to see Yi Jeong in this state. Maybe it was better if she went home, sleep things through. Ga Eul nods.

"Yes, sunbae. You can go now, I'll be fine here." Woo Bin opens his mouth to protest but Ga Eul waves a hand at him.

"Wait, before I go, Yi Jeong had this in his hands." She hands Ga Eul the card from the bouquet, "and those." She points to the flowers by his table.

"Now, are you sure, Ga-"

"It's okay, sunbae. You can go." Woo Bin gives a Ga Eul a one armed hug and leaves the room. Ga Eul sighs as she is alone again, with Yi Jeong. She turns around and pulls up a chair beside his bed.

"Sunbae…" she muttered. She wonders if he could hear her. She read in some books that people in comas could actually process the things happening around them. She takes her chances.

"Sunbae, I don't know if you can hear me but…what's the harm in trying, right?" she doesn't even care now that she seems crazy; there was really nothing to lose.

"Could you do me just one favor? Hold on, okay? I'm holding on here too, but I need you to do your part. You can't just not wake up, sunbae." She tells him and she laughs slightly at her urge to smack his head for being so stubborn. Why couldn't he just get up?

"I can't…I can't lose you like this, okay? So you really need to wake up because if you don't, I swear to God, I will...I will go out with Hyun Su! Understand? Now, you don't want that, right?" she scolds him. Maybe if he could really hear her, he'd get scared. She remembered how jealous he was with her student's brother.

"So just…don't go, okay? You've worked too hard in trying to win me back…you don't want that to go to waste, right?" her voice was shaking but still her eyes were dry. She figured this day has just been to draining for her to cry. She opens up the card in her hands.

To the only girl who gave me hell because I wanted her back. You may not be mine yet, but there's no way in hell I'm giving up.

Ga Eul leaned her head on his bed and for the first time that day, she cried. Because even strong people cry, too, she reasoned to herself.