Okay! Here is the story of Bella's stay in Alaska. I hope you enjoy it! =)

Why did I have to come here? Didn't the Cullens have friends up here? Oh well, maybe I won't even run into them, at least I hope I don't. What else could I do? I had heard that Alaska had a lot of forests, and forests had always offered calmness and solitude to me, which is exactly what I needed at the moment. I hunted. I didn't have to, but it was a habit to hunt while I was in the forest.

I had taken down a wolf, feeling a twang of gilt when I did. If that was Jacob, I would have felt so dead. Jake thought that I left for Romania because I found out his secret, even though I had known for a while before I even thought about leaving. Jake had been my safe house, but I had to go. I didn't want to be around anything of myth, but I have missed my best guy friend for so long.

I shook the thoughts of the past from my head and sprang for a passing deer. "Well well well, what do we have here?" I swung around, dropping my prey to the ground. Before me stood a beautiful strawberry blonde, one of my kind. That must be Tanya. Great, of all the Denail's I could have run into, it had to be Tanya. Little miss Tanya, the one with the infatuation with my Edward. Well, I wonder what she would have to say if I told her that we weren't together anymore, and haven't been for over a century. Of course, I would burst her happy bubble with the news of Carol. Tee hee. "Aren't you Bella?" She asked, stunned.

"I am." I answered warily. She smiled widly, moving her hand behind her. Only then did I notice the hot piece of human behind her. "Lunch?" I lifted my eyebrow, smiling mockingly.

She scowled at me. "No, this is Damian. Damian, this is a fellow vampire. She's like me and my family. She's also the lover of my old crush." Old, huh?

"No, I'm not." I corrected her harshly. The man moved forward, creating a barriar between us. I choked back a laugh, as if he would be much of an obstacle. "Edward left me in Forks over 100 years ago, still human."

She gaped at me for a second. "So, how did this-" She waved her hand over me. "-happen?"

"Dracula." I shrugged, and she laughed out loud. "No, just my vampire master in Romania." She nodded.

"So, Edward isn't around?" I shook my head. "Dang. Oh well, come with us Bella." I raised an eyebrow at her. "Just follow me, I'm not going to kill you." She grabbed Damian and slung him onto her back, then took off running. I followed her, matching her pace easily. "So, what are you doing here?"

"Hunting." I answered, completely untrusting of her.

"Oh please, spare me the formalities." She rolled her eyes. "I mean, why aren't you in Romania if that's where your creator is?"

"We, being my 3 coven mates and myself, ran away from that place."

"Did your creator also create those of your current coven?" I shook my head. "Then how did you four come together?"

"We were in the same home, but created by different vamps. My creator was the master of the castle, but he had the few previous servents he had change the other members of my coven, and the various other program students."

"What program students? You all signed up to be changed?" I laughed.

"No, it's nothing like that. It was false advertisment. My creator offered an exchange program to study abroad, and changed all the program students. He has gained a few more servents throughout the years. The program was offered more than-"

"I know, 100 years ago. Why didn't Edward come to check on you?"

"He felt as though he would ruin my life if he were either to change me or be with me until my life ended."

"Such a silly notion." She rolled her eyes, smirking. "I would have just changed you, then at least it would have been a change by someone you knew and loved and trusted."

"Then do you intend to change him?" I gestured my head to Damian. Her expression grew softer, and a small smile appeared on her lips. It occured to me that if she had been human, she would have blushed delicately.

"I do, when he wants to change. If he wants it, then I will change him. I think he's still high on the buzz of being with a vampire, so I want to wait until he gets used to the idea of me and what I am before I do something I might regret. Vampires mate for life, and I don't want to change him if he's not commited to me . . . Bells, maybe that's what Edward felt. Maybe he thought you were just in it for the thrill." I stopped in my tracks. She ran back to me and stood stock still.

I bared my teeth at her menicingly, she flinched back. "Don't you ever, eversay that I was not commited to him! I loved him more than my own life! I would have risked anything to make sure he was safe and happy! I wanted to love him, to always be with him, by his side! But he left, and because he thought I felt nothing for him? That's rediculious! If you ever suggest that I'll-"

And that's when everything went down for me. I took a breath to continue my threat, and the deliciously tropical scent slammed into my throat, filling my lungs with it's temptation. "Bella?"

The venom filled my mouth, and it took all I had not to pounce at the sorce of my discomfort: Damian. "Get him away from me!" My voice was harsh and raspy, not lyrical and light like it had been for years. "Now!"

She glared at me, then took the confused and slightly scared Damian away with her. I watched her run away, fighting the instinct that willed me to follow them. I will not be a monster!

"Do you want to explain to me what the hell that was?" Tanya shrieked at me. "Damian was shaking with fear!"

"I didn't do it on purpose!" I tossed aside the bear's carcass and glared at her. My tongue snaked out to lick up the drops I missed off of my face. "He smelled . . . delicious, good enough to-" I didn't finish my sentence. Horror dawned on Tanya's features and her breathing became labored.

"No." She whispered, fear dripping in her words. "No! You stay away from him!" She grew angrier, possessive of the one she considered a mate. "I don't care if you eat a thousand humans, not Damian!"

"I don't want to! Don't you see that? I'm struggling to protect his life, forcing myself not to kill him! I don't want to kill him, but his scent . . . " Just thinking about it made my mouth water.

