Heathers POV
The road slithered through the trees, it was as black and daunting as the woods around it. The cool nights air that had once enveloped Edward and in our own little bubble whooshed passed us, as we slinked closer to the house. Edwards cold hand held onto my mine, we fitted together perfectly. I found myself fitting the urge to compare us to two pieces of puzzle, I managed to restrain myself, just.
I needed to change gear soon and laughed when Edward moved his hand and did it for me. I shook my head as my stomach full of butterflies shook with laughter. I checked the speedometer we were cruising at a smooth eighty-five miles per hour. I smiled smugly to myself, I was yet to meet anyone who could handle a car better than me, my eyes darted over to Edward, well until now.
I began chewing on my lip as I thought of Jasper. I couldn't understand why he was so mad? Had Edward mentioned my being by the La Plush line to him? I knew Jasper better than I knew myself, he wouldn't get that pissed over something so trivial, there had to be more to it.
I took the hidden cut off up to the house and as we approached I could hear the minds of the family ringing out. I slowed the car down as we pulled into the driveway. The whole family gathered outside. I let out a deep breath and got out the car before I changed my mind.
I immediately found my eyes gluing themselves to Jasper, I began breathing unevenly the rage was rolling off him was enough to make you sick. His arms were tensely held to the side of his body, his fists clenched and unclenched in time with my in take of breath. Shit, fuck, fucking hell, dick, cock sucking shitting hell! Once I had my stream of profanities out and in my mind I began to push my mind out to reach Jaspers I hovered on the edge of his mind but shuddered away at the violent images. He realized where my mind was and doing as I had taught him pushed his own out and I was overcome with his violent images. Jasper lunging at Edward and tearing out his throat, Edward being torn apart by wolves, Edward completely separated in a heap his body trying to piece itself back together only for Jasper to rip it apart again. Jasper wanted to hurt Edward for touching me, protective dad much.
Jasper who had the most control of his gift let it slide for a second and the same rage overcame everyone else and oh dear lord it was horrible, I felt it slamming wildly against my shield. Rosalie began to bitch at Alice for borrowing her sundress without permission, Esme screamed at them for arguing Carlisle shouted at Edward for not telling him he had left the house, my beautiful family erupted into a fight, all the petty things they normally let slide became an output for their anger. The only ones not arguing were Jasper, I and Emmett, who seemed to have perfect control over himself. As Jasper reined everyone's emotions in, I dropped my shield however I didn't expect the force of Jasper power to be so strong it still hung in the air as Rosalie refused to calm down. Emmett wrapped his arms securely around her as she kicked and screamed. The anger she was experiencing knocked me literally off my feet, I crumpled to the floor gasping for air. My body shook and shivered much like it had earlier at the beach. I wanted to hurt someone, anyone. Everyone froze as my blood curdling scream reached impossible notes and pain burned my body.
"Oh for fuck sake not again." I growled at the grey gravel in front of my eyes.
How did the wolves do it, how did they handle this kind of pain? That's it I am giving up on anger if this is what happens, I am giving it up. I'm sure they have AA meetings for rage addicts don't they? I'll go join one, hey I'm Heather when I get mad pain erupts everywhere and I cant breathe or move at all. Unless of course you count violent outburst at people or the ground, do they count? Oh did I mention that when I get really mad I think I may just explode into a wolf? But I'm not sure as its never happened to me sure its happened to the voice that lives in y head but not me personally.
Yea that would go down well. I felt a small smile spread out on my face and the tremors and pain stopped, man that was one bitch of a mood swing, I found myself praying to whatever god was real that I was sorry for ever complaining about period pains. Whatever I had just experienced was much worse, worse than being changed into a Vampire. My random rant in my head was to take the piss out of the situation and outlet for my anger but somehow it had stopped the transformation all together.
You use humour to mask what you really feel, humour is your own personal key to controlling your emotions.
