I Wish I Had Known Sooner Part II
When I returned home, my Jacob was sitting talking to Charlie. He grinned when he saw me. He came over and put his arm around me.
"So, I guess it's going to be you two from now on." Charlie said trying not to sound to excited
"Yes it is." Said Jacob "By the way, my friend is having a party down in La Push. Would you mind if I took Bella?" He winked at me and I knew this wasn't any old party. This was a party in celebration of mine and Jacob's new relationship.
"Yes, I actually would mind thank you." I said. I hated parties and I was not in any sort of mood to celebrate my break up with Edward.
"Bella, I'm sure it would be a fun party. Why don't you go?" Charlie replied. I'm sure he just wanted me out of the house so he could watch the game in peace. "Just don't stay out too late." he added to Jacob.
"No problem." Jacob said pulling me away towards the door.
As soon as we got out the door he pulled me into a strong embrace. He stared down at me and smiled.
"I'm glad you picked me Bella. You won't be sorry. I promise." He bent down and kissed my forehead. "I love you and I will always love you."
His face was not even two inches from mine. I closed my eyes and found his lips with mine. We stood there kissing for what seemed to be hours until he stopped abruptly. I was crying. It had only been a couple of hours since I ended it with Edward. It hurt to think I was happy while he was severely hurt.
"It's him isn't it?"
"Look, I'm sorry. I broke his heart. It's not exactly the easiest thing to get over." He pulled me closer. I leaned my head on his chest.
"It's ok. I understand the world of hurt you're going through right now. I would understand if you no longer wished to go to the party."
"Well, I never did wish to, but we can still go. I got the hint that it was for us, and I'm sure Emily would be happy if I came." I smiled up at him, and he smiled in return. That's when I knew I made the right decision.
As we entered the room hand in hand everyone cheered and someone wolf-whistled. I immediately turned bright red. Being with Jacob was still new with his warm body and danger seeking attitude. It was so different from Edward's cold stone and cautious nature.
"Congratulations!" said Emily as she rushed over to give me a hug.
"Uh, thanks Emily." I tried to say but her hug was just too powerful.
Everyone welcomed me to the pack. This was going to be my new family. Everyone was so nice and never said a word about my being friends with the "enemy". Every so often I could see Jacob glancing at me the way I had seen Sam and Emily look at each other the first time I had met them. So I guess he was right, if I chose him I would never second guess his love for me.
We just sat there talking for hours, catching me up on what was happening. Apparently there were very few members left that hadn't imprinted yet. Though he never said it, I was sure Jacob had imprinted on me. It was obvious to me. He never seemed to leave my side throughout the whole night. Sam started to get up.
"Jacob, I have something you might like to see." He said. Jacob looked at me and hesitated.
"Go ahead. I'm going to be here when you get back. I promise." I tried to show him that I meant it because I did. I kissed him and with that he was sure I wasn't leaving, so he got up to follow Sam.
"Bella, come over here." Emily said. I walked over to her chair and sat on the arm. "Bell, I think you made the right decision. Jacob can't stop thinking about how happy he is. Sam's been telling me to have a little girl chat with you, and I agree that we need to talk and get to know each other better."
"I understand. In my eyes we are becoming family, and I should know my sister fairly well." I grinned at her. I knew we were going to get along just fine.
"Well, I do have some questions that I want to ask you. First off, how did you do it? Decide to break it off with the vampire I mean. I could tell that you were torn between him and Jacob. Was it hard?" she cut right to the chase. She wanted to know my deepest emotional pain.
I looked up and saw just about everyone still in the room look away from me. They all wanted to know too. I asked to go in another room, and she agreed, seeing my pain of having everyone else hear. When we got in the room everything just started to pour out.
"I didn't want to choose, I really didn't. I chose Jacob because with him I felt that both Charlie and my mom were going to be safer, that wild vampires weren't going to be chasing me if I weren't associated with them." I began to tear up like so many other times today. I knew it was going to be hard, but I felt that with becoming her sister, I kinda owed it to her. "It was the hardest thing I had ever done. To look up in his eyes and realize I would never see him again. I had to tell him personally though, it would've hurt me too much if I never got to say goodbye." I started to cry harder. She held my hand and I knew that she actually cared that I was feeling pain.
"I'm sorry you had to make a decision. I'm glad you chose us though." She said smiling. Then she gave me a big hug. "I bet you feel better though."
"Yeah, I actually do." I replied smiling through the tears. "I should probably get going though; I don't want to have any sudden outbursts in front of everyone else."
"If it would make you feel better." Emily said pulling away from our hug. "I'll tell Sam to wrap things up."
"Thanks Emily, you really are a great sister." I said because I felt she and I were so much closer then we were ten minutes ago.
We walked into the living room where everyone sat and to my surprise Jacob was already there waiting for me. He came over and held my hand as we said our goodbyes. We were finally leaving when Jacob pulled something out of his pocket.
"Here, it's another charm for you. It was what Sam was showing me. It was my great grandfather's."
I looked at it and saw a little wooden wolf, just like the one Jacob had given me, only this one was much older, almost antique looking. I gave him a huge hug.
"I love it. I really do. I just wish that I could give you something in return."
"But you already have. You chose me." He kissed me like he did for our "first" kiss. "Lets get you home now."
As soon as I got home I ran upstairs to take a shower. When I finished I went in my room and checked my e-mail. I didn't get one from Renée so I knew one was coming soon. I went and opened my window. I crawled into bed and then it hit me. I was opening the window for Edward, who was never going to come through it.