Heya all well here is my latest chapter in Sweets Revenge I do hope that you all enjoy it reviews are welcome *wink wink*

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Star (a.k.a Guitarbabe2005)

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~ Song list ~

Just So You Know by Jesse McCartney

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

p.s – thanks to moongirl818 for the song idea and review and also to Luna dusk, Angelus's childe, rkm and JessMess for reviewing if I have left anyone out I DEEPLY apologise and appreciate your review =) they made me warm and fuzzy along with feeding my muse =p *cough* hint *cough* lol

p.s.s I KNOW that the first song in this chapter is SOOOOO close to the song in the last chapter but the SONG BEGGED to be used so who am I to argue ;p

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As her feet padded down the stairs her heart was heavy and her lips slightly swollen running her tongue over her bottom lip she let the last of Spike's taste wash over her taking a deep breath she focused all her attention on the front door mentally counting the steps down

'7...6...5...4...3...2...1'

As her feet evened out her green eyes darted into the dining room seeing Giles sitting behind a mountain of books one open in his right hand and his left balancing a tea cup. Looking to her right she saw Willow, Xander and Anya playing Monopoly Anya loudly declaring herself the bank, as she was the only one who understood the TURE value of money. Sweeping her gaze again through both rooms her eyes widened and her breathing quickened as the blonde hair man wasn't anywhere she could see. White-hot panic flooded her body as her eyes picked out the slight gap in the front door

'he said he wouldn't go!' feeling tears pooling in her eyes Buffy scrambled her way up the stairs not caring if anyone saw through her panicked haze Buffy could hear the soft voice of Tara calling her name. Pushing her door open she ran quickly over to her window pushing up the frame she ignoring the sound of cracking wood as her Slayer strength turned the pine into splinters. Scrambling out she lay back against the cold worn roof tiles sucking in deep breaths of frigid air. Calming down her mind ran at a million miles as she stared up at the sky her emerald eyes searching for what she wasn't sure. The combination of the cold tiles and air was letting the cold creep deeper and deeper into her body making her limbs heavy not that she cared at this stage she was so desperate to feel something.

Lolling her head to the side Buffy watched as the moonlight danced over her tanned skin turning it milky white,

'Where is he' she though closing her eyes letting her senses take over she didn't feel the normal tingly's ripple through her body. feeling the tears well up behind her lids she squeezed them tighter crying was weakness none were privy to even alone on her roof tears were reserved for the moments she was truly alone

'Until Spike came along' whispered a little voice in her head 'we can be weak with him'

"Only because he's strong" she whispered back letting the familiar feelings wash through her again as she softly started to sing

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough

'Angel... Riley..." she thought softly


And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass

Memories flooded her mind of her failed romances

'god I'm 20 years old and I'm a commitment-phobe'


Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you

Heat flooded her cheeks as she remembered the first and only time she and Spike had sex, the feelings she had were too intense for a random screw... been there got the shirt thanks to Parker jerk that he was


My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's lookin 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy

'I love him... why cant I SAY IT' she though her face twisting


But I don't care what they say

'but at the same time I do'


I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth

'they don't know the real you


My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

'can I love at all? All I have left are the shattered pieces... will they be enough? Am I enough'


You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Hearing a sound against the tiles she jumped up and twisted her body anticipation ran through her as she hoped it was Spike. Her heart falling a little when she saw Tara maker her way towards her sitting close a soft sad smile graced her face as she looked at the white witch. Sweets spell urging her to finish


Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud

'Xander and Giles hate him...'


Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt

'would they make me chose... between him or them?'


Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

Jenny Calenders face flew to the front of her mind the Angels

'Huph great love... not'

Tara guided Buffy's head to rest in her lap, letting her tiny blonde friend sing out her pain, it meant she was healing though the blonde witch wondered how much having Spike helped the slayer. Their aura's were beautiful together his silver mixing with her gold.