Maya whispered gently and I felt proud, hey who said class clowns were stupid? Humour was the key to controlling my Wolf side. I was soon snapped back to reality by the soft cool hand stroking my back and the sweet voice of Edward in my ear asking if I was alright. I wave my hand above my head in a go away gesture.
"I'll be good in a minute." I muttered embarrassed to the ground. I had forgotten they were here.
Slowly I pushed myself up off the ground and leant back on my knees sitting awkwardly on the ground. To my right I saw Jasper kneeling on the ground next to me, I beamed at him as I felt his worry spread out into the front garden. Actually everyone was worried my little wolf episode seemed to have stopped world war three.
Heather are you okay? Jasper thought loudly.
"Yes and no I guess." I smiled up at him and he continued on in his mind.
What happened? His mind has a stern edge to it.
"I'll have to use the image transfer thing; it's a little hard to explain." My voice shook a little, I hated doing this, I felt so on show. I geld out my hand to Jasper and he took it gently, he used to gasp when we first learnt to use this but now he just listened intently as everything that just happened poured into his mind. My thoughts and feelings at the time, what I saw, what I heard he could feel the cool of the sea air. Everything including my panicking about breaking his rules, my fear of him getting mad at me, the hurt I would feel if he got really mad. Everything I had thought at the beach flowed into him. How I thought Jacob attractive, as this thought muddled through I watch him cock his eyebrow I didn't dare look at Edward. Jasper laughed loudly as he watched Jacob and I banter about being hot.
"Hussy." He whispered to me nudging me.
Scowling I let him wonder through the rest if the memory and soon it was my turn to laugh smugly as his jaw dropped at the revelation of the twinned soul thing. I beamed at Jasper smugly and snatched my hand back as my mind fell into the part where Edward arrived. Jasper look confused at my rapid hand snatching away, he quirked his eyebrow at me and shook his head knowing to leave a discussion about that until later. He looked down at his watch and mockingly shook his head.
"Well wolf Girl looks likes its time for you're bed" I opened my mouth to interrupt " I'll explain it to them because unlike you I actually have all night to explain it." Jasper stood up and pulled me to my feet and then straight into a hug.
'Shield up please' jasper asked kindly
'Its up' I whispered back in my mind.
'Good, eh right we will discuss Edward later.' Out loudhe let a small growl at Edward's name slip out which made Alice jump slightly.
"Night Jazz." I beamed up at him and kissed him on the cheek before turning back to face the rest of my family. Everyone looked confused and dazed, I moved over and hugged Esme and Carlisle goodnight, turning I gave the rest of them all a small smile.
"Night guys." My voice sounded meek and quiet very not like me.
"What the hell!?!" Emmett shouted before he could catch himself, surprise and amusement splayed clearly on his face. He stared between me and Jasper then me and the car several times. Rosalie reached up and smacked the back of his head with an earth scattering smack. I chewed my lip nervously.
"You okay Em?" I asked through my own shaky laugh.
"Oh come on, Heather seriously I want you to look me in the eye and tell me the truth. Okay?"
I nodded my head in reply as Emmett rubbed his hands together and threw Edward a cocky smirk, this immediately signalled he was up to no good. Yea I could sneak up into his mind and hear what he was going to ask but I was kind of sick of mental conversations, Jazz and I did it way too much.
"Did you and Edward—." Emmett was silenced by a growl from Edward. "Fine spoil my fun but seriously he let you drive the car?"
"Yea he did." I beamed broadly rather smug with myself.
"He never lets anyone drive that bloody Volvo!" Emmett exclaimed in a huff. I walked over and hugged his massive waist. "Total favouritism." Emmett wined and everyone laughed along.
"No worries Em, you're still my favourite." I offered.
"Good and when Edward doesn't meet your needs you know where to find me." Emmett teased and mocked Edward; I laughed burying my head in his chest.
