Author: Chapter 9 I manage to finish this earlier which is a good thing, I still have time to study, I almost
forgot about my exam, baaaad.
Disclaimer: You know
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They took all the papers and documents that they needed at Natsuki's cabin and Shizuru decided to take a leave to focus on their real problem, her life.
After that little confrontation that they had Shizuru noticed that Natsuki is trying to avoid her more and this is getting on her nerves, she thought they patch it all up, she just had to put an end to this it's killing her and worst of all they're both hurting themselves.
"Have I really hurt Natsuki that much?" Shizuru is not sure if she asked the right question, all she knows is she's getting tired of waiting, they have wasted enough years for this misconceptions for nothing.
Natsuki can't look directly at Shizuru's eyes, she kept her eyes fixed on the floor, she can't find the right words to say and decided to keep her mouth shut. She felt her moved even closer it made her heart beat even faster she felt like her heart is break dancing, and it darn hurts.
"Was my question that hard for Natsuki to answer?" She's getting really impatient they've been in her cabin for almost a week and it's killing her to stay beside her but it's as if they both have their own worlds. All she ever wanted was to be a part of hers. "Answer me." She stood directly in front of her.
Natsuki cleared her throat, "I-I…Yes-no-I-you don't have to ask that you-you already know the answer." She stammered. she's uncomfortable about this discussion.
"*Sigh* Forgive me, I had no idea you were feeling that way before, I know you were hurting but not the way I thought it was. I'm really sorry, I thought were through with this but you've been avoiding me." She lightly brush he fingers to her chick guiding her to face her. "Natsuki have to forgive me for one more thing."
This got Natsuki all confused "For what?"
"For this" She pulled her into her arms and yanked her into her and suddenly kissed her. Surprised made Natsuki gasp, Shizuru took advantage of it and deepened the kiss, She thrust her tongue is side her mouth, feeling, exploring, tasting. Releasing all the emotions she's been trying too hard to control, but now she let all go, making Natsuki feel every the motions that she's been hiding, her love.
Natsuki felt like her knees are starting to melt, her heart is starting to do stunts she can't imagine, her head is spinning. 'I don't want this; I don't want to get hurt again'. Her head keep's on saying this over and over again but her body wouldn't listen, her body had been longing for this woman's touch. And just when she's about to kiss her back she felt her moved away. She instantly felt cold when Shizuru let go of her, immediately missing her touch, she wasn't able to hold back a groan.
Shizuru giggled when she saw Natsuki's reaction. She her self is feeling a little wobbly from the kiss she still trembles a little but she had to stop it before it get's too far and they both regret it in the end. Well she almost did. "Ara-ara Natsuki looks so cute when she's all red." Good thing her voice didn't shake.
Natsuki gave shizuru a deadly glare, she didn't know what to say or do next. Frustrated she walked out the door. She decided to run to tire her self out maybe she could skip dinner and go to bed directly later. 'Bed' just thinking about it made her more frustrated, trying to forget everything, she ran even faster, it might just drown the pain and confusion away.
Shizuru just sigh and watch Natsuki ran away. "Why do you always do that?" she said to her self. "But you can't run away from me this time…I won't let you."
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She looked at the clock. Only a minute has passed the last time she checked on it. "Where are you?" She's getting worried Natsuki has been out all afternoon and it's already fifteen minutes pass nine, dinner has ran cold. She's been dashing around the cabin for 45 times already (she's been counting). "What if something happened to Natsuki?" Thinking about it made her body ran cold. "No, don't panic. You're just being paranoid. Natsuki could take care of her self." She said to her self. "Breath…Shizuru…breath."
Five more minutes have passed before she heard her coming, she rushed to the door. "Natsuki!" She wasn't able to hold her self and throw her self in Natsuki's embrace. "Don't ever…ever do that again." combined worries and panic she wasn't able to hold back her tears, she buried her face on the valley of Natsuki's neck.
Natsuki froze, she wasn't expecting this, she thought she was already asleep, and that they could pass this night without any glitch, but after seeing her all worried, and clinging to her like this Natsuki felt guilty all of a sudden. "O-oi…I-I'm alright Zuru c'mon, lets get inside its getting cold in here." She guided her inside.
The next few hours was spent quietly Natsuki had a quick shower they ate dinner and went to bed.
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Natsuki was waken up in the middle of the night by Shizuru's sobbing. She rubs her sleepiness away and moved closer to wake her up, but before she could reach her she heard her speak.
"Hhhhhnnnn…Suki…com-back…Suki…don't…"
She was taken aback, the next thing she knew Shizuru was crying on her sleep calling her name over and over again. This got her all worried she gently shook her shoulders "Zuru…wake up" she shook her a little harder before she saw her slowly opened her eyes.
Shizuru woke up a little startled, uncertain about her surroundings, she lay silently trying to calm her thumping heart, her nightmare mingled with reality that she's finding it hard to differentiate one from the other. She felt the other side of the bed moved it was then that she realized where she was.
