Chapter Title: Regrets?
Author Name: fuzzyalligator
Chapter Rating: T
Word Count: 1,828
Warnings: Things start to heat up a wee bit.
Disclaimer: Not mine, unfortunately. They be J.K.'s -sigh- But I'm on a roll!

A/N: Sorry it's been forever! I've got a really long and boring story that I could tell you about not updating but I won't. I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm back and my Muse has (finally) come back from Hawaii!

Also, just so this won't happen again, I've actually finished the entire fic! That means you guys won't have to wait! Unless something happens and the entire internet shut down…Never mind that! I hope that you enjoy the story and that it's not rushed or anything. I worked really hard on this to make up for the (really) late upload.

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"You've got something on your shirt," Sirius said around a mouthful of spaghetti. Remus had gotten that, an order of fettuccine alfredo (which was now dripping down his red shirt), and some delicious garlic bread.

Remus grabbed one of the many napkins that was littering the small table and cleaned off his shirt the best he could. He pulled his hand back but there was still a little white stain. He mumbled something incoherently as he stood up then started to remove the shirt.

Sirius' grey eyes wandered down to the chest he was exposing and a memory of earlier that morning flashed through his mind causing him to blush. "Wh-what are you doing?" He reached across the two plates to tug the garment back down all the while scolding himself for his squeaky voice.

"I'm taking it off to wash it." Remus looked at him with an arched eyebrow then gestured to the sink behind him. "Is that alright with you?"

Sirius lightly glared at him, "Yeah." He let go and sat back in his seat as he watched Remus pulling the shirt off again after a second's hesitation. Sirius' mouth went dry as he continued to stare at the other man as he walked over to the faucet and try to clean out the milk based sauce.

Remus' back was fairly muscular and an image of it covered in sweat appeared in Sirius' mind. He quickly got rid of it with a shake of his head but then the picture of his wet chest from that morning came back.

'Why is this happening to me?' Sirius tried to imagine Lily yelling at him to hopefully get rid of the tightness in his pants.

This was all new to him. Even when Sirius had been alive he'd never been turned on just by a few pictures of a man's chest or back. Or even a naked woman now that he thought about it. 'Maybe it's just him…'

Remus' movement brought Sirius out of his musing. He was heading back into his bedroom, most likely to change into something else. Sirius was strangely tempted to follow him but stayed in his seat and tried to finish off his food. The doctor came back a few minutes later now wearing a baggy, worn out t-shirt. "Pajamas?" Sirius chuckled lightly at the faded tiger that was advertising some form of cereal.

"Why not?" Remus countered with a smile and playfully petted the large cat on his chest. "I don't think I'm going anywhere tonight. Unless you've plans for us." He picked up his forgotten fork and went back to eating.

"You never know," Sirius said trying to not be obvious about his staring. "Maybe I wanted to take you out somewhere."

Remus laughed lightly then gently kicked Sirius' leg under the table. But because it was so soft, his foot accidentally rubbed against him. Sirius' face warmed as he blushed again then bent his head as if he were scratching it to hide his reddened cheeks.

They both finished a few minutes later and moved into the living room. Remus had finished his other drink then had made himself a cup of hot tea and was now sipping it from a red and gold striped mug. "Do you regret anything?" he asked randomly before taking a tentative drink.

The two were sitting on the couch facing each other. Sirius' legs were outstretched and were resting on the sides of the cross legged Remus. "What do you mean?" Sirius asked as he tried to not stare at him again. He was failing.

"I mean from when you were alive." Remus leaned back on the arm rest with the angel copying his movements subconsciously. "You keep pressuring me to sky dive. Is that something you wanted to do while you were alive?"

Sirius shook his head lightly as he remembered his former life. "The time I came from was much more…conservative. No one even imagined doing that. It was shocking for me to even walk around with a woman by myself." He smiled when Remus gave a quiet laugh. "What about you? Do you regret not going somewhere or doing something?"

The doctor continued to smile as he gently blew on his drink which caused Sirius to look at the puckered lips. He briefly wondered what it would feel like to kiss him but stopped that thought in its tacks before it went any further. "I guess I regret not loving anyone after Nymphadora," Remus said sounding wistful.

"You couldn't find anyone else?" Sirius inquired slightly shocked. How could someone like Remus not fond love again? He was handsome, easy to talk to, and even fun. There were more things that he could name but stopped himself. "No pretty girls?"

Remus chuckled softly making the other man's heart thump again then playfully nudged his foot with his hand; it was warm from the mug. "There were plenty of pretty girls. But none that were as much fun as her."

