A/N: So yeah, I have decided this will be the last chapter. I will be on holiday for the last week of January and hence work has been pretty hectic on me (need to cram everything). I decided to finish it now instead of leaving it for too long.

I would like to say thank you so much for all those who have constantly given me their support. I might again write another one, I just dont know when.


Disclaimer: Don't own skins, but misses them already. But hey! One more week to go right?! Yay! (still haven't read the novel, duh!)

Chapter 17

"I am a fucking cunt... that's what I am.. leaving her like that after our first night together.." Emily cant help but think. Suddenly flashes of what happened last night creep back to her thoughts making her feel flush.. "Fuck sake", she muttered and then jump out of her bed, careful not to disturb Katie, who is still lightly snoring on her own bed.

She went downstairs and decided to get herself some tea. After a few minutes, decide to get coffee instead because of the slight headache she feels coming and after settling down, she absentmindedly stirs her coffee, blowing steam from the cup she is cradling once in a while, and thinking.

"This is all JJ's fucking fault." Emily grumbled.

Emily never thought that it would be an issue going back to her parents house about two weeks ago. Ian needs to renew the contract to the flat, however, since he is graduating he does not want to anymore. JJ convinces Emily that he has it covered and that he already know someone who would be replacing Ian's room, however, since they can't afford the flat for only both of them in it, as JJ's friend will only be joining them in like 3 months, they decided to find a smaller place. For the meantime though, JJ wants to be with his mom for a while and promises Emily they will go find another flat after a month, hence here she is back at her own place, with last night back to Naomi's bed, and her stupid feelings that she knows she cant deny, also back.

Emily let out a lil growl thinking about this realization.

"Did not hear you come in this morning.. " Emily look up startled that she spilled some of her coffee.

Katie stared at her. "Nervous much?" And then gave a nod to the direction of the coffee in Emily's hands, "You should stop drinking that then if it's making you all jumpy and shit."

She then proceeded to get a cup for her own and prepare herself some tea. She slip at the counter opposite Emily, sip a little from her tea, and stared at her sister.

"What?"

"Nothing.. So, you slept well?"

Emily just stared at Katie for a while before letting out a resigned sigh. Takes a sip of her coffee. taking her time and then carefully place the coffee back.

She felt Katie's hands touch her own and Emily look up.

"Tell me.." Katie asked softly, concern evident on her face. Emily just shook her head, and looks down back to stare at her coffee, because, well, she is actually lost for words on how to start it all.

"Ems.. You still love her don't you?"

"How can you say that?"

"Because, you are that obvious."

Emily look back up, "Am I?"

"Yes."

"Christ" Emily muttered before she tilted her head and let the palm of her right hand support it. "Are you disappointed?"

Now it's Katie who let out a sigh. Look at her tea for a while, pick it up, and before taking a sip, mutters, "I am. But it was inevitable. I know sooner or later it will boil back into this." Takes a sip. "I hate her you know? I hate her for what she's done with you. But aren't we all, like part of it? Mom, Dad, me.. So basically it's not all her, sure, she was the main reason, but we contributed."

"I just don't know though if feeling this way, still in love with her after all those years is right."

"I dont know how to say this.. And I cant believe I am willing to say this.. but.. Ems, eversince she came back and you ask me to stay out of it, I did.. But, I never did stop looking out for you, so I also made it a point to check on her when you are around or even if you are not, just to see, if she is leading you on again.. Can't help it you know.."

Emily look back at her sister, smiling. "You spied on her?"

Katie gave a short laugh at Emily's reaction. "Well.. sort of, but not really yeah?" Before raising her eyebrows, smiling and then she went serious again. "Ems, she is serious this time. She loves you."

"I know"

Katie's brows furrowed. "Then what is the problem?"

Emily finished off her coffee and spread her hands on the counter breathing in. "It's me. I'm scared." Emily look back at her sister and she felt tears starts to well up so she look away. "I don't know how to trust her anymore.", she choke before she let her emotions take over when she felt Katie's arms around her.

"I want to Katie. Believe me I want to..", Emily managed to say in betweens sobs.. "It's just.. It's fucking hard".