Natsuki took a glass of water and handed it to Shizuru, she watched her took a sip, before taking the glass back to the kitchen; she heard her mumbled thank you. When she came back she felt a little awkward, Shizuru just keeps on staring at her she looks as if she haven't seen her in years. "You alright?" Shizuru just nod her head a still giving her that look.
She just has to make sure, that she's really there with her, that she didn't run away. "Nat-su-ki?"
"Hmmm?"
"Can-can I…" feeling a little unsure but she has to, she needs to "Can I hold your hand?" her chest felt so tight.
Natsuki was caught off guard, but touched, she never thought that she still meant a lot for Shizuru and she's starting to believe her again, and it's scaring her, but watching her like this breaks her. "Sure" she didn't wait for her to hold her hand she did it her self and more than that. She pulled her closer and wrapped her arms around her. "I'll even hold you until you sleep to make your nightmares go away." She inhaled her scent feeling her warmth; 'just for tonight' she said to her self.
All the sleepiness and uncertainties about Natsuki's existence vanished from the moment she felt her warmth. Her arms moved as if it has it's own mind and moved around Natsuki in a possessive way, she buried her face on Natsukis neck, inhaling her scent. She closed her eyes and memorizing every detail of that night, a new memory to remember.
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The dawn is just starting to peek by the horizon. True to her word, Natsuki held her all night, waking up for the first time after 3 long years in Natsuki's embrace, was the happiest day of her life. She didn't want to move, wishing that time would stop and let them be like this forever. She looked at her face, still so beautiful. "If ever I'm going to die tomorrow, I'll die happily because I've been in your arms, even just for one night." She whispered trying not to wake her up, which seems to have not worked.
"Sooo, not going to allow that…I'll have to die first before you do." Natsuki mumbled eyes still closed. She pulled Shizuru even closer. "Sleep…still early."
Shizuru felt like she's in heaven that day, thanking all the gods that she knew and wishing that, that day would never end.
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The next days where much easier and smooth sailing for both of them, they were almost like before. Well almost. Shizuru teasing, Natsuki blushes more often than not, arguing (most of the time) but there are still reservations from both sides, both scared of their own emotions.
They were both sitting at the opposite sides of the kitchen table reviewing the documents about the case, but Natsuki can't concentrate, she can't stop her self from looking at the woman in front of her, and every time she moves she immediately return her eyes to the documents pretending to be so engrossed about it, but the truth is she's been through the same page for the last 30 minutes and she can't understand a word she's reading, if you can call staring at the same words over and over again reading.
Shizuru felt Natsuki's glances; she is trying so hard to hide her smile. Even if Natsuki covers her face with those documents she knows her face is all red. She's been trying to catch her but she's fast. She tried another technique. "Ahm, Does Natsuki has any question with that document? She's been at the same page for quite awhile?" she gave her, her most innocent smile. Her smile even grew wider when she saw her face grew even redder, 'score!'
'I can't believe she noticed that, damn.' She saw Shizuru's smile grew wider, this ticked her off, " Oh heck!" She threw the document back at the table.
Shizuru almost jump from her seat after what Natsuki did.
"Shizuru, you've been playing games with me this entire week." She march on the other side of the table and pulled her up.
Shizuru swallowed hard, she can't read what Natsuki is thinking and she's starting to get a little scared. "I-I really- I wasn't" she tried to reason out, but before she knew what was happening, Natsuki whirled her around and shove her up against the wall. Natsuki didn't even gave her time to think, Natsuki's lips conquered hers. Natsuki's advances blew all her sense of reason; she opened her mouth and gave her the freedom to consume her. With her soft and warm body pressing against her it got her all excited. She knew she wanted her.
The supposedly teasing kiss became deeper and more passionate until Natsuki can no longer control her self. The wolf that she's been trying to control inside got loose and she likes it. Feeling Shizuru's warmth against her skin is driving her crazy. Her hand started feeling her, and she was rewarded by a low moan. After a long time she felt alive.
Shizuru tried to regain control of her self. She pushed Natsuki gently until she ended the kiss. They stared at each other looking flushed; their breathing ragged. They don't need words for this moment they just need each other. Shizuru pulled her towards the bed, but before they could get any closer Natsuki came up behind her and carried her towards it.
Things happened so fast, the next thing Shizuru knew was they're both naked she can't even remember how Natsuki manage to pull her pants off. She pulled her closer needing to feel her. "Nat-su-ki" feeling Natsuki's hands and lips do wonders on her body, threw all her inhibitions away, she wanted no one else but her, her touch, her love, her kiss, her Natsuki.
That night they both pass the wall they built around themselves.
