A/N: So here goes for another Chapter. Thanks again for all those supporting the story. :)
Disclaimer: Don't own skins, but misses them already.
Chapter 13
It has been 2 months since they have shook hands and agreed to be just friends. 2 months that Naomi has been trying to forget how she feels about Emily but knows well sure that it will have to take a hell of a lot more effort for her to do just that.
She watched as Emily made a move on random girls in bars that they went out with and always have to go home with one or if not at least suck each other's faces for the whole night.
Convincing herself that she needs to be there and watch hoping that finally reality will kick in and she would wake up and found her feelings for her gone.
But each time, it still hurts. And each time she just drowns herself in alcohol and dance with Effy and sometimes Pandora til she feels her head getting dizzy.
But other than this bar fiasco, Emily always makes time for her. She would sometimes pop at her house unexpectedly on a Saturday afternoon to drag her somewhere. They went to movies or sometimes just rent some dvds and crash on Emily's apartment. Good thing, Ian has finally gotten over his claim on Naomi, and although Emily keeps convincing him that she is not dating Naomi he still think otherwise. So Emily already gave up convincing him that she has not stolen Naomi from him.
Emily would sometimes bring popcorn or chips in one of their movie session and there was even once that Emily got so bored watching that she looked at Naomi her eyes sparkling and before Naomi knew it, she dragged them both to a karaoke bar. They were hysterical while they were choosing songs and they mostly taken over the stage, good thing they went there in the afternoon so there were not much people inside. But in reality, Naomi knew that even if the bar will be packed with people as long as she has Emily laughing besides her, then it does not matter one bit.
It also surprises Naomi that Emily and her mother has gotten quite close. There was one morning that she woke up with noises downstairs and when she went down Emily was laughing while talking animatedly with her mom. Emily brought them breakfast that morning but unfortunately for Naomi though when she asked her why she is there that early in the morning, Emily just smiled and look at her mother, to which her mother answered,
"She came from a date.. We were just discussing about it" and then adding to Naomi's surprise her mother even winked at Emily to which Emily laughed.
Ok, the date info thing not called for at this early in the morning, so Naomi frowned but when her mother winked, that made Naomi's jaw dropped and look at Emily her eyes asking before she even started,
"Does she..?"
"Yes she does", Emily replied grinning at Gina.
Gina looked from Emily and back to her daughter. "Is that me you both are talking about?". Gina asked her daughter still with a smile on her face while munching on her sausage mcmuffin.
"Yep Gina.. Your daughter here is asking if you happen to know that I am gay..", Emily explained preventing a hint of laughter as she tries to be serious while looking at Naomi's mom.
Gina turned her attention back to Naomi and grin.. "Of course dear. I have known for quite sometime now.."
"And you're ok with that?" Naomi asked still surprised to which Emily rolled her eyes at Gina. Gina laughed and look back at her daughter.. "Honey, there is nothing wrong with it.. What made you think that I will not be ok with someone who is gay? I believe that a person should be judge with one's personality and not one's sexual preferences. You know that.."
"From the looks of it.. she doesn't", Emily interrupted shaking her head and rising from her seat to walk over to the fridge and get Naomi some orange juice.
Gina just smiled one last time to her daughter before getting up herself. "Well girls, I have to go, I have to be early today... You can rest here Emily and catch some sleep in Naomi's room if you want, I am sure Naomi won't mind, right dear? Because as far as I can remember you have stayed here overnight before."
Naomi almost gagged at the pancakes she is munching and look at her mom trying to check if her mom knows something about their relationship before. But it seems that if Gina indeed know she is good in hiding it.
"Thanks Gina. Take Care..", Emily called while looking at Gina's retreating back. She then look over at Naomi and grinned, "Orange juice right?"
"You think she knows?" Naomi asked worriedly.
"About?" Emily asked though she already know what Naomi is asking.
"Well you know about our relationship before?"
"I think.. no.." Emily answered while putting the glass of orange juice in front of Naomi and sitting down across the table from her. "And besides there was no relationship really right? So you don t have to look guilty about it", Emily shrugged.
Naomi can't help but think that she might have heard some hint of sarcasm in Emily's statement when she pointed out the 'no relationship' thing which again reminded her of her own stupidity.
"Ems.. you know its not what I meant.. And I don't feel guilty.. I guess I just did not expected it.." Naomi added and to break the feeling of awkwardness as an afterthought quickly add.. "At least now I can start dating girls and bring them home without having to worry about what she will think.." and then she burst out laughing.
