I'm back! Sorry for the long hiatus. It's been busy since I got back from vacation.

As always many thanks to all who reviewed boothandbones4ever, MickeyBoggs, 1956JohnDeere50, Cheri Goodman, DoctorSweets, NatesMama. And to those of you who added my as your favorite author and/or to your story alerts.

Before I go on, how hot is nekkid Booth? (almost nekkid, his boxers were hanging so low)

Brennan undressing Booth without BB already in a relationship, only can happen on Bones. I'm having serious Bones withdrawal now.

Anyway, we're back to the story.

It was a surprise and Brennan had been secretly pleased when she had come home to the smell of Booth's cooking. She emerged from the bathroom, refreshed and feeling like things could now take a turn for the better. She had felt guilty for doubting Booth's fidelity and figured she could take this opportunity to make things up to him. From past experience, Booth romancing her with dinner usually meant sex after.

"Bones you smell great."

Booth embraced her as she entered the kitchen, burying his nose in her neck.

"Thank you. Anything I can do to help?"

"Nah, just sit at the table would you? Tonight it's gonna be all about you."

Brennan smiled and kissed her husband lightly on the lips. Booth pulled a chair next to her after placing a slightly burnt casserole on the table. He smiled sheepishly.

"Sorry, should've paid more attention when you tried to teach me how to cook this."

"It's ok, I'm sure it'll taste great."

"I've ordered some Thai food in case my cooking is really bad."

"Any ideas what you're gonna do now that you're suspended?"

Brennan made a face as she swallowed the burnt food.

"I don't really wanna talk about that right now Bones ok?"

"Ok."

"Let's forget this," Booth said as he took a taste of his cooking himself.

"No it's not that bad."

"Bones, it's alright. You didn't marry me cos I'm a great cook anyway."

Brennan laughed as she helped herself to the Thai food that Booth had the foresight to buy.

"I'm really sorry about this. Can't even get fixing dinner right."

"It's really ok Booth, don't box yourself up over it."

"Beat yourself over it Bones, beat yourself."

If Booth had thought that the burnt casserole was a foreshadowing of how things would turn out as the night progressed, he was wrong. After dinner they shared a bottle of wine, the alcohol helping them loosen their inhibitions.

Booth had put a CD on. He extended his hand to Brennan.

"Dance with me?"

She smiled and took his hand, allowing him to pull her to her feet. She rested her head on his shoulder as they swayed to the music.

"I missed this Bones."

"Me too."

"We'll be ok."

"The center always holds, right Booth?"

"Right."

They danced to two songs before Brennan lifted her head, smiling at him with a twinkle in her eye.

"It's rather evident you're aroused."

"What makes you say that?" Booth teased.

Brennan pressed herself firmly to him, letting his erection press into her abdomen. "This."

Booth grinned, "So shall we take this dance to the bedroom?"

Brennan hesitated.

"If you're not ready, I understand."

"No, I am ready, I think. Whatever physical injury from the attack has healed a long time ago."

"I'm not talking about physically, I mean, if you think you're not up to it, it's ok."

"You're expecting us to make love Booth."

"Look, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hoping we could, but I'd understand if you don't wanna."

"I want to, I'm just nervous."

"Nervous?"

"It's been awhile since we had sex."

"More than a month Bones."

"I'm afraid I'd disappoint you."

"You could never do that. You are amazing in bed. What happened to you won't change that."

Brennan nodded, still unsure. Booth took her hand and led her to the bedroom. The stood beside their bed. He tucked her hair behind her ear with a finger, then dipped his head to capture her lips like he did in her office earlier that day. They kissed slowly, then more urgently as his tongue sought access to her mouth. Brennan was hesitant at first but something in side her sparked and she kissed him back with passion.

They broke the kiss, breathless. Booth slid a hand under her silk camisole, and pulled it over her head, moaning in approval to confirm his suspicions that she wasn't wearing a bra. He slid his hand up her sides, stopping them on either side of her breast. Her nipples were already erect, indicating her arousal.

He pulled her to him again, kissing her, his thumbs brushing the sides of her breasts. Brennan broke the kiss shortly.

"I need to feel you. Take off your shirt."

Booth pulled of his shirt then shucked off his jeans, his erection tenting his boxers. Brennan threw her arms round his neck, and they kissed again. She moaned into his mouth as he pressed her to him, crushing her breasts to him. He ground his erection into her.

Slowly he lowered her onto their bed, pulling off her sweats and panties. He climbed on top of her, kissing a trail down her neck to her breasts.

"Booth please."

"I know baby, I know. I didn't forget."

He knew how mush she loved him to suck her. He took one nipple into his mouth, sucking and licking. She arched in to him, enjoying the feel of his mouth on her. He gave her other breast the same treatment. She reached between them to cup him through his boxers. He gasped.

"So good Bones. I've missed your hands on me."

"I missed it too."

They knew each other well and Booth knew where to touch a kiss to make her moan and gasp and beg for more. He continued to kiss a trail down her abdomen. He spread her legs, kissing her folds, using his thumbs to spread her to lick her clit, causing her to shudder.

"I'm so close."

"It's all about you tonight" Booth repeated what he said earlier as he dragged himself up so that he was now face-to-face with her.

