Yes, this is going to be a sad story. But Bella will reflect on very happy moments, so it's a balance. This entire story is BPOV unless marked otherwise.

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I think I've forgotten how to move. I feel stiff; like I'm filled with lead. Once my eyes adjusted to the dark, I could see that I was in our bedroom, and the spot next to me was unusually empty.

"Edward?" I called, rubbing my eyes. "Honey, where are you?" This is weird. Edward always sleeps much later than I do, and I have to drag him out of bed sometimes after late nights.

"Honey, what's wrong?" Alice was suddenly in our room and at my side in a moment, rubbing my back soothingly.

What in the world is Alice doing here so early in the morning? I just want Edward, and I want him right now. Every single time he leaves, it's like he takes a little piece of my heart along with him, and I don't get it back until I'm in his arms again.

"Where's Edward, Alice?" I asked sleepily, flopping back onto the bed. Alice noticeably froze, her eyes wide and glassy with tears, and I looked up at her; confused.

"Bella, do you remember what happened yesterday?" She asked tentatively, biting her lip. At those words, the painful memories of yesterday came flooding back to me.

Flashback- Phone Call:

I was eating a bowl of cereal in our bed, watching the news. Edward was on a short press junket in Las Vegas, and would be back early the next morning. I couldn't stop admiring the ring on my left ring finger; it was truly beautiful. The cushion cut diamond was 14 carats and set on a silver, diamond studded band. It was a huge ring, and even though I was a fairly modest person, I adored it. It was absolutely perfect. (Author's Note: The link to this ring is available on my profile.)

I had Edward, and I would have him for the rest of my life. Or so I thought.

"In breaking news, reports say that everyone's favorite movie star, 27 year old Edward Cullen, was involved in a potentially fatal plane crash only minutes ago. No further information is available at this time." My heart literally skipped a few beats.

No. He can't be dead….he loves me! We're supposed to be together for the rest of our lives.

At that instant, my phone rang. I fumbled to answer it; my hands shaking drastically.

"Is this Miss Isabella Swan?" An unfamiliar women asked.

"Yes, this is she." I croaked, clutching the comforter in my free hand and biting my lip.

"Miss Swan, I regret to inform you that at 10:24 this morning, Edward Cullen was brought into the ER, and is currently in critical condition. We don't think he will make it much longer." Her voice was very apologetic and comforting, but somehow empty.

This couldn't be happening to me. "What? No! How long does he have left?" I asked desperately, throwing on a tee shirt and shorts.

"Miss Swan, we don't think he'll make it past noon." I crumpled to the floor immediately, holding my face in my hand. It was already 11 o'clock. Was there a chance I would never see the love of my life again? That didn't seem possible.

"No, no, this can't be happening…I'll be there as soon as I can. What hospital?" I blubbered, running out the door, keys in hand. She told me the name of the hospital and the room number, and I couldn't help but wonder if I'd be there in time. "Can you tell him something for me?" I asked desperately.

"I can have his nurse tell him something, but there is a very low chance he will be able to understand it." She answered hesitantly.

"Tell him that I love him very much, and that-" I muffled a sob. "he is my everything."

"I'll have his nurse tell him." She assured me, just as I reached the garage.

"Thank you." I said, hanging up and making my way down the driveway in my convertible. Paparazzi were, of course, huddled around the gate.

Could this day get any worse? I had just gotten a phone call saying that my fiancé was going to die, and these damn people still found a way to make me even more upset.

"Bella! Bella, is the story true?"

"Are you on your way to the hospital?"

"Any comments on Edward's condition?"

I pulled out the driveway, thankful that my large sunglasses covered my red, swollen eyes. The paparazzi continued to follow me, and I couldn't contain myself.

"Just leave me the fuck alone!" I roared, unable to stop the tears that began falling down my cheeks. Miraculously, I managed to escape the remaining paparazzi and continued on my way, pushing the speed limit and almost running countless red lights. By the time I pulled into the parking lot of the hospital, it was half past eleven, and my heart was beating unbelievably fast.


I tore through the hospital to the room number I had been told, only to find that I wasn't allowed in. "This is high profile, you can't-" The security guard tried to stop me, but I clung to his shirt.

"No, no, he's my fiancé! Please, I need to see him, he's…" I trailed off, begging and crying, and he stared at me for a moment before stepping aside and letting me walk into the room.

"I'm sorry." I heard him whisper just before the door shut behind me.

I stood frozen by his bed, unable to process what I wasn't seeing.

This couldn't be him. This couldn't be Edward…it couldn't be him. Wiping eyes off and still crying, I reached out and touched his hand, squeezing my eyes shut so I didn't have to see it anymore. It was terrible…his face was covered in blood and bruises and his body looked oddly distorted and broken.

Sinking to my knees next to his bed, I clung to his hand. "Don't do this, please." I rasped, tears still pouring down my face. "Don't leave me, I can't live without you!" I begged, knowing that he probably couldn't hear me.

"Are you Bella Swan?"

I spun around, startled, and saw a doctor standing in the doorway, his eyes tired and appraising. "Yes, I'm his emergency contact. He's…he's my fiancé."I explained, wiping my eyes again. "What's going on? What's wrong?" I demanded, refusing to let go of Edward's hand as the doctor moved closer to me.