"Shhh.. Calm down Ems.. " Katie keeps rubbing her back, trying to sooth her as Emily let go of the emotions she has felt eversince last night happened.

"You don't have to rush into anything Ems.. If you both love each other, everything will just fall into place when you are both ready... kay?" Emily slightly nods still sniffing and after a few deep breathes, she let go of Katie, wipe the tears on her cheeks, and decided to lighten the mood by teasing her sister.

"I hope you came to earth for peace"

Katie gave Emily a confused look to which Emily continues still in a straight face. "I know you are not my sister, give up the pretense, you an alien or something? Hugging me was a little bit of a giveaway there you know, but giving an advice? That was so --" Emily was not able to finish her sentence because Katie gave her a resounding swack on the arm rolling her eyes at the same time.

"Fuck sake, I am just being a sister yeh?"

Emily let out a laugh before hugging Katie back.. "I know.. and thank you."

Emily let's the whole weekend pass by thinking on how she will approach Naomi and decided to talk to her comes Monday. However, monday classes went by and still no Naomi. She did not even attend the one class that they are in and it's not her to skip classes, so Emily feels guilty because she knows she is the reason.

She wants to send her a message to ask where she is but then she stopped herself because frankly she wants their first conversation after what happened to be them facing each other so she stopped herself and decided instead to visit Naomi's place right after class.

She feels her heart beating hard as she slowly walks the path towards Naomi's house. What will she say? Of course she would have to apoligize for leaving but would she apologize for what happened as well? Leaving, definitely yes, but for what happened? She does not want to, that was their first and it was special for her, but is it right to tell her that she is not sorry for what happened? It should be right? Because it would not have happened in the first place if Naomi did not kiss her. Fuck. And then will she tell her, she loves her? Is it right?

"Honey!" Emily startled look up and finds herself already standing in front of Naomi's house and Gina just opened that door smiling at her. Emily blink, still disoriented, because she cant remember knocking.

"Honey are you ok? I saw you walk up, so I opened the door, but you seem lost.."

Emily smile timidly. "Sorry.. I was.. Well.. uhm.. is.."

"She is upstairs." Gina interuppted smiling. "Says she is not feeling well so she did not went to class but wants to be alone for a moment so I just let her be."

"Oh." Emily said looking down.

"But Im sure, you are most welcome to visit her.. I'll just be out for a bit ok? You can manage right?" Gina said with an apologetic smile.

"Are you sure? I can come back. Its--"

"Hush now.. I know she would want to see you." Gina then shrugged into her coat, hug Emily, gave her a wink and went out the door shouting, "I won't be long."

Emily took a deep breath and knock on Naomi's door and listened but there is no answer so she decided to knock again.

"Go away.. I'm not hungry.." She heard Naomi grumbled and she felt her heart skip just by hearing her voice.

Emily felt that the door is not lock. "I have to do this" she whispered before deciding to open the door and step inside slowly. Naomi look up from where she is resting her head on the pillow, had a look of surprise in seeing Emily, before hurt overcomes her face and then turned her face to a scowl right after, before saying in a low voice, "Why are you here?"

"Nai, I came here to talk.."

"I think what you did perfectly said it all.." Naomi replied, her voice still cold and then followed by a rushed "Dont!" when she saw that Emily took a step closer to which Emily immediately stop moving.

Emily stared at her, look directly into Naomi's eyes and she saw the hurt that she caused behind the angry scowl that Naomi is trying to put up. And Emily felt her chest tighten up just seeing how broken she made Naomi look. She scanned her eyes from Naomi's hair, to her arms and down to her duvet covered legs, before returning her gaze back to her lips then her eyes.

"Go away" Naomi whispered still scowling.

Emily did not say something but instead move closer. She can't help it. She wants Naomi, then and now. She may have been hurt and she may not be that trusting yet, but she can't deny the longing that she felt everytime she thinks of her, and right now, looking at her like that, she can't stop herself from walking over and hug, kiss and comfort her.

