MARCO POV

"El?" I asked so quietly blinking my eyes and making sure I was not dreaming. "Ellie?" again she just looked at me… what was wrong with her? Why would she not speak? Was I the issue, did she not want to talk to me? Does she hate me? "Els say something please," I said, all but begging her to talk. And then her face crumpled and she said

"Marco I'm so sorry," sobs wracked her thin frame as I encircled her in my arms taking her close and puling her head to my chest. I was soon wet with her tears and steady rivers of my own were streaming down my face. I do not know how long we sat there, entangled in wires, before either of us spoke.

"I'm so fuckin sorry El I should have been there for you I should have seen the signs I never wanted it to end this way-" I said but she cut me off mid-sentence.

" I… was not trying to kill myself I just I needed a release I do not want to die Marco… none of this is your fault," Her voice was surprisingly steady as she spoke in quiet tones to me, her voice barley above a whisper as I once again pulled her close and grabbed her hand as if it was all I had. And she was. Ellie is my best friend. My sister. The only reason I am on this earth. I love her and to hear these words come out of her mouth my heart break into a million pieces.

I knew she was not lying I knew there was no way Ellie would lie about this but somewhere deep inside i knew that I was the reason for her suffering every damn time I was the reason. Remembering the conversation from earlier that day brought these dreaded thoughts to my mind. I had left her alone when she needed me the most, with her dad in the middle of a war and her mom drunk there was no one to listen to her problems or hold her when she cried, there was even no one to tell her they loved her. I should have been that person to do all those things. But I was not there for her.

"I love you Ellie," I said realizing that for the first time in a long while I meant it. "You're my best friend but most importantly you're my sister we've been through everything together and I do not want it to stop here,"

"I love you too and there is no way in hell I could go on without you,"

Sorry guys short chapter but I just got home from practice and I know I promised that I was gonna update on Monday but I hurt my foot and I still have to go to the doctors to see whats wrong… but please review thanks to everyone so far who has I love you guys