'what happened when they put Dawn to bed' the witch thought remembering how Spike stormed down the stairs and out the front door only to come back in a few moments later mumbling something about women and stubborn bints before storming into the basement


But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace

As Tara gently stroked her hair almost in a motherly way Buffy couldn't help but wish Spike was there his body instinctively knowing how to make her better


And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you

Tara's eyes widened Buffy was in love with Spike she was sure of it the way they interacted with each other left little room for doubt whether they knew it or not they instinctively were drawn together


They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

'will I learn to open my heart again?.... can he put together all the pieces of my shattered heart?'


Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

'I wasn't always cold... even before I died... I'm – I'm more alive now then I was before I jumped'

'Our heart was broken shattered beyond repair' came her little voice at the back of her mind 'But Spike's slowly fixing it'


I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

'I wont let them destroy this before I can TRY' Buffy thought


Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

And the voice inside her head said nothing silently agreeing

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

As she finished Tara's hand stopped, Buffy could feel the blonde witch take a breath

"W-w-we need-d to talk B-b-Buffy"

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Buffy's whole being tensed as the soft spoken witch took a breath, steeling herself against the lesson of 'how this is a bad idea' 1-0-1 she felt Tara moving her hand again through her blond hair

"Y-y-you love him?" Tara stuttered softly her voice baring no trace of malice or disgust just simple understanding waves of calm crashed over her battle worn body her heart and mind resting arms tired of fighting each other

"I do..." she whispered softly her eyes staring up at the stars picking out the constellations, her heart clenching and her lungs screamed for oxygen as she held her breath waiting for Tara to start telling her how bad of a idea it was to love him. The good witch squeezed her hand

"y-you make a b-beautiful aura together" she said softly as she stood up pausing a moment before she added laughing softly "and beautiful m-music." Buffy lay there as Tara left her heart feeling a little lighter Dawn and Tara were on her side they didn't care about the past more specifically Spike's past but the present and the ever looming future. Finally feeling the cold that had crept into her joints she shivered moving slowly she made her way toward the window she could almost hear the sound of her teeth chattering. As she swang her leg back over the frame she couldn't help but let the déjà vu wash over herself remembering a few years ago sneaking in and out whilst Joy slept soundly a few doors down. As she turned to close the window she felt the familiar tingles run down her spine only moments before she heard the familiar voice exclaim

"Are you daft?" turning she saw Spike leaning against her door frame before he pushed himself off and stormed over to her wardrobe throwing a thick sweater at her.

"Your bloody freezing its bloody 1 degree out there (A/N: temp in Celsius) tugging the knit fabric over her body she could feel the warmth slowly creeping back into her body. Running a hand through her thick blonde hair she let out a sigh and walked towards her door, her body to tired to fight, and she knew if he asked anything she didn't have the energy to fight him, not anymore. Walking to the door opposite her own she gently opened the door and saw Dawn was no longer in her bed. Feeling Spikes hand gently rubbing her arms she heard him softly say

"Bit woke up when demon girl started yelling about the soddin' game an' how it was rigged or somethin'" Buffy felt her mouth form a soft 'O' turning she came face to face with the object of her desire her emerald eyes soaking in each feature memorising each line and scar feeling his hands stop moving she whispered softly

"Why?"

His cerulean blue eyes searched hers looking for a answer

"Why what love?" his voice filtered over her sending waves of calm over her, gulping she straightened her spine and squared her shoulders

"Why... love me?" she tried to smile weakly her eyes looking ever where but at him. Spike let out a soft gasp her question not what he had been expecting instinctively he moved his body away from her his stance becoming rigid and defensive as he processed her question a million and one answers running through his mind however he didn't know why but he knew that a lot was being placed on his answer.

His eyes looked over his slayer her body was worn, she was exhausted and her little stint on the roof wouldn't have helped much he knew that and he knew her body the tiny tremble in her shoulders and the faint bags under her eyes was proof enough. This spell was taking its toll on her grimacing slightly as he remembered what the last spell had don't to her, forcing her to admit her greatest secret in such a manner it had slapped her sister and friends in the face leaving its mark as real as if her own hand had done.