"Sounds like a plan, I'll see you later big guy." I pushed back off Emmett and winked up at him enjoying our innuendo. This of course was nothing new we liked to see who would take it the furthest. I swear one day out of just being too dam stubborn to give in we were going to end uo making out on the couch.
"Excuse me?" Rosalie interjected with a smile knowing we were only mucking about.
"No worries I can please both my woman." Emmett barked out swinging and arm around mine and Rosalie's shoulders.
"Who says we need you." Rosalie added rather smug with herself.
Okay I'll admit it every single one of us stopped our slack jaws hanging open at her, Rosalie, fucking Rosalie had just made a innuendo. The every thing she slagged us of for making calling them immature and down right vile, she had just made one. My mouth was dry from shock but probably more from the massive make out session with Edward in the car.
"Heather shouldn't you be in bed." Jasper asked with a stern edge to his voice.
I turned and nodded nervously before shouting a quick goodnight and jogging up the steps to the house. As I reached the top step and headed inside I could here the banter between Edward and Emmett outside.
"And you all said I was whipped." Emmett's cheery voice boomed out over the crowd.
"Shut up Emmett."Edward murmured in a huff, he clearly didn't like being called whipped.
I soon reached my room and fell face fist down onto the bed, I didn't bother changing out of my sandy, git covered clothes I just lay there and let sleep take me.
The sunlight streamed in through my window, it slammed into my eyelids causing a searing red haze to burn my retinas. Dam beautifully designed house and its massive window wall. I rolled over cursing Esme for picking such large windows but then again the house was beautiful and she did feed me regularly so I guess she was forgiven.
As I rolled I expected to feel the smoothness of my silk bedspread on my face but instead felt something rock hard being pressed against me instead. My lips upturned into a smile way to big for my face, as I snuggled myself in closer, enveloping myself in Edwards delicious scent. After we made it home last night I didn't get a chance to talk to him or explain my the images I showed Jasper, they were pretty self explanatory though I thought, plus he would be here if he was mad would he?
"You talk in your sleep" his velvet honey voice spoke from where he sat leaning against my head board, I propped myself up no my elbows to see his face better.
"I wouldn't say it was talking, I only murmur random words and or phrases." I beamed at him, he gave me a smile back but it didn't reach his eyes. My heart sank and I peeled myself out of my shield. I could feel his distress and jealously pour off him. My hand reached up and cupped the side of his face.
What's wrong? I asked letting him feel how much it hurt me to see him like this.
"I just don't get why you never told me about going to the beach or about Jacob." Edward stated and I knew this wasn't the real issue.
"Cut the crap Cullen that's nor what really up here." I removed my hand from his face and squared my shoulders to make sure he knew I was serious and now getting a little mad.
"I didn't mention going to La Plush because I didn't know that's where we were going okay and as for Jacob what is there to mention you know everything from when you listened in to my telling Jasper last night."
I exclaimed throwing my hands up into the air. Just as Edward went o argue back the door was thrown open and Jasper was there, eyes as black as coal.
"Outisde now." He growled forcefully, grudgingly I dragged myself out of bed and to the bathroom, changing in record time before following Jasper.
I followed Jasper outside literally scared for my well being. He walked me down the stairs and outside into the woods, we walked in a deathly silence for about half a mile before he turned to face me.
"Why was he in your room, on your bed, right now?" Jasper demanded all but screaming at me. I took a slow breath reminding myself not to let my temper flare.
"I honestly don't know I why he was in my room or on my bed. Jazz I'm sorry but I don't get why you are mad." My voice was sweet and light despite the anger in me right now.
"I just don't like the idea of you and him." Jasper rushed his way through the words anger evaporating.
"Jazz, you practically my dad," I paused closing the gap between us and hugging him tightly. "I just don't get why this all bothers you so much, Alice told you it was going to happen."
Jasper sighed and ran one hand through his hair, the other rubbed soothing circles on my back. I projected all the best memories I could remember of me and Jasper, he chuckled along with funny ones and I swear he teared up a little at the sentimental ones. Every single memory showed how much he meant to me as a friend, brother as pretty much my dad.