"Both his lungs are punctured, he has severe internal bleeding, there's shrapnel and metal riddling his entire body…we tried to stop all the bleeding, but think his heart is going to give out." He said in a soft, apologetic voice, putting his hand on my shoulder. "Is the rest of his family coming?"

I shrugged my shoulders, fumbling for my cell phone. "I can call them…" I offered, but my hands with slick with sweat.

"If you want to." He said, checking over Edward's vitals and then heading for the door, and then stopping with his hand on the doorknob. "Bella, I'm sorry, but he doesn't have much time left. I'm so sorry."

And then he left the room, and I sat down on the edge of Edward's hospital bed, still refusing to drop his hand. I couldn't let him go.

It only took several minutes for Carlisle and Esme arrive, because they too had seen the news. Esme was sobbing hysterically, and immediately threw herself into my arms as we both cried together. Carlisle was eerily silent, his blue eyes wide and disbelieving as he looked at his son in a hospital bed.

"Esme, I can't do this!" I sobbed into her shoulder, shaking and trying and failing to hold myself together.

"I know, honey." Esme cried, and suddenly the worst sound in the world met my ears.

A flatline.

Esme, Carlisle, and I all froze as it went off, and my mouth fell open and even more tears poured down my face as what seemed like a million people came running into the room. We stood there at the foot of the bed, disbelieving and horrified at what was happening right in front of us.

And then, I knew that it was all over. My life was over.

Everything happened in a blur then, and I didn't snap out of the daze I was in until Carlisle spoke to me.

"Do you want us to come over to the house with you?" Carlisle suddenly asked, holding Esme tightly as she cried into his shoulder. He also and looked sounded terrible, but wasn't inconsolable like Esme and I. "You shouldn't be alone in that house."

"Yes, please." I managed, sobs still racking my body. "Does Alice know?" I asked quietly.

"Yes, we called her on the way over. We'll meet you at the house, Bella." He said, muffling a sob and walking out of the room suddenly.

After I walked over to Edward's bed, I leaned down, closed my eyes, and kissed his cheek. My tears got all over his bloody, slightly distorted face as tears continued to wrack my body.

I don't know how I exactly got out of the room and to my car, but I managed to drive back to the house in a daze, not once loosening my grip on the steering wheel. By the time I got there, Carlisle's Mercedes was already there. I parked in the driveway, and the second my foot hit the driveway, I collapsed in a pathetic heap.

Edward wasn't here with me anymore. We aren't getting married; we won't have a family together. We never gotten to do all the things we had wanted to do together. There was so much we were missing.

"Bella!" I felt a cluster of bodies around me, and the familiar clicking of camera's. "Honey, let's get inside." It was Emmet. He scooped me into his arms effortlessly and carried me into the house, trailed by the rest of the family.

We sat together in the family room for a long time, huddled together in a sobbing, pathetic mess. Emmet's girlfriend Rosalie, who was a close friend of Edward's, and Alice's husband, Jasper, joined us after awhile, just as broken up as we were.

"Bella, can I talk to you?" Esme asked me after awhile, distangling herself from the group and holding her hand out to me. Her voice was so weary and sad; so were her eyes. But I must have looked the same way. Esme led me to the kitchen and took my hand gently.

"When you and….Edward" she had to practically choke out her son's name "told me about the engagement, I was so incredibly thrilled. I have thought of you as part of this family for a long time, and I was ecstatic to think that you would finally be a legal, legitimate part of our family." She paused for a moment, pausing to wipe away her tears. "Bella, I want you to have everything of Edwards." Esme finally said, tears welling up in her eyes. "You were the most important thing in his life, and he wasn't truly happy until he found you."

"I can't take everything." I whispered, wincing. It hurt to talk. It hurt to breath. It even hurt to cry.

Esme shook her head adamantly and pursed her lips to stop of from crying."Yes you can." Esme argued. "I can't do this, Bella. I can't take anymore of him from you." I started to protest again, but she silenced me. "I will always have Edward in my heart, just like you will. But I can't take any of his things." She said simply. "He's yours."

"He'll always be your son." I murmured, but I was touched at her words.

"But you were the one he lived for, Bella. You were his life." Esme cried, and Carlisle silently entered the room behind us. He hadn't shed a single tear, but I could tell by his face that he was in intense pain just like the rest of us.

"Don't argue, Bella." He whispered, holding his wife in his arms. "You deserve what is left of….." he trailed off, trying to compose himself. "What is left of him." He finished, and Esme and I both broke out into a fresh round of tears. "He loved you so much." Carlisle added, and tightened his grip around Esme. "We should go." He whispered in his wife's ear, and she flung her arms around me.

"I'll call you tomorrow." She whispered, before Carlisle led her out of the room, supporting most of her weight.

It hurt to know that Edward would no longer be there for me. He couldn't be there for me for me anymore.

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"Sweetie? Can you hear us?" Rosalie was there now, along with Alice.

Reality came crashing down on me, and I felt my heart constrict tightly and painfully. "He's dead." I croaked. Alice and Rosalie looked at each other, anguish marring their beautiful faces.

"Yes, Bella. Edward is…dead. He's gone." Alice whispered the last word, tears shining in her eyes. I started sobbing again without warning; I just completely fell apart.

And Edward was the only one that could put me together again.

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So sad! I wanted to dedicate this story to my beautiful friend Anna, who went through this with her fiancée. She is sitting here helping me with this chapter. And I was crying as she told me her story. Please review, I will update ASAP.

Xoxo- Melodyella aka Mellie