Sirius smiled lightly even though his heart ached a little at the thought of him being with some woman. He silently wished Remus would about him like that one day. "Do you regret anything else? Something we can do before…you know."

Remus smiled when he said the last few words. "There is one thing." He looked up at the ceiling in thought and stretched out one leg. It brushed against Sirius' and the foot stopped right next to his knee. "But I'm not sure how likely it would be to accomplish it before…you know."

Sirius rolled his eyes with a smile at Remus' teasing then gently probed the foot to break him out of his stupor. "Come on. What is it?"

Remus shrugged lightly and Sirius thought he saw him blush lightly. "I've never kissed another man."

Sirius blinked thinking he'd misheard him. "Another man?" Remus nodded innocently and took another sip of his cooling tea. "But…you were married. Right? You can't be gay."

Remus chuckled again, making Sirius smile from the happy sound. "Just because I was married doesn't mean I'm 100 percent straight, Sirius."

It took a few minutes until Sirius' brain started to work again from learning this bit of information. "So, you're bisexual then?" Remus nodded as he placed his mug on the ground next to the couch. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"You never asked."

Sirius blinked when he realized it was true. "But…why haven't you? Kissed a man I mean."

Remus shrugged again. "By the time that I realized I like men too I was already married to Dora. And after the divorce I never had any time to go look for a random man to snog." Sirius chuckled at the image of Remus going up to some random person and just kissing them. "And in case you didn't notice, this isn't exactly Gay Town. There aren't that many out men or women walking around the streets." Sirius nodded in understanding then thought about kissing him again. He heard the brunette sigh as he got off the couch, taking his warmth with him. "It was just a thought, Sirius. I didn't mean you." He picked the mug off the ground and took it into the kitchen. When he returned empty handed Sirius was still thinking things through. "Is your brain broken?" he joked but there was a worried tone in his voice.

That pitch broke Sirius out of his deliberation with a pleasant idea in his head.

He looked up at Remus and noticed that he was standing uncomfortably. "What if I could find you someone to snog?" he asked standing up too to look him right in his honey colored eyes. Both men stared at one another in silence.

"You can't be serious." Remus shook his head lightly and made his way back to the couch. He sat back down but extended his legs so they were taking up most of the cushion space.

"Actually," Sirius said ignoring the great excuse to use his Serious-Sirius joke, "I am. Why should you regret something as easy as that?"

Remus closed his eyes as he leaned his head on the back of the couch. "And where are you going to find a random man for me to kiss?"

Sirius tried to hide an excited smile that started to creep onto his face against his will as he pointed to himself not caring that Remus couldn't see him. "How about me?"

Remus opened his eyes to look at Sirius shocked. "Seriously?" The angel smiled at the tone. It was wary but there was a hint of excitement and want.

"What are friends for?" This was his chance to see why Remus was affecting him like this.

"I didn't know angels could be gay," Remus commented instead of answering his request. He pulled his legs up and to his chest which gave Sirius enough room to sit back on the couch. Which he did, but this time he chose a spot much closer.

"Technically I think we're asexual," he said then chuckled when Remus rolled his eyes obviously trying to hide a smile. "Besides, you know you can't resist me."

Remus groaned at the terrible attempt at a joke then shifted, clearly uncomfortable under the other man's gaze. Sirius was about to take back what he said after a few silent moments but stopped when he looked at Remus' eyes. Instead of their light honey color they were now a deeper shade. Sirius wondered why their color changed but was pulled from his thoughts when he heard what Remus said.

"Alright."

Sirius smiled at the doctor getting a shy one in return.

'He's so cute like this,' he noted silently, not noticing how weird that was coming from a supposed asexual angel. Remus moved his legs so they were now crossing again, allowing Sirius room to lean forward.

Kissing Remus wasn't what he was expected. Sirius imagined it would be just like all the girls he'd kissed when he was alive and younger. Nothing to special, just lips touching then they'd be done. Instead, just the mere touch sent shivers down his spine and all the way to his toes.

Without thinking, he bent forward slowly as he closed his eyes and deepened the kiss. He felt Remus give in to his pushing and both leaned back onto the arm. Sirius rested his hands on either side f Remus as he lightly sucked on his lower lip briefly then pulled it into his mouth where he gently nipped it. Remus slowly wrapped his arms around his neck to pull him closer with a low moan which sent another shiver down his back.

Just as he was about to deepen the kiss again there was a loud knock on the door. Both men pulled apart quickly just as an old woman's voice called through the front door. "I should go," Sirius said hoarsely looking down at a flushed Remus before disappearing.

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