Hey All well here is the latest chapter in sweets revenge I hope that you enjoy it sorry that there has been a delay but I have been very worried about friends and family in the bush fire ravaged areas of Victoria

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Song List – Afraid by Vanessa Hudgens

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As she walked into the room Buffy had to suppress a small chuckle on one end of the large table piles of books had been shoved to make room so that the large stacks of pizza and doughnut boxes could be spread out over the remaining area. A few of the lids had been opened already and the missing slices could be seen in Dawn and Xander's hands smiling softly Buffy placed the paper plates onto the table and reached over to open the box she hoped had her favourite pizza in BBQ chicken. Flipping the lid, she pulled out a large cheese-y slice and bit in.

"Ow ed da reercher o?" she asked Giles placed his pizza onto the plate

"What was the Buffy?" he asked. Snapping her head up a faint blush spread across her face as she saw everyone's eyes on her swallowing she coughed

"Ermmm I said how did the research go."

Giles let out a soft chuckle,

"Well it hasn't really..."

"Yeah we think the spell will last until whatever Sweet wanted has been achieved" Willow butted in enthusiasm written all over her face

"Ah uh" murmur Buffy her gaze was drawn over to Dawn and Spike. Envy rose in her chest as she watched the easiness between the two, then jealousy came to play as well as Dawn snuggled into Spikes side her eyes fluttering open and shuts and the gentleness of Spikes hand as it brushed hair off her forehead squeezing her eyes shut for a moment and when she opened them again she saw Dawn was asleep. Softly running her fingers threw Dawns long brown hair she turned to Spike

"Can you help me get her upstairs?" nodding Spike scooped his small charge into his arms nodding the two made their way towards the staircase. With Buffy in the lead, they walked up Spike waited as Buffy pushed open Dawn's door and pulled back the covers. As she moved aside Buffy watched as Spike placed Dawn carefully onto the bed and pull the covers over her till just the tips of her shoulders were showing looked around the room Spike walked over to the large armchair and picked up a stuffed Elephant and placed it under the covers next to her. As he looked up his gaze locked onto Buffy's

"You're good at that," she said as she brush Dawn's hair from her face again

"Yeah well, 've done it enough" he said softly his gaze flicking between Dawn, the arm chair and Buffy suddenly it clicked

"You stayed here... I mean with her didn't you when I was..."

Spike cut her off

"Yeah made a promise to a lady, 'sides Bit had nightmares too..." he trailed off averting his eyes from her own. Letting out a little sigh Buffy walked over to the door and flipped the light switch off after a few moments she felt Spike beside her and she pulled the door close. Turning to walk to the stairs, she felt Spike grab her arm and seconds later, she crashed into the hard planes of his chest. She heard him mutter

"Bugger this" before his soft lips crashed onto hers, closing her eyes she let the sensation wash over her a soft gasp escaped threw her lips. Not one to miss an opportunity Spike slipped his tongue into the cavern of her mouth. Letting out a moan Buffy felt herself reacting to his touch her arms coming to a rest around his neck as her own tongue started to dance with his.

Spike groaned as he felt Buffy kissing him back, sliding a hand up he twirled her long hair in his fingers and he backed them up until Buffy's back rested against a wall his free hand reached down to cup her arse and softly kneaded the flesh. A shiver of delight ran through him as he felt Buffy pushing up against him the heady scent of her arousal was enough the make his cock twitch. Without warning, he lifted her up and pressed her tightly against the wall he groaned as their groins connected.

As Spike pulled his lips away from Buffy, she let out a little whimper, which soon turned to a soft moan when he placed open mouth kisses along her neck stopping to suck on the soft flesh every now and then. Through the haze, Buffy heard Spike murmuring something against her skin trying to gather her wits she strained to hear the soft words

"I...love...you... love you... love" without thinking Buffy opened her mouth

"I lo..." snapping her head up she froze quickly she detangled her arms from around Spike's neck

"Oh..." she started uncrossing her legs and whimpered to be put down slowly Spike lowered her until her feet rested on the polished floorboards, Buffy could feel his chest heave as he sucked in deep breaths his head in the crook of her neck.

Gently pushing him off of her Buffy gently shook her head

"I... I'm sor..."

"Don't" Spike cut her off "I can't... I can't do this again" he said softly as he turned and started to walk down the stairs

"You-your not leaving?" she asked softly causing Spike to stop mid step not turning around he softly said

"Not leavin' you silly bint" then let out a small sigh before continuing his descent down the stairs leaving Buffy alone on the landing. Leaning against the wall Buffy raised a hand and traced her lips closing her eyes she could hear a soft guitar melody the words flowed from her mouth pulled by Sweets spell

Just when it's getting good
I slowly start to freeze

Letting the memories and sensations of what just occurred wash over her Buffy wish Spike was by her side. A tear fell down her cheek she nearly told Spike she loved him, before she froze


Just when it's feeling real I put my heart to sleep
It's the memory I can see

The memory of Angel her 'great love' came to her mind's eye, since him then Parker she was afraid...


Then this fear comes over me

Afraid to love


Understand that I don't mean
To push you away from me

'I really don't' she thought as her mind brought up the image of Spike walking down the stairs.

Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

'You would never leave me' she though as she pictured Spike cerulean blue eyes


Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

'Never break me'

You got a way of easing me out of myself

'You know me better then myself'


I can't stay but I can't leave, I am my worst enemy
Please understand that it's not you it's what I do

As she walked over to the railing she caught a glimpse of leather

'Please understand I only have the shattered pieces of my heart left, what if their not enough.... I can't love... it scares me'


Just when I'm about to run I realize what I've become

Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

Now I wonder what you think of me
Don't know why I break so easily

As another tear fell down her cheek something Spike said in what felt like a life time ago

'I'm scared I'm not worth a second go'


All my fears are armed surrounding me

I can't get no sleep

As she slid down the wall Buffy could help but think

'I can't hide from myself'


I keep runnin in circles around you
Are you the trap I wanna fall into??

'I want you... I love you..."

Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

'everything... everyone I love leave me'


Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

'can I risk him? Risk my heart?'

Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

Staying still Buffy looked out the window to the right on the wall opposite of her the moon casting small rays onto the floor after a little while she picked her self up and headed down the stairs

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A/N: so what do you all think a lil near spuffy lovin lol now you know what to do please read and review xx