5. The Talk

Jacob's POV

I watched Renesmee hop back over the river. She was so graceful, the way her body moved in perfect synchronization was unbelievable. I shook my head trying to clear my thoughts. I knew where they were going and it would only cause me more pain to think of her that way.

I thought back to the pain I felt in the forest and shuddered. That was the worse pain I had ever felt. It was one hundred thousand times worse than losing Bella. I always knew I could survive losing her, but without Renesmee I had known that I would die.

I almost don't remember getting myself off the floor and phasing back to wolf form. It was like I was in third person, watching myself do it and feeling sorry for that poor wolf boy. It had been easier to deal with the pain that way. When I made it to the edge of my backyard, I had phased back walking up to my front door but not really seeing where I was going.

Quil and Embry were sitting on the couch when I had opened the door. When they saw me they jumped up to comfort me, worry plain on their faces. I couldn't even tell them I was okay. I had opened my mouth to tell them to just leave me alone, but I ended up balling. Sobs erupted from my mouth and the tears flowed freely. I felt like something had been physically ripped out of my soul. I had fallen to my knees with my arms wrapped around me, trying to stop. I had felt weak crying like that in front of my friends. But they understood, because they had both felt the power of imprinting. They had put their arms under mine and sat me down on the couch. I probably cried for about two hours before the sobs finally subsided and I could actually speak.

"Sorry guys I don't really know what that was." I said lamely.

"Dude, we'll never tell." Quil raised his right hand as he said this.

I heard Embry smack him and I actually smiled. A little. "Jacob don't listen to him. We totally understand bro."

"No you really don't. You have your imprint tell you they don't want to be with you and then you can say you know how I feel." I was a little harsh, my emotions were still way out of control.

That shut them up though and for a while, we all just sat there, gathering out thoughts. "Look man, you can't just not see her."

"If that's what she wants I'm going to do it." I stated plainly. I wouldn't upset her.

"Dude, are you sure you didn't take it the wrong way? Maybe that's not even what she meant." Thank you Dr. Embry.

"I'm sure."

"I think you should go talk to her." Quil said quietly.

"She doesn't want me to."

"Did she say she never wanted to talk to you again?" Embry asked.

"Well…no…"

"Seriously Jake go talk to her." Quil grabbed my shoulder as he said this.

After I went through the conversation in my head, I was glad that they had finally convinced me to go talk to her. It turned out to have worked for the better. I was starting to understand what Renesmee was trying to tell me. This didn't mean I believed her of course, but at least I knew what she was trying to tell me. I walked back to the woods, thinking how I was going to make this up to Embry and Quil.

A/N: I decided to give you another short chapter so I could give your eyes a break.

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