"See told you we were awesome." I gave him my hundred watt smile as I finished sharing the best memories, our own little movie montage.
"Of course we are, its just Edwards not..he just isn't, I mean Heather…"
"He isn't what?" I asked a little offended, Edward was mine.
"Good enough for you?" Jasper admitted, it almost sounded like a question the way his voice jumped up at the end. I smiled resting my head on his shoulder.
"Will anyone ever be?" I teased back, I was half joking and I was half serious.
"No never." I could hear the grin in his southern drawl.
"Well looks like you can deal with Edward for now until I find someone else." I joke wincing a little at the idea of being without Edward.
"Yea next joke, Alice has already seen you being around for eternity and I doubt even Edward is stupid enough to let you go." Jasper reassured me.
"Hey that's the one thing about your fatherly anger I don't get you knew one day one Alice said this was going to happen, so what's with the crazy ass attitude now? " I questioned completely relaxed.
"I know, its just you were so stubborn you actually made Alice doubt her visions you changed things for a while you know, Alice started having visions of you and some blonde guy with like orangey gold eyes for a good month or so. But they stopped." Jasper roughly rounded up his weird thinking and frankly I no longer cared what he was talking about, the guy he describe sounded exactly like Ash.
"Ash." I whispered out loud.
"What about him?" Jasper growled and my eyes blurred out of focus I gripped him tighter struggling to see and to breathe.
"Alice's visions sound like Ash." I mumbled against Jaspers ice cold chest as I broke out in a sweat. Jasper gripped me tightly knowing I needed him, I always needed jasper he was my rock my air. It was kind of like trying to make a fish survive without water, it couldn't be done. I knew if I had to chose between keeping Jasper in my life and Edward Jasper would win he was my family, my dad, my brother and it pained me to admit it, but I couldn't live without Jasper.
We stood their clutching each other and I let Jasper into my mind and I let him see the visions that haunted me. Ash leaning over me whispering sorry and how he loved me yet telling me it would be over soon, how he needed to release me. How he had to be the one to bring me back to life because they, always a mysterious they, were tracking my soul and knew I was here. They were coming for me. Then when I felt his sharp teeth sinking into my flesh, the peace that I felt when everything went black, then the burning the white hot fire that burned every inch of me. My screams echoed through the woods, as the carefully placed vault on my memories broke and every excruciatingly accurate detail poured over me.
Ash holding my hand as we lay on the roof of our car and watched the stars, the time we sang at the school concert, dancing oh the beauty of our dancing. Our perfect first date. I remember it so perfectly it was as if I was there now. I was so nervous Ash and I had been friends for a few months now and a week ago he had invited me out to dinner and my heart exploded. I marvelled over his beauty, the perfect hair, big auburn eyes. His prefect lips, his angelic blond hair, his strong chiselled chin and muscled chest. Not only was he beautiful physically but his mind was too, he was smart and funny. He was kind, sweet and caring, also outgoing and dangerous. I liked the bad boy vibe he had going with his leather jacket and torn jeans. I thought it was love.
He picked me up at half six on a warm summers evening, I wore an emerald green dress that Gran had bought me for a wedding that never happened. My hair flowed loosely in brown ringlets and I'll admit it for the first time in a long time I felt hot, beautiful, sexy and alluring. He took me to dinner at the best restaurant we had and then afterwards we walked around the park. It started to rain, we tired to run for cover but it was useless, I have never laughed so much in my life. He hopped up on a bench like an overdramatic idiot and sweetly asked me to dance, I jumped onto the bench too and soon we were waltzing around in the rain to no music at all.
As sweet as that memory was it couldn't be over ridden by that night his dad slapping my face knocking me to the floor, the growls of his sisters as they leaped at me all lusting for my blood. Their ice cold hands crapping at my skin, my bones snapping fiercely as they pulled and clawed at me, they wanted the honour of tasting my blood. The wind slapping my face as I was carried out of the hosue to that damm cottage.