He looked intently at her searching her eyes for doubt or fear. He saw none.

"You ready baby?"

"I want you."

Brennan closed her eyes and spread her legs wider, but instead of her cock, Booth gently pushed one finger gently inside her.

Her eyes snapped open.

"We're gonna take this slow ok?"

"But I – "

"Trust me."

"I trust you."

"You're so wet."

"All for you Booth."

He groaned. "I wanna be inside you so bad."

"Then why aren't you?"

"Trust me ok?"

"Ok."

Booth lowered his head to kiss her. He slowly pumped in and out of her, using his thumb to circle her clit. Brennan's eyes shut again, savoring the sensations between her legs, the pleasure he was giving her. When he sensed she needed more he slid another finger inside, curling them inside her. She moaned.

He sensed she was at the brink of her orgasm and he used his thumb to apply pressure to her clit.

"I've got you babe, just let it go."

"Booth!"

He felt her clench around his fingers as she came, her juices flooding his hand. His cock twitched, jealous of his fingers. He held her to him as she came, riding out her wave of pleasure.

Brennan opened her eyes, and tears started to fall.

"Did I hurt you?" Booth asked, alarmed, sliding his fingers out of her.

"No. That was good."

"I just, I never thought, I'm just overwhelmed right now."

Booth smiled in relief. "Good, good, you had me worried for a second."

He leaned down to plant a kiss on her forehead.

"Now go to sleep."

"But what about you?" Brennan reached down to cup his cock.

Booth squeezed his eye shut and he groaned.

"It's all about you tonight."

"I could help you with that, I mean if you don't want to penetrate me, I could take you in my mouth – "

"Whoa, thanks Bones. All that sex talk almost made me come. Like I said, it's all about you. We're gonna take it slow ok? What's important is you came. It felt like before the… you know, and it really makes me feel satisfied that I can make you come like I always did. Honest."

"Really? But you need to take care of this." Brennan stroked his hard length.

Booth groaned. "I'd do it myself. You'll get your chance."

"But – "

He put a finger to her lips. "Go to bed Bones." He kissed her on the forehead, pulling the covers over them.

Booth woke up the next morning to find himself completely naked, with Brennan sucking his cock.

"Mmmm Bones, what are you doing?"

"What I'm doing is fairly obvious." Brennan released him after giving him a hard suck.

Booth groaned almost losing it then.

"I told you, no need."

Brennan shimmied up his body, kissing him on his chest then neck.

"You should get rewarded for last night."

"Told you there's no need."

"Come on Booth, it's been so long."

"Too long." Booth agreed.

"I'm all wet and ready for you."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

Brennan allowed Booth to flip her onto her back then spread her legs. He brushed his fingers to her folds. She was indeed wet for him.

"I want you so bad."

"Then what are you waiting for?"

"So beautiful Bones." Booth slid into her in one smooth stroke.

A flashback. She was staring back into black eyes, shining back at her through the slits in the ski mask, She remembered his groan as he entered her, causing her pain.

She tried to squeeze her legs together as Booth started to move, causing her to gasp in pain.

"Too deep?" Booth stopped, worry in his eyes.

"No I…. keep going Booth," Brennan looked back at him, reminding herself that this was Booth, her husband, the man she loved, not the man who had brutally attacked and raped her.

"We could stop."

"No Booth, please." Desperate to pleasure him. She took pleasure in his climaxes. She prided herself in being the only woman who could make him feel this way, give him the earth-shattering orgasms he needed. He had always told her she was the only to ever make him feel that way.

Booth continued to move, pulling out of her and pushing himself inside again slowly. As he entered her she remembered the pain from her rape, she remembered how her attacker smelled and his voice, how she had ripped her dignity and self-worth from her.

"I'm sorry Booth I can't." Brennan pushed him off her and sat up in bed, burying her face in her hands.

"Hey." Booth wrapped an arm round her. "It's ok."

"No it's not. I can't even, we can even have sex."

"We can, in time it'll be ok."

"It's like we lost that intimacy."

"No we haven't, it'll come back."

"I have to go."

"Go? Where?"

Brennan wasn't sure. All she knew was that she had to leave. She felt like she was suffocating. She sucked in a breath. When she had things on her mind, she needed time alone to clear her head and think things through. She stood up and started to get dressed, pulling on her sweat pants.

"I'm going for run. Before work."

"I'm coming with you."

"No." Brennan continued getting dressed.

"No?!"

"Bones I gotta come with you."

""I just need some time alone Booth."

"Well then do something else, don't go running, not when the guy who attacked you is still out there."

"He hasn't attacked anyone since me."

"Listen to me for once ok?"

"I have to do this alone."

"Damn it Bones! If you'd just listened to me in the first place we wouldn't be having this conversation now."

Booth regretted the words that came out of his mouth.

"You've always blamed me for what happened."

"No I didn't mean – "

"I'm going for a run Booth. Don't you dare come after me,"

The look in her eyes told him he had better not. She gave him a hard stare, then headed out the door. Booth heard the front door slam shut. Frustrated Booth let out a growl, punching the wall.

We're in for some angst again. Review and let me know what you all think!

A Merry Christmas everyone!

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