As Buffy watched his face she could see many emotions run over his face, reflecting the many sides of Spike finally she saw his face twisted in a grimace rejection stronger than anything she ever felt pierced her heart and she turned and made her way towards the stairs.

Still lost in his though Spike glanced up and saw Buffy turn to walk away and start down the stairs, moving quickly he grabbed her arm his eyes probing hers once more searching for answers he saw pain, sadness, embarrassment flashing through her emerald eyes followed by a flash of something he couldn't name as she turned away from his probing eyes

"'s a loaded question that love," he whispered softly his long pale fingers gently turning her head towards his letting out a sigh he opened his mouth and the words he meant to say died in his throat as Sweets spell took over again

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can turn away

It was true they were mortal enemies he shouldn't love her it went against the grain, a small smirk flashed across his face not that he ever went with the grain but still


I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

He greedily took in all her features, the way her skin felt under his fingers, her heavenly scent.


I shouldn't love you
but I want to,

Spike was sure his un-beating cold heart fluttered with life as he saw what he was sure as hope flashing through Buffy's emerald depths


I just can turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

'I bloody love you' his mind screamed 'there's not soddin' rhyme or reason just do'


And I don't know
How to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make this feeling stop

'been there done that got the bloody t-shirt... it was hopless trying to get 'er out me mind but... but I don't want to pet, your the blood in my veins your everything'

Just so you know
this feeling is taking control of me
and I can't help it

'I don't want to'


I won't sit around
I can't let it win now
I thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you

'I did I tried so bleedin' hard' seeing tears well in her eyes spike gently brushed at the traitor tears


but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

'I need to get this out once and for all' he though with a sigh how much more could he go through?

It's getting hard to, be around you
There's so much I can't say,
do you want me to have feelings
and look the other way

Spike felt Buffy tensing more under his hands as those words left his lips he was positive he felt her head shake softly


And I don't know
how to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make this feeling stop

Just so you know
this feeling is taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let it win now
I thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

Spike could feel the tears burn against his own eyes as the wall he built so long ago around his heart finally collapse crashing down around him. How one tiny blonde girl could do it he didn't know


This emptiness is killing me

He was so sick of being alone not enough for anyone, un-loved for over a hundred years with only the memory of his mother and sister and the love of an adolescent who in many ways was the sister he lost. But never in a hundred and twenty years had someone loved him for him other than those considered family Dru never truly loved him.


and I'm wondering why I waited so long
Looking back I realize,
it was always there to stand spoken
and I'm waiting here
been waiting here

'Always bloody waiting' blinking he forced the thought to the back of his mind


mmmm.....

he felt the shock register on his face as Buffy gently intertwined her hand with his so they sat palm to palm her eyes searching his own as her other free hand cupped his cheek. Spike could see the fresh tears welling in her eyes and a pang of guilt flushed through him he knew it was because of him his goddess was in tears


Just so you know
this feeling is taking control of me
and I can't help it

He felt more so then saw Buffy raise up on her tip toes so they were similar heights


I won't sit around
I can't let it win now
I thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you

Spike let his tongue run over his dried lips as Buffy's face moved a little closer towards his own her sweat hot breath rushing softly over his face


but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

As the last not fell from his lips he felt Buffy crash her own upon his her hand sliding around his neck softly playing with the soft hairs at the nape of his neck as her lips gently moved across his as he tongue slid freely over his bottom lip begging for entrance. Sliding his free hand up he tangeled it in Buffy's long golden hair and crushing their bodies together. He memorised the soft whimpers she made as he granted her entrance and his own tongue met her and they started dancing. A memory appeared behind his eyes

"Thas all we've ever done" letting out a low groan he pressed his lips harder onto Buffy's own when suddenly a choking sound made them pull apart turning both emerald and cerulean eyes widened Xander was staring up at them his face deathly white...

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A/N: OMG well there you go I sadly think that this story is coming to a close as I think to many more songs and it will be over kill and seriously can any one say

Denial table for one, Buffy is gonna have to man up =p

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