Tears spilled from my eyes and I pounded my fist against Jaspers chest.
"No, no, no!" I screamed at the imaginary face of Ash dancing in my mind. Jasper steadied my fist and cooed softly in my ear.
"He isn't here. Heather look at me." He wrapped his hand under my chin and forced it up to meet his steady gaze. "He will never find you and if he does I will tear him limb from limb. Okay?" I nodded roughly and collapsed back against his chest.
"And too think I brought you out here to read you the riot act and lay down the rules in regards to Edward. I never meant to upset you darling" Jasper admitted the hurt in his voice was clear as day I didn't need to have his power to feel it. I could hear it.
"It's okay." My voice was horse and croaky from crying and screaming. "So what rules are there Dad?"
"Well no sharing a room. No sex. Ever." Jasper laughed and ran his hands through his hair once more. " I don't know just nothing too quickly, okay? I've known Edward for a long time and it would kill Esme if I killed him." He beamed at me and chucked my chin as I nodded shyly.
We sat there just talking about nothing important, neither of us brave enough to talk about Ash or Alice's visions. We kept talking and joking until I was so far away from thinking about Ash, I was back to feeling normal and happy, that is of course when my stomach began growling rudely. In the time it took me to stop laughing at the strange noises being emitted from my body, Jasper had scooped me up and was placing me down on the kitchenette stool to await my breakfast.
As Jasper scrambled up some eggs a regular morning routine when we were in Alaska, he would make me breakfast whilst we bitched about Tanya, laughing out loud so she knew we were talking in our minds. I'm surprised she never tired to start a fight with either of us physically we were such dicks to the poor girl. I combined my mind with Jasper and shared some memories of mocking Tanya however the shrill ringing of the house phone interrupted us. I slipped off my stool in the kitchen and pulled my hair up into a ponytail as I walked into the living room at human pace. My hips swayed in my blue denim jeans and I glanced quickly checking my long sleeved white top was still clean. I patted myself on the back as the inventory said yes.
The ringing of the house phone in the Cullen household is a very rare event, so rare they don't even really comprehend what to do. They gather around the phone and stare at caller id debating who it could be and why they would call. Today was no different; I could hear the various counter arguments for who it was and why Alice couldn't figure it out.
Groaning as I moved towards the phone, everyone's attention then turned to me as I picked it up and answered it like a normal person.
"Hello, Cullen Household."
"How every formal of you. You coming to La Plush today or are we going to have to come get you?"
I laughed at Jacobs's arrogance as I racked my brains for any information relating to my return to La Plush, had I made plans? I didn't think so. I shrugged it off as I leant against the kitchen wall.
"Well formal is my style twin. Eh I don't recall agreeing to visit La Plush today."
"Ha Twin!" Jacob's barking laughing echoed throughout my head. "Not officially but we want to see you again."
"We? Anyway if I do agree to come down what's the plan dog boy?"
"We as in Paul, Jared, Embry and Quil, duh, I don't know hang out, cliff diving, you pick." His condescending tone was not appreciated but I did like the sound of cliff diving.
"Well seen as you miss me I think I can make the effort to come down."
"No need. We're almost at the line anyway, so where's Dr Fang's place anyway?" his hundred watt smile could be heard in his voice and I heard the distinct barking laugh of Paul in the back ground.
"Use the force; I need to get dressed so you'll have to wait in the driveway." I smirked smugly with myself for my awesome star wars reference, yea I did mention how much of a geek I am, didn't I?
Several groans and howls were heard vibrating in the air as Jacob and I exchanged goodbyes. I hung up the phone laughing at their studipty before placing the phone back on the hook. I ignored their disapproving and shocked thoughts making my way back to the kitchen where Jasper waited.