Emily was just about to have another bite of her sandwich when she heard the last comment and she stopped raising her eyebrows at Naomi.
"Girls? Yeah right.. Last time I heard you tried it with girls, had sex with one, but decided it was not worth it." Emily snorted and then finally took a big bite and look at Naomi chewing. Remembering those few words that Naomi has confessed from months ago. She gave Naomi a hint of a smile to let her know that she is just kidding.
But then Naomi turned serious. She drop her fork and hold her hands together looking at Emily and then slowly look down.
"Wrong.." she quietly answered and then took a deep breath before she continued.. "Last time you heard was I, willing to do everything," and Naomi look up to stare directly in Emily's eyes.. "anything.. for you.." and then she half smiled. But when Naomi sees Emily drops her grin and also turned serious, she quickly added getting up.. "Soo.. drama time over.. either let's get you to bed for you to rest and if you don t want that at least let me finish my book.. It would be taking me ages to finish that book report if you keep dragging me out of the house every weekend.. " and then she look at Emily and grin.
When Emily just stared at her still with that serious look on her.
Naomi rolled her eyes and place her hands on her hips.. "Hello.. you deaf or what? Move your ass now..". She reach out and take a hold of Emily's hand and then tug on it until Emily stood up now smiling.
"So.. up you go.. and I will just take care of the dishes.."
"You sure? Coz I am more than willing to accept that offer. I'm kind of a bit knackered.." Emily managed to say before she yawn.
"You brought us breakfast. It's the least I can repay you.. Now go.." and then she slap Emily playfully at her shoulder before moving past her and bringing the dishes to the sink.
That day was the first time that Emily has slept on her bed again. Naomi has followed after she finished tidying in the kitchen and saw Emily nicely tuck in between her bed cover, sleeping peacefully. She would have loved to just watch her sleep, she was just too beautiful that one can't help but look. But Naomi forced herself to look away and instead walk over to her desk and brought out the book that she needs to finish and started reading.
Today was no different. Emily is again sprawled on her bed talking non-stop about a girl she met in the bookstore while she was out looking for a book that Naomi have wanted for ages, planning on surprising Naomi with it. Naomi would have been ecstatic to find out that Emily has started looking for it as well the day she told her that she love to have the book for her collection, but then she started gushing over about a girl and Naomi wished that Emily should just have left her to look for it herself instead and then maybe there would be no 'girl at the library' chit-chat needed.
She has her back on her and is constantly rolling her eyes. This is the first time she heard Emily talk non-stop about some girl she met, well aside from the fact that most of the girls she talk to are those she met on bar and pubs, so I guess it might explain the difference, but still it does not stop Naomi from being irritated.
"Fuck Ems, if you like her then ask her out, isn't that what you are good at?"
"Who said I didn't?" and Emily burst out laughing.
"Fuck" Naomi whispered.
"What?"
"Nothing. So what is the big problem anyway, I'm sure she said yes." Naomi replied thinking 'please let her say no' but knowing that Emily ALWAYS ALWAYS have her ways on girls.
"She did"..
'So much for prayers', Naomi thought sighing. "Then there.. so will you just shut up and let me concentrate here? Trying to finish this for tomorrows class"
"Oh don't be such a big bore.. It's early afternoon Sunday.. There are still plenty of hours to finish that. Nerdy!" and then Emily rolled with laughter.
Naomi did not look back and instead put all her attention on what she is doing but frankly because she is quite not in the mood for jokes after the talk about that library girl. Ugh! Damn stupid book!
But then she felt soft arms suddenly encircling her waist from behind and chin resting on her exposed shoulder and she stiffen feeling her heart beat increasing.
"Oh come on.. Please? Don't get pissed, I was just kidding.", Emily whispered and cooed softly thinking that she has offended Naomi with her comment.
She tugged on Emily's hands to remove them from her waist because frankly she might not be able to breathe just being that close to her and second Emily might hear how her heart is now beating fast just from a simple friendly hug that is not even tight. But then Emily thinking Naomi is still pissed off tighten them all the more and even snuggled closer in her back that Naomi can't help but close her eyes when she felt Emily's soft chest crash against her back. "Fuck", she whispered because frankly her mind is suddenly in overdrive full of Emily and the way she kissed her, her smell, her soft lips.. Shit, Naomi thought as she felt her face getting hotter.