But then Naomi suddenly move and stood up at the other side of the bed and repeated in a louder voice. "I said.. Go away.. I dont want you near me, I dont want you touching me, I don't want you --"

"I love you"

Naomi stop, her mouth halfway open into saying something and slowly she closed it. She blink and swallowed before she decide to speak again.

"What?" Naomi's voice completely a whisper that Emily have to concentrate hearing it.

"I still love you Naomi.. I'm sorry if I did not stay.. I'm really sorry.."

"Dont.. Dont say it Emily.. I dont want your pity. I can manage." Naomi replied her voice stronger, eyes angry, thinking that it might be a dream and then later she will have to wake up only for her hope to get crushed again.

"I'll say it, because I mean it. I did not stay because I thought it was the right thing, but leaving you after that is the hardest thing I ever did, do you know that? I love you Naomi, I was just.. I was just scared..I don't want to.. to give you hope that everything will be ok.. because.. I still dont know if I can trust you and I dont want to lose you but a relationship wont last if there is no trust, right?" Emily pleaded.

Naomi stared at Emily, still not believing that everything is happening.

Emily moved closer and closer until she has Naomi at arms length. Naomi still looking at her, afraid that if she closes her eyes or look away, everything will just be a dream. It was not until Emily reach up and cup her cheeks with her palm that Naomi let her eyes fluttered close leaning to Emily's touch.

"I love you Naomi.. I still fucking love you.."

And it was then that Naomi accepted that everything that is happening is true and she let her guard down and feels her own heart swell at hearing that Emily finally admitted she still loves her. She opened her eyes to look at those innocent looking brown eyes she have grown to love looking at her so softly.

"I love you" Emily repeated this time looking into Naomi's eyes deeply. "I can say it over and over again because I know I never did stop."

Naomi scanned Emily's face taking all of it in. She really do love this girl, how it may have been possible to feel this intense to someone, she does not know, but she knows how she feels. She took a deep breath, her other hand raising up to hold the hand that Emily placed on her cheek, moving it downwards to her lips and kissing Emily's palm, closing her eyes.

"Will you?" Then Naomi look back at Emily, lips still can be felt in Emily's palm as she asks... "Say it over and over again?"

Emily smiled. "I love you.. I love you.. I-" Naomi cut her off with a kiss. Soft and short before she let their foreheads touch.

"I will do everything Ems.. everything.. to make you trust me again.. I love you so much.."

Emily reach up and kiss Naomi's temple before enveloping her into an embrace. Hugging her close as if she needs to feel her heart beating for her own to beat as well.

Naomi hugs her back, clinging into her, afraid that she will slip away again if she let go before adding...

"We can take this slow Ems.. I will wait for you to trust me again.."

Emily smiled, hug Naomi tight once more, and release her, only to look back into Naomi's eyes.. "I know you will.." She kissed Naomi lightly on the lips, lingering for a short while, loving the taste of her before pulling back and smiling..

"Thank you.."

That evening Emily spent her dinner with Gina and Naomi and she has never been happier. Gina went back and after seeing Emily and Naomi giggling at something on a show their watching on TV, she let out a breath of relief that finally the two have sorted it all out. As her form of celebration, she insisted on Emily dining with them that night and her cooking the one dish that she knows by heart.

Naomi rolled her eyes and said "Mom, better be good!"

To which Gina just smiled and say, "Of course.. I am just happy Emily is here.. and will be coming back often again, I assume." winking at Emily.

To which Emily cheekily replied, "Again and again until you get tired of me.." She grins and Gina laugh giving her a big hug while she also look back at Naomi smiling to which Naomi mouth "Thank you".

"I will never get tired of you Emily. You are family.." Gives Emily one final grip and let go. "So saying that, you will have to eat what I'll cook without complains.." Before laughing again and walking straight to the kitchen.

Naomi look at her. "You dont have to you know that"

"Nah.. I'll love it.." Before leaning in close to Naomi, give her a peck on the lips and whispered.. "And I love you.."

And hearing Emily say those words again, Naomi knows that this time, it will be different, and it fills her heart with warm.

I got her back, Naomi thought.. Finally...

THE END...