He had just served up my eggs on a plate and I waited patiently for the salt and a fork. He sat my utensils down in front of me and I began devouring the eggs.
"Jacob on his way then?" he asked, he was curious but from what he got from my mind last night he knew I was more than safe. That at least made one Cullen on my side, the most important one papa bear was on my side.
"Yea. Is that okay with you? I can cancel if you want.." I trailed off, I knew he wouldn't ask that of me he was too nice but I through it in for his benefit anyway.
"It's not exactly okay, but you'll go even if I say no you're too stubborn plus my troubles lie with Edward not Jacob. You can handle the dogs" Jasper grinned at me a ruffled my hair as I continued to eat.
"Well seen as you know me so well there is no need to pretend I was ever going you listen to you is there." I answered as I scooped up the last of the egg.
"Hey did you notice we just held a whole conversation out loud? That is a first in a very long time." Jasper stated.
"I'm so proud of us." I replied back my smile growing to big for my face again.
He opened his mouth to speak again but was interrupt by the shrill squeak from Alice, we both turned and bolted to her in fear, for the first time, well ever, all I was getting from Alice's mind was blank. It was completely black.
"What have you done!" she growled at me getting right up in my grill? Grill? Well that's new but lets roll with it, I have a pixie vampire on my ass right now and I am worried about how stupid my inner monologue sounds?
"Nothing…" I muttered.
"I can't see anything and its because of you. I saw you answer the door and now everything is blank. FOR EVERYONE!" She screamed like a banshee.
I shut my eyes a breathed deeply in and out, attempting to control my temper as it flared past even Jaspers control. Don't kill Alice Jasper loves her, it would be bad. Maybe if My body vibrated all over, and my lips kept hitching over my teeth in a snarl, my fist clenching and unclenching at my side. I had never been so mad in my entire life, Alice hadn't really done anything I had been dealt with much worse but for some reason my mind refused to let myself be clamed down.
Violent images flashed through my mind of things I wanted and could very easily to do Alice without moving at all. My body lurched forward but I found my head snapping the direction of the most delicious scent in the world. There was a humming sound in the background and I knew if I wanted to I could hear it but this raw animal instinct was so addictive I like it, I liked feeling powerful and wild, so I ignored the people around me and followed the scent.
Oh it was glorious, the scent of freedom. Fresh rain, husky trees, the smell of man, the smell of blood. I opened the front door to the house, half heartily looking where I was going using my sense of smell the search out this overwhelming aroma. There was more than one of them here, this didn't worry me. I followed the scent all the way to the end of our track where a car was parked up, a Volkswagen Rabbit.
I meandered my way to the car and soon I felt something cold press against my forehead not Edward cold but cooler than me. My eyes flashed up to the creature who smelt like heaven and found the eyes of Jacob across from me. Then there was the rest of the Pack behind him, I lazily moved past Jacob and wrapped my arms around Paul. I sighed out content, Paul smelt the best.
"Dam Jake she is burning up." I snuggled further into Paul's cool touch. I felt the backs of several different hands on my forehead as I clutched Paul, a pretty much relative stranger.
"Heather, look at me." I opened my eyes to find Jared hovering in front of them. "Have you phased at all.." He trailed off as I shook my head.
"Judging by the fever I'd say she is close to it but I don't ever remember anyone being this calm and spaced out before hand." Jared offered. "Its like she is high."
"No everyone was crazy mad." Paul interjected laughing as I held him tightly to me.
"Especially you, man I thought you were going to kill someone." Embry laughed from next to Jared.
"We need to take her to Sam." Jacob stated in a very serious tone.
I nodded roughly in a sigh more than content to stay where I was no longer caring about anything, I could hear Maya.
I'm sorry but its time I came home.
And with that I felt my world go black.
Authors Notes:
So sorry it took me so long to update but I wasn't sure how to work onto the next bit of the storyline but I think this will work so review and tell me if you like it. I know a lot has happened in a short period of time but it should begin to even out and make sense soon.