"Are you sure?"
29....
"Yeah I am"
Fedlt glanced at me with an unsure look "are you SURE?"
30... that's been the 30th time I've heard someone ask me that today.
"Yes I'm positive, I could do this myself, and I don't need any help at the moment, this really isn't that hard to do!" I finally rambled with annoyance before I stared at her with so much attitude and anger she looked scared.
"I'm sorry!" for some odd reason she bowed slightly and bolted out of the room awkwardly
I didn't mean to scare her, but I've had up to here with the pity I was getting from the other crew members. I'm not that weak that I can't even put in codes…..I don't need the help, for all they know I'm fine and I've gotten over what happened 2 years ago.
"Jeez" I sighed to myself as I leaned toward the laptop and started to type in codes which would improve and repair Exvas.
"Wow what did you do to her?" the smooth clicking of the keyboard stopped when I picked up my hand and looked behind me to see who is was exactly who had just interrupted me.
Allelujah with all that physique and muscle, wore a bemused look as he walked in with a laptop in hand.
"Nothing" I simply answered back before getting back to what I was doing.
His eyebrows rose while he came up next to me, plugging his own laptop into his mobile suit's USB cord.
I let out a grunt of annoyance and I looked at him, knowing that if I just didn't answer now, I'd be grilled for the whole story while we would be in here. "She was just getting on my nerves, that's all"
"So you scared her?"
I made face and got back to typing the codes I'd memorized. "I didn't mean to." I mumbled
"Then why'd you do it?" he simply asked.
How many more questions?!
"I don't know?" I snapped back with shrug full of attitude and ignorance.
He didn't ask another question this time but just disregarded it, and started to type until he started to struggle to remember the correct codes for repairs.
I stopped typing with a sigh "here... let me help" I walked up next to him, turning the laptop towards my direction which he let me do. I started to click in the codes in silence. Allelujah stood close next to me, his arms crossed as he watched closely at what I was typing in.
Why didn't he ask another question? It was strange, anyone else in his place and they'd just get angry or worse lash back with the same attitude.
"It must be hard…."
"Excuse me?" I stopped typing but kept starting at the screen, refusing to look at Allelujah. I understood what he meant, and I didn't have a nice answer to tell him, because in fact the true answer was yes. But I couldn't find it to tell anyone that.
"I mean..." he pointed at the screen, "it must be hard remembering all those codes, right?"
I was surprised, that's not what I expected. I turned around slowly, to see him staring at me amazed but with a slight smirk or maybe it was a smile at the ends of his lips.
I nodded at him confused but yet a bit frightened for god knows what reason.
I turned around again facing the screen but I didn't continue to type, instead I actually stood up straight and walked away towards my laptop.
It was like he understood something which I didn't want him to.
"You're done already?" His voice broke my thoughts and I stared at him, utterly confused.
I shook my head lightly, before jumping into another topic. "What are u playing at, Haptism"
"What do you mean?" he subtly grinned like a child trying to be a wise-ass.
"Don't you what-do-you-mean me" I crossed my arms and walked up to him with a stern face. "I know you're pulling my leg, I'm fine, and I don't sympathy from someone like you or anyone on this ship at that...., alright!" I poked him on the chest for emphasis.
It didn't even faze him, he just didn't do anything, but simply stare back with a puzzled expression "You don't seem pretty fine to me."
"Excuse you, who are you to tell me if I'm alright or not! I think I know myself better
"Arialla..."
"What!?"
His expression turned from mystified to full of sorrow as he searched my eyes for something.
"See!… That's it, that's the one thing I don't want"
"What? What is it now?" Allelujah broke the stare and shrugged totally confused.
"That look!....." I sighed finally catching myself, ".... just please…. stop trying to do something that's impossible."
He was silent and simply glared at me with soft eyes, I turned away. "You wouldn't understand, Allelujah, so just stop"
No one understood, I didn't even understand well enough. I just lived and survived. Yes I held regret from my past, yes I still held a festering grudge against Ali, and yes, I am still most definitely consumed in sorrow from that event 2 years ago. But why should let anyone know? Bottling up isn't dangerous it's just a clever way of hiding your weakness. It isn't there business, it's mine. But most of all I guess I was afraid from sharing my feelings, it's something I've learned to hide and lock away so no one could judge me and give me the sympathy only people more unfortunate then me deserved.
I started to walk away from the dark haired boy, I was done here, there nothing more to say to him.
He huffed with a chuckle of sarcasm "how wouldn't I understand…"
I disregarded him and kept walking. I didn't know what he meant by it, but I was in no mood to figure out. I glanced back only once to see Allelujah, chuckling to himself but with a hint of grief as he slightly touched his own neck. Mindlessly I touched my own neck, before I realized where I had exactly placed my hand and felt the metal and the huge gap of skin and tissue under the cloth of my high necked shirt.
"Alle.." I wanted to ask, but I quickly stopped myself and shook the thought away before finally walking out.
Author's Comment
A short chapter compared to the first, but I guess this was just a filler chapter, but not quite. I just needed to develop the characters and there they stood, hence this chapter. Many foreshadowing in this chapter as well, as you guys could probably pick out very easily.
But yeah hope you guys enjoyed chapter 2 XD. I'd love some feedback, comments reviews, etc. It's always a nice gesture. ;D