"Just stay away from him, or I'll have to deal with you." It was not a threat, it was too kind to be a threat. It was a promise. She was promising me that I would regret giving into my desire, which was an even more haunting future than the red eyes I would obtain in the process. I shivered at both possibilities.

"I don't want to hurt him." I whined, pleading with my eyes for her to believe me. "I won't be the corrupt monster of Hollywood minds."

She looked at me skeptically, not believing my claim. I let out a small whine, and she cracked. "Alright, just don't go near him. Where are you staying?"

I smirked, now relaxed that she believed me. "Forks." She snorted at the irony. "I have to go back, I have school in the morning."

"Then why did you come all the way to Alaska?"

"To run from my troubles, I suppose." She chuckled and led me over to a fallen tree. She sat next to me on the trunk.

"Running away is the worst possible thing you can do, I know this from experience. You have to face them head on and hope and pray you come out on top, otherwise you'll be dealing with the problems nonstop. They'll be at every turn, every exit you try to take, and they'll keep pushing at you and pushing at you until they've finally backed you into a corner and you've broken down. They'll try to break you, to ruin your life. You have to let them know you're not scared to deal with anything they can throw at you."

"But what if I am scared?" I whispered, embarressed to admit the truth.

"Then pretend! Go to Edward and be nice, act like you did when you were friends, before you were a couple."

"But I don't think there was a before." I said. "My memory is foggy of those days, but Edward had always been the bright becon that would call in the nightmares of his departure. He was always my love, I had always, since we started talking, I had always loved him."

She smirked. "Exactly. You're hardheaded, woman." She tsked me. "You still love Edward, and the sooner you can admit that to yourself, the sooner you'll be able to face the real issue."

"And what's that?"

"The obstacle. You feel abandoned by Edward, you don't want to be that way. You have to get over that feeling. You don't want to throw yourself into his arms, but you don't want to reject him. Dip your feet in the water slowly, deal with the emotions that come with the problem. Don't hide from them, because they'll always find you. Face them, then get over them. Edward loves you, and I bet he always has. Now it's your turn. Prove to him that you do have feelings for him, prove that you're not out of love with him."

"I feel like a child." I muttered, and she laughed.

"You act like one too. So grow up. Be a big girl ad deal with your problems, because they won't go away just because you refuse to acknowledge them." I sighed and she wrapped her arm around my shoulders. She squeezed them sympathetically. "Want me to come with you, to Forks, I mean. I wanted to be with Damian, but this is important. I won't let the love of my dear friends be torn-"

"I'm fine." I said, then took a deep breath. I gave her a wavering smile and dislodged myself from her grasp. I stood and faced her, growing more confident. She must have seen the determination in my eyes. She stood and hugged me one last time.

"Good luck to you, my Sister." I giggled, happy she thought of me so.

"Thank you. Hopefully, I will be able to build a resistance towards Damian the next time I visit."

"Here's hoping, because I think the two of you would be great friends. But right now, you have things to do."

"Right. Tell him I'm sorry, and it was nice to meet him. And, I promise not to eat him." She chuckled, then took off without another word to her house, to her mate.

Mate . . . So shall I. I picked up my courage and strength and willed myself to run, to run as fast as I could. I had to face this head on, no holding myself back just because I fear rejection. I knew where I had to go, my destination was clear: Edward. My nerves shivered with happiness as I thought the name, and I grew more eager o see him. I had to!

I must have gone so fast, I almost passed the Cullen's house. I caught his scent, focusing only on the possibility of seeing his face. Would he wrap me in an embrace when I told him I still loved him? He loved me, right? So he would, and the anticipation of that desired moment was what forced me through those doors and up to his room.

I opened the door . . . no. God no! Carol sat on Edward's bed, but not just on the bed, on his lap. She had her talon-like fingers wrapped up in his bronze hair, and she kissed him with as much passion as he kissed her. I'd been a fool to think he wouldn't move on from a mere human! I was a toy to him, completely worthless if he would get over me so quickly. Finally, they came up for air. Carol looked at me from the corner of her eye, and sneered. Edward turned his head toward me, and froze. Shock, that's what killed me.

"B-Bella! It's not like that! Listen to me!" He dumped her on the floor and flew to the door, to me. I slammed it shut, and he stopped. How did I know he stopped? The door was still on it's hinges. I ran, faster than when I came here. I ran to my house and into the safest place I knew. I opened Justin's door and he sat up-right from his bed.

"Bells, are you alright?" I threw myself at him, and he caught me with ease. I melted into his embrace. "Shhh, it's going to be alright, be calm."

"I'm sorry." I sobbed.

"Never be sorry to come to me when you're upset."

"I still love him." I said, not wanting to mislead my coven mate.

"I know." He answered without hesitation. "Since I saw the way you looked at him. You may have acted nonchalont, but your emotions were clear in your eyes."

"He doesn't love me anymore, he has Carol now." Justin stiffened.

"Then forget about him." He said harshly. "He's a jerk and an idiot to ever get over you. You're a treasure, a true piece of art."

"Thank you."

We were quiet for a minute, then he spoke again, his voice sad. "You still love him regardless, don't you?"

"Yeah." I muttered.

Alright! I'm done for now. Okay, here's my complication. My internet at home's off so the only place I can go to post the stories is the Library (yay books!) so it may take some time before I post another chapter, so please forgive my lateness. =)