"Emily let go!" She harshly exhaled. She does not mean to bark but she just have to do it otherwise God Help her she might do something that she will regret later.
Emily was taken aback by the harshness of her voice and in effect has loosen her hold on Naomi which Naomi took as an opportunity to stand up from her chair and walk out of the room not glancing back because Emily might see the effect her hug made on her eyes.
After a few minutes, Naomi heard Emily's footsteps going down the stairs. She felt guilty for the way she bellowed at Emily and has been trying to think on how to make it up with her.
Then she saw Emily peek at the living room looking directly at her. "Uhm.. I think I'll go.. You know.. let you work on your paper thing? So, yeah, bye.. "
"Emily dear!" Gina greeted who has just arrived from work.
"Hi Gina!I was just leaving.."
"Leaving?" Gina look at the watch in their wall.. "It is still early.. Got some plans?"
"Well.. not really..." she smiled at Gina.
"Then you have to stay then.. We will celebrate! I got promoted!!" Gina announced cheerfully. "Come on grab your bags will eat out tonight, my treat!"
"Really? Wow! Congratulations Gina!" Emily squealed and rushed towards Gina and hug her tight.
Naomi look at everything that happened and then smiled also standing up to be able to hug her mom as well. "Congratulations Mom.." she smiled and Emily let go of Gina for Naomi to hug her as well which she did.
"Ok.. Just let me shower and change clothes and then we'll go, ok?" And then Gina went upstairs to prepare.
Emily was still looking at Gina smiling but Naomi is already looking at her wanting to apologize but does not how to start. So instead, she sigh and turn around deciding to just apologize later if she already have something good to say. She sat at the couch and flip on the tv to distract herself, but then Emily suddenly block her view as she crouch down in front of her and then took hold of both her hands on her own waiting for Naomi to look at her. Naomi felt Emily starts brushing her thumb on her hands but still can't seem to look her in the eye. And then she felt Emily release one of her hands and took hold of Naomi's chin forcing her to look directly into her eyes.
"Look at me Naomi.." Naomi look, she has no choice anyway.
" Come on.. You know very much that I always always have fun being with you.. ok? You don't even have to say a thing, just being in the same room as you already makes me happy.." Emily heartfully said smiling and then she pouted when she still did not get any reaction from Naomi. It was just too damn cute that Naomi cant help but scan her eyes on Emily's facial features and smiled as well.
And then Emily shouted, "Yes! Thought that will make you smile.." Offering Naomi a cheeky grin. Naomi rolled her eyes but still smiling, which caused Emily to laugh.. "You are one dramatic actress.." Emily blurted still laughing.. "Seriously you should be in hollywood or something.."
"Fuck off" Naomi replied jokingly.
Emily then raise herself up from the crouching position brushed her lips in Naomi's forehead and then straightened out. She picked up the tv remote and throw herself to the sofa besides Naomi.
"Now can we change the fucking channel it's so damn boring.. " And then Emily stop, looking at Naomi sideways before giggling and saying..
"Opps.. My bad again.."
Naomi looked at her confused still thinking about the soft brush of Emily's lips on her forehead. About 3 weeks ago, Naomi got sick and Emily has been there most of the time to take care of her when her mother is not around. And through the chills, Emily will hug her, kiss her forehead and let her snuggled into her until she feels asleep. She has been sick for 4 days but somehow even after she has gotten over the illness, Emily seems to develop this habit of unexpectedly kissing her forehead in one or two occasions. And even though it's merely a friendly kiss, it never fails to make Naomi flushed. And today is no different so looking at Emily's grin and twinkling eyes, she raised her eyebrows as if saying what do you mean.
"I mean.. " Emily started preventing herself from having another fit of giggles.. "I said the boring word again.. I am just worried that its your queue to start.. you know.. acting again..". Naomi scrunched her face playfully and punch Emily lightly in the arms and then Emily can t help it, she starting laughing.
Emily's laugh is so contagious that Naomi can't help but join.
Naomi knew that moments like this are the reason on why she still does want to let go of the little hope she still have that maybe, just maybe, Emily will again fall for her and this time trust her that she will not in any way would want to hurt her again. These are the moments that erases all those nights in bar with her seeing Emily with other girls, because she would then again convince herself that what she feels is not lust but she really loves Emily. Naomi knows that yeah its kind of pathetic for her to do just that, but she can't help it, no matter how hard she tried, so with that so much for moving on though.