* Hey everyone! It's me again! Back with a new chapter! This one is the Bella POV chapter! Yay, Bella! Now we will hear a little bit more about the whole getting pregnant & running away thing but from Bella's POV. This ought to be good! I hope you like it!
DISCLAIMER: I don't own 'How Far'. It's the property of Martina McBride and her record company.
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" Bella?".
Bella looked up into Edward's liquid topaz eyes. They were filled with concern.
" Is something wrong?", Edward asked.
Bella was thankful for the three hundredth time that Edward couldn't read her mind.
" No, Edward, everything is fine", Bella lied.
" Are you sure? You seem a bit distant today", Edward replied.
" Just thinking about that big test in Geometry", Bella said with a shrug, hoping she looked convincing.
" Don't worry, you'll do fine. Here, I'll help you study", Edward assured her, reaching for her Geometry book on her desk.
Bella smiled at Edward. He was so kind to her. Much too kind, she thought.
She didn't deserve someone as good as Edward. She deserved to be locked away in a cave in some third world country with no food or water or any way to survive.
Why?, because she went to the doctor's earlier and found out she was pregnant.
And the baby wasn't Edward's.
Unbeknownst to Edward, Bella had been sleeping with Jacob Black, her best friend, for the better part of a month now.
It all began when Bella had asked Edward if he ever planned on going all the way with her.
" Once we're married, yes", was Edward's reply.
" And when do you think that will be?", Bella had asked and he gave no answer.
It was things like that that really set Bella on edge. When he wouldn't answer a direct question, when he would either equivocate or just flat out lie because he thought she couldn't handle the truth. She wasn't so delicate that the truth could really hurt her!
Either way, Bella saw Edward out and kissed him good-bye, saying, " See you in school".
" See you", Edward said then in the blink of an eye, he was gone.
Bella closed the door and called for Jacob, telling him to come over.
Jacob didn't say 'no'. Bella didn't expect him to.
As she waited for him, she went to look out the window over the sink at the pouring rain outside. Typical weather for Forks, Washington.
She really hated the rain. She wished she were someplace sunny and warm.
Maybe now that she had the baby, she could escape the rain, escape this ho-hum life. Go someplace sunny with Jacob.
The doorbell rang and she went to go let Jacob in. She waited until Jacob was inside to kiss him. Then grabbing him by the hand, she led him upstairs to the bedroom.
Closing the door, she turned and tackled him to the bed. Thirty minutes later, They laid under the covers, panting.
" Missed me?", asked Jacob.
" More than you know", Bella mumbled against Jacob's neck.
" You seemed really eager to get right to it", mused Jacob.
" A lot's been on my mind", Bella said, sitting up and closing her eyes, just waiting for him to ask…
" Like what?". She felt Jacob sit up as well and look at her.
" I'm pregnant", Bella told him, still with her eyes closed.
There was silence. Opening her eyes, she looked at Jacob. He seemed frozen with shock.
" It isn't…?", began Jacob.
" Who else am I sleeping with? Definitely not Edward so yes, the baby's yours'", interrupted Bella then asked very coolly, " So what are we going to do?".
She watched Jacob think it out. A good portion of an hour passed when Jacob spoke.
" We'll run away", Jacob finally told Bella.
" Run away?", repeated Bella.
" Just listen to me, okay? Edward doesn't know about us and we can't risk your dad or anyone else finding out. So I think we should run away. Just take the Rabbit and go as far away and as fast as we can", Jacob proposed.
" Would we really get past your dad about this? He already suspects that we're boning each other in secret", Bella stated.
Jacob thought about that for a minute then said, " Okay, we'll take him into our confidence and have him run away with us".
" And how are we going to do this? People will notice if we all disappear around the same time", Bella pointed out.
" We'll leave first. I'll come get you in the middle of the night and we'll head towards Seattle and wait there for my dad. Once he meets up with us, we'll head farther south, away from Washington, maybe towards California", Jacob replied.
Bella perked up at the thought of California and sun. Then she thought about Edward and her longing for the sun dampened a little as she thought of how her leaving would really hurt him and her.
It was the only way, she concluded. She couldn't risk him finding out that she was cheating on him. She had to do this. Besides, she really missed the sun. She'll get over being away from Edward.
Even as she thought that, she knew it wasn't going to be as easy as she made it out to be.
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Bella laid a hand on her stomach, feeling the tiny life form inside kicking at her hand through the many layers of skin and tissue.
A smile lit up her face but only briefly as she finished remembering that day back in Forks. She couldn't believe it had been almost seven months.
They had successfully gotten out of Washington. They'd lived in Oregon, Northern California, and Nevada briefly the past six months. Now they were going to permanently stay in Albuquerque for her last trimester.
As the months rolled by and she settled into her life as a fugitive, Bella couldn't help but feel as though she had chosen the wrong path, like she was going the wrong direction.
She didn't mind that this time around, she wasn't allowed to leave the house. She already prepared herself for this. She let the days pass with no expectation, other than for the life form in her to kick and make her back hurt and for Jacob to come home and occasionally sleep with her.
She thought of Edward a lot. She tried to imagine his face, his voice. She made up conversations in her head that she would have with him. Most of them were about the baby.
Bella wondered if it would've been really bad to have told Edward the truth, to tell him about Jacob and the baby. Things would've gone differently, then. For the better or for the worse, though, was the question that was always asked.
She began to sing,
" There's a boat
I could sail away
There's the sky
I could catch a plane
There's a train
There's the tracks
I could leave
And I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back
There you are
Giving up the fight
Here I am
Begging you to try
Talk to me
Let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end
How far do I have to go
To make you understand
I wanna make this work
So much it hurts but I just can't
Keep on giving
Go on living
With the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
How far
Out of this chair
Or just across the room
Halfway down the block
Or halfway to the moon
How far do I have to go
To make you understand
I wanna make this work
So much it hurts but I just can't
Keep on giving
Go on living
With the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
Yeah, I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
How far
How far
Hmm".
With the end of the song, Bella stood up, taking her time as she did for she was getting to be incapable of springing up from furniture like she used to. Her bulging stomach added weight to her frame and so she had to really push off from the couch to stand properly and not fall back onto the couch.
As she turned around, She forgot how to breathe.
For Edward was standing there, staring at her. As she watched, he opened his mouth and uttered one single word, "Bella?".
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