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Sometime during that night Natsuki woke up and found her self naked down to her waste, she grumble a low curse while pulling the covers up, she halted when she felt Shizuru stirred beside her. She drew a sharp breath when she looked at her; moonlight illuminating her skin. "So beautiful" she whispered she gently brushes few strands of her hair that covers her face. She pulled her closer before she covered them with the sheet. She smiled when she heard her mumble 'suki' and arms instantly moved around her hips. "You still dream about me don't you?" She kissed her hair before she close her eyes and went back to sleep.
The next morning when she woke up she was greeted by Shizuru's amber gaze. She felt her throat run dry she was not even able to hide her blush, so she just settled with a smile.
When Shizuru saw Natsuki smile she felt like the sun grew even brighter. She feels so happy, but she can't let Natsuki know that yet, she might overwhelm her, and that wont be good, so she stick on the usual way. "Ara-ara I never expected Natsuki, to be so shy after what she did to me last night *smirk*"
Natsuki felt like all her blood run towards her brain her face feels so warm "Idiot, I-I was ah! Never mind." She pulled the sheets and covers her face with it. She can't believe she did that last night; she acted like a pervert, who didn't have sex for years. Well technically she did but…Ahhh it complicated!
Natsuki's reaction melted Shizuru's heart, for months since she saw her entered her office she dreadfully wanted to see this side of Natsuki. Her Natsuki and it makes her want to cry. She tried to pull the sheets to tease her more but Natsuki won't let go, so she decided to join her under it. Before she could run away, she straddled her and started tickling her.
Natsuki is finding it hard to breath from laughing and Shizuru's unstoppable attacks. "Shizuru stop! Stop! I can't breath." She tried to catch her hand but failed.
Shizuru stopped and contently watch Natsuki laugh. She felt happy, the kind of happiness that she feels only with her. And it's scaring her, because she knew Natsuki won't stay. But until then she'll make the most of it. "I miss seeing my Natsuki laugh." She smiled.
Natsuki cached her breath, she looked at Shizuru, she has never seen her so contented and happy since she came back, yet she can sense there's something wrong, but she's always good at hiding her emotions. "Shizuru, what's wrong?" she asked.
"Nothing, I'm just cherishing this moment."
This got Natsuki a little confused, but touched.
Shizuru knew that Natsuki is sensing something from her, she needed a diversion and she's always good at it. She moved closer and kissed her collar bone, pleased by Natsuki's moan she let her lip travel over her neck kissing, nipping, licking and loving every second of it "I feel a little warm would Natsuki care to join me for a bath?" she asked seductively.
Natsuki gulped she froze feeling all hot all over again; she needed a lot of strength to nod. She saw Shizuru smile before she pulled her up and guided her to the bathroom. 'This is going to be a long day.'
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She knows she's missing something she just can't point it out she studied the documents over and over again. It says there that the stolen designswere approved to be released, but before the company could release the new designs it must be approved first by the board and by the CEO himself.
Then she notices something...the signatures, "Shizuru? Can you come here for a minute, I want you to look at something." She called out.
"What is it?"
"Here look at this" she pointed at the signatures at the documents "I have separated the documents of the first case of stolen designs from the second one. There were five from the first one and three on the second one. They were all signed for release. You're familiar with your father's signature right?" she asked.
"Yes, why?" she looked at the signatures.
"I've noticed something peculiar, there seems to be a little difference with signature from the first one, see here, it's I and J it's a little jagged compare with this one."
"Oh my- Natsuki your right. This first one right here I'm sure it's my father's but this one right here…no this can't be his. That means this documents, it's a forgery *disbelief*."
"Yes, no wonder it was easy for them to get hold of the designs, they were given an authorization to get hold of it." Then she started to analyze things, "Zuru, this designs that your father signed were they really stolen?"
"Yes, we had a copy of that company's brochure; they were our designs that was proven in the court, Now I remember this was brought out by the court my father claimed it was forgery, I never noticed this before, but why?"
Natsuki fell into a deep thought "See here the time line it doesn't make sense, it didn't happened only one's, and in different companies. If it happened before then why did your father keep approving this papers?" Natsuki felt a little hesitant if she should tell Shizuru her theory.
"What is it Nasuki, tell me what you're thinking." She's starting to doubt about her father's connection about all of this.
"I-I think, don't get me wrong, it-it's just a theory." Hesitant.
"It's alright just tell me, it would be better if I know."
"I-I think *sigh* if this signatures were indeed your father's, it means that he knows about the stolen designs even from the start and been covering up for it, his been stilling from his own company."
Shizuru was shocked the very least.
" But why? If you're going to think about it, he wont gain anything from it even if the other companies pay him millions for those designs he would have had more profit if he release it in the market, I mean its his company it would be his own down fall if it continues, *deep thought* unless…"
"Unless what Natsuki?"
"Unless, there's someone else who'll profit more from this and just was using your father, but how did they made Mr. Fujino sign this papers?" she looked at Shizuru "Black mail?"
Shizuru's shock ware off she started to think. "Maybe it's time to give my father a visit."
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Author: Yeay! All done for this chapter, still thinking for the next chapter. Review please thank you!!!