Author's note!! So how much do you guys loved me for actually updating on this one?? Huh? Huh? Yup, I updated a Cutting Decision!! Finally. I've been putting this off for soo long it's ridiculous. I'm super proud of myself though for actually working on this one. I really hope you guys appreciate this. I hope you've all had a happy holiday and will have a happy new year! I love you guys, like really! I love all the support you've given me every step of the way and I hope you continue to support me in the future.

Chapter 6: The Butterfly Effects Bella's POV

"Bella!? Bella!?" I heard a panicked voice begging me. I must be dead. After all, such an angel shouldn't be in Hell. He shouldn't be here, and he shouldn't weep for me. I think I moaned. The sound didn't reach me through the darkness. I felt a searing pain shoot through my arm. It burned, like somebody had just laid a hot iron to rest on my wrist. I wasn't sure weather to be scared or relieved really. The pain was over for me, but what of my family, and my friends?

"Bella? Bella, listen to me, you are the butterfly." What was the feminine velvet voice talking about? "Bella, listen if you can hear me. Remember the movie we watched together, the Butterfly Effect?" I made the attempt to nod my head as if that would make a difference to whomever it was that had so much faith in my response. "In the movie, killing one butterfly changed the whole world. Bella, you are our butterfly, you came into our lives and everything changed. You made the difference in all of our existence. Until he met you, Edward had not made the attempt to live for hundreds of years."

I thought for a minute. My God, my Edward! I have to live. I can't believe I'd been so selfish. I'd been thinking only for myself. It was as if I'd expected the world keep going round in Forks, after they found my cold dead body in a dirty puddle of my own blood. I'd made myself believe that leaving life behind would make anything better. "Edward!" I tried to say. I wasn't sure if he'd heard me. "Edward!" "Bella? Bella, love I'm so sorry, it's all my fault! Bella please, you have to live!" I didn't want him to cry, I didn't deserve his sympathy.

I reached for as much of reality as I could. I think I caught it, though it was extremely unpleasant. As I climbed back into my body, I felt the pain of what I was sure was thousands of bloody slashes. The pain I'd felt in my arm was only emphasized with each tug I made. It was as if, I'd been hiding in the farthest, darkest corner of my mind, and was walking towards the fiery pits. If I could live, if I could change, please God, I'd be different. I would try my hardest, I swear, I would make my presence on Earth worth it. It can't end like this.

I surfaced with my body going numb. I fought it hard. I had something I needed to do. I sputtered and coughed. My mouth had become a cobweb filled cave. It was dry as the Arabian Desert. I felt a pair of cold arms grab me into an embrace. I threw my arms as far as I could manage and pulled Edward ever closer. I needed him right now. "I'm so sorry, I sobbed, I'm so sorry." "Don't apologize love, none of this was your fault, he comforted me, I love you, If I had lost you tonight, I wouldn't be far behind you, I'd find a way to get to you."

I heard a sound, It was getting closer. "Edward, Carlisle's methodical voice warned, Charlie's cruiser is coming around the road." "I won't leave her!" Edward said, his promise ringing in every word. "Edward", Rosalie warned quietly. Edward snarled at her. "Edward…" I chipped in. He pulled me closer. "Bella, you are the love of my life, and soon…" He turned to look at Alice in reassurance. She looked between the both of us, and thought for a minute, then smiled. "Tell her one at a time, we're not trying to give her a heart attack", she complied. "I wouldn't tell her about it now, but hey, apparently, nothing's stopping you tonight." "Love I'm sure you've noticed that I've been more than careful with you lately, and it's not just because of the cuts. Alice had a vision earlier this week…" He put his lips at the corner of my ear, to whisper only to me. "Bella, you are the love of my life, and very soon, will be the mother of our children." I gasped a kneejerk reaction. I began counting backwards, fearing that I had somehow deluded myself into thinking crazy things. I counted three more times before a lazy smile crept across my face, despite all of the recent events.

I shook my head disbelievingly. I quickly planned how I was going to get this out, before my father reached the house. "Edward, sweetheart, not soon…" I started. His face fell quickly, until he noticed Alice who was bouncing in place, though she tried to conceal it. "Edward, our babies are right, I moved his hand to place it on my stomach, here", I finished with a warm smile. "Okay then, that was unexpected… shall we get her to a hospital?" Jasper suggested. Twenty minutes later met me and my fiancé at the hospital getting checked out for any damage. We had pacified Charlie for now. Luckily, we got everything in order before his cruiser was able to get to the house. I made a decision right then and there. I'm a mommy… My "friend" has got to go! Alice nodded quietly to me, and slipped out of the hospital room.

AN: In the words of Jasper, "That was unexpected." I know, I don't know where my mind was going with this. (I still don't know) So inspiration time… Tell me how much love me. Tell me how crazy this chapter was. I mean, Bella's pregnant!! That's crazy!! Even I didn't see that coming!