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Here is my latest chapter I hope you all like it please review and let me know about how you feel the fic is going and what you think of the song choices... and to my darling reviewers thank you so much your feeding my beautiful muse and keeping him alive (yep he's male ;) haha)

Songs used: I Will Love You – Sarah Slean

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters but I do own (sorta not really) the basic plot of the story (base on events occurred in Once More With Feeling)

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As Dawn's remark hung pregnant in the air, no one seemed to be able to form any words. Buffy and Spike's gazes turned to each other cerulean blue clashing with emerald green both individuals chests heaving. Dawn's eyes flickered back and forth between the blond pair. Slowly Spike ran a hand through his hair and drew in a shaky breath that went unnoticed except for the two people who knew him the best Buffy and Dawn. The sisters also noticed the soft almost unnoticeable shaking of his hand as it ran over his platinum locks again.

Giles slowly took off his glasses and proceeded to clean the lenses clearing his voice he muttered

"Good lord" as his gaze turned towards the vampire. Giles recognised this vampire for what he was an enigma wrapped tightly in mystery. Spike was consciously different from any other vampire he had ever encountered, he went against his own nature and now this revelation Spike's inner self wasn't evil all this time though Giles contemplated Spike had helped the gang pre-chip and also after Buffy's... he let the thought trail off.

As the eyes of the Scooby gang rested on Spike, he had enough throwing up his hands he said

"Bugger This, 'm goin out for a fag. Slayer if you'll hand 'em an' me lighter over"

Buffy shook her head softly and gently slid her arms out of the soft leather of his duster and crossed the room resting it in his hands

"didn't ask for the jacket back pet," he said softly as he stared into her eyes



"I know," she murmured to quiet for the gang to hear but loud enough for Spike's vampire hearing to pick up "You look like you need it"

Spike just softly smiled at her and shrugged his beloved duster on content smile on his face as the leather comforted him, soothing and familiar as he reached into his pocket. He smiled as he could smell Buffy's scent mingling with his own the soft vanilla cutting through the harshness of his own unique scent of leather, smoke, alcohol and blood. Turning Spike walked out the back door, sat down on the porch steps, and lit up a cigarette inhaling deeply he sat and thought. About his past, the present and what could be in the future.

Back in the lounge room, the gang were sitting round. Xander was the first to speak

"So Captain Peroxide who'da thought"

"Yes well it's quite remarkable really" said Giles still going over scenarios.

As the gang started to get into possible theories, Tara quietly slipped out unnoticed by every one except for a certain Slayer.

As Tara treaded softly through the kitchen her hand rested on the doorknob uncertain what she was doing was the right thing with a deep breath the blond Wicca opened the door and sat on the steps with Spike her long skirt pooling around her feet. Tara started to nervously play with the fabric.

"Whats up Glinda?" asked Spike softly he'd always had a soft spot for the blonde witch really they were outcasts in the Scooby club though she was a accepted outcast from the original three where as he didn't think any of them would care if he wasn't around.

"S-s-spike it's about what h-h-happened e-earlier. Y-y-you know t-t-the you n-not being evil" the Wicca stuttered

"'m evil," muttered Spike Tara smiled as she heard him say that sometimes he acted like a child

"Spike I-I-I've never told anyone t-this" she started before Spike interrupted

"Divulging deep dark's to the Big Bad Glinda," he said with a small smile

"W-well sort o-of but there not m-mine there yours" Spike tilted his head and motioned for her to continue

"Well I-I read aura's r-right and well vampire a-aura's are supposed t-to be pure black. But w-when I look a-at you yes there is black there t-the demon I guess but o-only a small part most of y-your aura is a brilliant g-gold and there is an s-small portion o-of white. I've w-watched you and you aura c-changes colour all the t-time but those 3 c-colours are ALWAYS t-there." Finished Tara proud that she was able to get it out.

Spike stat there not saying anything finally he tilted his head and curled his tongue behind his teeth

"So Glinda... you've been watchin' me ay"

Tara laughed and lightly hit Spike on the arm

"Now Glinda what's all this mean then ay lay it out for old Spike"

Tara took in a breath

"When y-you were turned by d-Drusilla I-I don't think s-she did t-the job right"

Spike chuckled

"Don't doubt that pet Dru... well she was Dru can't rightly say anything else at that"

"Well I t-think because o-of that you never lost y-you humanness. Spike the White in you aura w-well it's... y-you kept a p-part of your soul"

Spike stared at Tara and unbeknown to either of the two on the porch a figure slowly backed away from the crack in the door she hadn't meant to overhear the conversation, really but the revelation of Spike retaining part of his soul hit her hard and she didn't know why. With a hand over her mouth, she backed further away and quickly ran up the stairs and threw herself onto the bed.

A soft scent wafted over Spike... vanilla he turned his head slightly and saw the door was open a crack. Spike let out a sigh she'd heard he'd bet money on it slowly standing he held out a hand to the Wicca pulling her up

"Let's get inside ay pet" Tara nodded in agreement as the two made their way inside Spike grabbed Tara's arm

"Can we not say anything yet" Tara nodded



"W-whenever y-you want" she said with a smile as they entered the lounge room Spike saw Buffy wasn't there and frown appeared on his handsome face.